Today a curse of a woman
I was born shaking in an ocean
a mutant sent randomly from mars
completely seperate then
right now even more average than everybody else
my alleged brilliance in being muffled
throat is thick with disgusting heat
why won't someone just kick me square in the mouth?
please hurt me so that I can go maybe back to life
shut me up like a dead fucking doll
It's unbecoming for words like that to come out of ugly little girls
Yeah I'm angry and I feel like cursing
perhaps its the grind of trying to behave
only takes a month of false normality to drive me insane
I feel like spitting sacred blood all over a building
my goddamned human waste will break in the windows first
make that manmade piece of shit sink
into the center of the earth
furious red from deep inside of me
straight down into that rumored pit of hell
which I dont even believe in
I'm a violent curse of a woman today
killing things I usually adore
I want to be consoled but no one understands
each of the layers burning now
Not even that helpless little beast of an ovary that I created
she sprang from my pen
now her woes feel like a mental brawl which I can't easily end
my voice and hers melted deep far too fast
brought up pain I can't fix for myself
so how the fuck am I to fix it for her?
I want to be alone alone alone
light my hair on fire and lay in the grass dissolving
tomorrow all of this madness will have evaporated
but today my heart is destroyed
and the only thing that might help is a solid rain
drowning the harm out my perfectly mangled body
