One Heart, One Soul, One Body
by Grace
Preface
I wrote this after one of Ben & Meg's conversations after Meg found out about Ben and Maria (when you start reading, you will know which one). I mean, I've seen these episode a hundred of times since it was aired on Channel 5 but when it was shown in Poland... I don't know, something just hit me. I got so angry and mad that I had to do something. So I wrote my version of this conversation, not very long but... you know. I hope that Ben & Meg fans will enjoy it much more than the one on TV.
***
What would have happened if Ben and Meg's August 1999 conversation by the pier had gone into another direction?
Ben: Meg, look, I can't do this.
Meg: Do what?
Ben: I miss you like hell, Meg.
Meg: I miss you too. But there's nothing you can do, you can't change it. You made your choice when you took Maria to the casita.
Ben: Excuse me? What are you.
Meg: How could you do this Ben? How could you do this to me? How could you hurt me like that? This was OUR place, it meant so much to us, well at least that's what I thought. But I guess it didn't mean so much to you as it did to me.
Ben: Meg, what.
Meg: You know, when we used to go there. Everytime you told me that you loved me, I believed you. And everytime you told me how important the adobe was for you, I believed it too. And when we broke up, I was hoping that maybe, just maybe, the little part of us will stay forever at the adobe. But no, you had to take even that away from me. I really believed that you meant all those words you were saying.
Ben: I meant every single word I said to you at the adobe.
Meg: Yeah, just like you meant every single word you said to Maria there?
Ben: What are you talking about?
Meg: What am I talking about? You wanna know? Then I'll remind you - I'm talking about you taking Maria to OUR place.
Ben: Excuse me? What the hell do you mean? I've never taken.
Meg: How dare you?
Ben: Meg, I don't know who told you.
Meg: Nobody has told me anything. I saw it with my own two eyes.
Ben: Meg.
Meg: Ben, don't try to deny it. I saw everything (she starts crying) Champagne, the gardenia, your links, Maria's sweater on the floor. I saw it OK? There's no point in denying Ben.
Ben: Meg I swear that I have never even taken Maria to the casita.
Meg: Don't do this to me Ben. Please, at least, don't lie to me.
Ben: I'm not lying Meg. I don't know what you saw or when but Maria has never been to the casita. Do you think I would just take her there forgetting about how much this place meant. means to us. As you said, it was OUR place. How could you think that I forgot about it. Meg, you know that I've never lied to you and I never would. Please, look into my eyes (Meg does what he asks her for). And now tell me that I'm lying (For a moment Meg gets lost in Ben's eyes and after a while she knows)
Meg: I'm sorry Ben (she cries) I should have known better. But still how do you explain what I saw?
Ben: And what exactly did you see?
Meg: Few days ago I saw you and Maria going away together. Later Tess brought my laundry . I asked here whether she knew where you two had gone to but she wouldn't tell me. Then I realized that Tess had returned one of Maria's dresses so I went to give it back. That's when I heard Tess and Benjy talking about you and Maria going away together - Tess told Benjy that you had gone to your house in the desert and told them not to wait up.
Ben: Oh God, I don't know what's going on here but I'm going to find out.
Meg: Ben, no matter what's going on that won't change the fact that you went somewhere with Maria.
Ben: I was driving her to the airport. She wanted to go to Seattle to find out if she remembered anything. Meg, you believe that don't you?
Meg: Of course I do but. Ben, you slept with her. Even if not in the casita, you did. You did want her.
Ben: I didn't want Maria. All I wanted was to forget about you - to get out of my head the vision of you kissing Casey. Telling him that you don't want to see me ever again. Telling him that all I did was hurt you.
Meg: Oh my God, you were there.
Ben: Yes, I was and you have no idea how hurt I was. (he looks into her sad eyes) God, of course you do. That was when you thought that I had taken Maria to the casita, wasn't it?
Meg: Yes, I just came back from Palm Springs and run into Casey. I was so furious, upset. so hurt. I did and said things I didn't mean. (Meg looks at Ben knowing that he is thinking exactly what she is) Ben, of course hurting me was not the only thing you did. We had our moments of happiness and I wouldn't take them back for anything.
Ben: I wouldn't either. I mean, these were the happiest moments of my life.
Meg: But that's in the past Ben. It's over now and we have to live with that. We have to move on. I need to go, bye (Meg turns to walk away but Ben takes her hand making her feel a thirill all over her body. He looks deep into her eyes)
Ben: And what if I told you that I love you. That I've always loved you and I've never stopped. That I go to sleep alone hoping that when I wake up you'll be there. Hoping that you leaving me was just a bad dream and I'm going to wake up in your arms just to hear that you will never leave me again. Don't you know that everytime I see you, I can't stop wanting you. Everytime we meet and we are so close it seems as if we were so far away. Don't you know that it drives me crazy when I see you and I can't hold you, I can't kiss you, I can't feel you by my side, I can't feel your warmth, your heart beating faster next to mine. And that's the only thing in the world I really want - to be with you (Meg is crying, she can't believe what she has just heard, she has no idea what to do, what to say. She just keeps staring at Ben. He takes her hands in his) Meg, please, look into my eyes and tell me that you don't feel the same way - if you can do that, if you can tell me to go away looking into my eyes, seeing what's in them, then I will go. But. (Ben stops feeling that he said it all. He only realizes that he has never wanted Meg more than he does right this moment)
Meg: Ben, if everything you say is true, then why are we here? Why does such a conversation even take place? Because. (Meg hesitates for a while not being sure if she should listen to her heart or her mind) Because I feel exactly the same way about you (as we see - the heart wins) And no matter what I do or say - I've never stopped loving you. I don't think I could ever stop loving you. Not after everything we've been through. Not after everything you mean to me - you're my soul mate, you complete me (Meg suddenly edges away angry at herself that she has let it happen, that she let herself say those things) But sometimes you have to give up, you know, to let go.
Ben: No, you don't. If you feel so strong about me then I know that we can face everything together. That nothing can keep us apart.
Meg: Something, or shall I say someone already has.
Ben: If you're talking about.
Meg: Yes, I'm talking about your son who hates me.
Ben: I don't care what Benjy thinks, if he can't see how special you are, then that's his problem.
Meg: How can you say that?
Ben: I can. Because I'm not gonna let anyone come between us, not even my son I won't let him ruin my life. Because my life is worth nothing without you. I'm nothing without you and your love. And if I ever thought that I can let you go, I was damn wrong, because I can't. I can't live my life without you Meg. I know that for sure now.
Meg: Ben. (This time Meg cries for real, her eyes are wet, as well as her cheeks, she knows that everything Ben said to her was true and was coming from the bottom of his heart) Ben, I don't know what to say.
Ben: Don't say anything (Ben comes closer to her and starts wiping tears from her face. This simple action is enough to make Meg blazing) Hey, it's gonna be OK, I promise you (Meg still feels the warmth of Ben's hand on her cheek)
Meg: I love you Ben. No matter what happened, I have always loved you. And I always will.
Ben: I love you to Dorothy (Meg shivers as she hears that name) From the first minute I meet you over the Internet.
Meg: And I loved you even before that.
Ben: You did?
Meg: Yes. I just knew that somewhere over there was my soul mate, my destiny. You. (Ben leans forward and gently touches Meg's lips with his. Meg heart starts to flutter, so does Ben's)
Ben: Did you hear that?
Meg: What? I didn't hear anything except for the beating of our hearts.
Ben: Exactly (He starts kissing her more passionately and she returns the kisses with even bigger passion) God, you have no idea how much I've missed you.
Meg: I've missed you too (Meg stops caring about anything - about Benjy, Maria, Tess. The only thing that matters is that she is in Ben's arms again and she can't remember when was the last time she felt so wonderful)
Ben: I love you (Ben one more time whispers those three little words as he kisses Meg's ear. But she doesn't want him to say anything, she just wants him to love her. He starts to kiss her neck. She unbuttons his shirt and starts kissing his chest. Ben moans with pleasure as he rapidly gets rid of Meg's blouse. Nothing matters now, just the fact that they are together. That once again they become one.
***
Ben and Meg are lying on the beach, wrapped in each other's arms, enjoying each other's touch.
Meg (thinks to herself): Oh my God, he feels so wonderful.
Ben (thinks to himself): Oh Gosh, I knew it would be wonderful to be with her again but that was even more incredible than in my dreams.
Ben and Meg together: What are you thinking about? (They start laughing)
Meg: OK, you go first.
Ben: All right. I was just thinking that I could stay like this forever.
Meg: That would be pretty wonderful (Meg comes to reality) But we can't Ben. We can't. We shouldn't have done that in the first place. That was wrong. I shouldn't have.
Ben: Shouldn't have what? Let yourself do what your heart was telling you to?
Meg: I wanted you. And that was wrong. It shouldn't have happened.
Ben: That's not true. And you know it. It happened because it was supposed to happen. It was meant for us to find each other. It was meant for us to be together this night (He looks deep into her eyes) And all the other nights till the end of times. And we will be together forever. And for the next couple of days we're gonna be not only together but also alone.
Meg: What do you mean?
Ben: Meg, let's go away for a few days.
Meg: Oh no, don't. You know, I might have let my heart win over my senses.
Ben: That's right - your heart. Do what your heart is telling you to.
Meg: Ben, you have a wife and a son. You can't leave them just because.
Ben: Because I want to spend a few days with the love of my life. Because I want to show her how much I love her and how much she means to me. Because I want to make up for every single tear she shed because for me. Because I want to make her feel loved. That's why I want to leave for a few days.
Meg: Ben, you don't know what you're saying.
Ben: I know exactly what I'm saying. I wanna take you away from all this - from Maria, Tess, Benjy. From everything that makes you forget how much I love you.
Meg: Ben, I don't know.
Ben: Look, do you remember Maria's death anniversary when you were helping me get through the night at the Deep. When we were.
Meg: Dancing to "Beyond the sunset" (Meg smiles) Of course I remember.
Ben: So you also remember what you told me then - you asked me to pretend that we were not Ben and Meg but two lost souls who finally found each other. So now I'm asking YOU to do that - forget about everything, let's pretend that we are the only people left in the world.
Meg: That's not gonna work out Ben.
Ben: It is if we try. If we use all the love we feel for each other, we're gonna make it.
Meg: I don't know Ben.
Ben: I do. Come on Meg. Trust me.
Meg: Ido trust you.
Ben: Then come with me. Please, tell me that you want to escape as much as I do.
Meg: Yes Ben, I want to get away with you and get lost with you forever.
Ben: So?
Meg: I'll go away with you. I don't know how it will end but I wanna try.
Ben: The let's do it, shall we?
Meg: But where do you want to go?
Ben: I don't know and I don't care as long as we're together. Just tell me where you want to be and we're there.
Meg: Well, I've always wanted to see Venice.
Ben: Then we're off to Venice (Ben takes his cell phone to call the airport but Meg stops him)
Meg: I was kidding silly. (They both start to laugh)
Ben: OK, then where do you want to go for real?
Meg: I don't care. You'll figure something out and in the meantime I will pack my things.
Ben: All right, but promise me that you won't change your mind about leaving.
Meg: I promise.
Ben: Are you sure?
Meg: I'm positive.
Ben: That's good (Ben kisses Meg's hand and then lips) So, see you in half an hour here.
Meg: I'll be there.
Ben: I'll be waiting (He watches as she goes away and then heads his house to pack his things. When he's done, he makes a call to a hotel in Santa Barbara to book a room for a few nights. He feels happier than ever. He takes a pen writing a note for Maria but just as he is about to leave, Tess appears at the door)
Tess: Ben, what are you doing?
Ben: Something I should have done long time ago.
Tess: Which means? (Tess doesn't get the answer because Ben is already gone)
***
Meg enters Surf - Central very quietly not wanting to wake Casey up but she realizes that he is still awake.
Casey: Meg, I'm glad you're here. I was starting to worry. Are you OK?
Meg: I'm fine.
Casey: What took you so long?
Meg: Don't ask. Look, there's something I need to do. Excuse me (Meg walks upstairs to her room and packs her things. She writes a note for Casey and goes downstairs. Casey sees her bag)
Casey: Meg, what are you doing?
Meg: Don't ask me because I don't know that myself.
Casey: What do you mean?
Meg: I'll call you. Bye.
Casey: But Meg.
She storms out of Surf - Central. Casey goes to her room and reads a note saying "Casey, I'm going away with Ben. Yes, I know it's crazy but that's what I want. Meg. PS - Ben did not sleep with Maria in the casita".
When Meg gets to the pier, Ben is already there
Ben: You came (he smiles)
Meg: I told you I would.
Ben: I know (He leans forward and kiss her as if making sure that she's for real)
Meg: So, where are we going?
Ben: You'll see.
Meg: Ben, you know that.
Ben: Don't even try your games because I'm not gonna tell you where are we going. It's a surprise.
Meg: I hope that a good one.
Ben: Believe me, you'll love it.
Meg: I can't wait (He takes her hand, leads her to the car and opens the door. Then he puts the bags into the boot and gets in the car)
Ben: Get ready.
Meg: I am ready (Ben starts the car and they set off. Not more than ten minutes passes when Meg falls asleep. Ben looks at her peaceful face)
Ben: Sweet dreams, sweetie. You deserved it. (He strokes her hair and lets her fall on his arm. When they reach Santa Barbara, Meg is still sleeping. Ben smiles and starts waking her up)
Ben: Wake up Meg. We're here.
Meg: Did I sleep all the way here?
Ben: Yes, you did.
Meg: I'm sorry.
Ben: Don't be. You needed it.
Meg: I guess you're right. Well, at least I had a wonderful dream.
Ben: And what did you dream about?
Meg: You.
Ben: Me? (He smiles)
Meg: Yes, you.
Ben: Then if that was a good dream, I promise you that everything you dreamed about will become reality. Very soon. (He helps her to get out of the car and takes the bags from the boot. Hand in hand they walk into the hotel)
Meg (screams): Oh my God! That's the hotel we were staying in for our Thanksgiving last year.
Ben: Exactly the same.
Meg: Ben, I can't believe that you did this (she kisses him passionately) Thank you, thank you very much for this wonderful surprise.
Ben: My pleasure.
Meg: You are incredible!
Ben: One example of what love can do to people.
Meg: I love you.
Ben: I love you too (They start to kiss but the hotel boy interrupts them)
Hotel Boy: Uhmm, uhmm (Ben and Meg pull away from each other) I'm sorry to interrupt but is there anything I can help you with.
Ben: Actually, yes. I have a room booked here. My name is Ben Evans.
Hotel Boy: Wait a minute (He walks away and after a while he is back with the key in his hand) Here you are, room number 127. Have a nice stay.
Ben: Thank you.
Hotel Boy: If you need anything, just call.
Ben: We will. Thank you.
Hotel Boy: No problem. Goodnight.
Ben: Goodnight.
Meg: Ben, don't tell me that.
Ben: The same room, the same key.
Meg: I can't believe it.
Ben: Well, you'd better believe it because that's our new home. For a couple of days at least (Ben takes the bags and the go to the room. When Meg opens the door, she's thrilled - it's full of white roses)
Meg: Ben, how did you do that?
Ben:Oh, I have my ways (Ben smiles and locks the door)
Meg: It's incredible. I can't believe. Ben, you are the most amazing man I know.
Ben: And you are the most incredible woman I know. And I want to make sure that you have everything you deserve to have.
Meg: You are the only thing I need. You make me feel so important, so special.
Ben: That's because you are. You are a beautiful, smart, loving, caring, compassionate woman. And your love is the greatest treasure for me and I will cherish it for the rest of my life.
Meg: Well, that's the only thing I could give you.
Ben: No, you gave me so much more - you gave me trust when no one else was willing to, you were my shelter from the rain, you were the best friend I could talk to. You gave me your beautiful smile which was always able to cheer me up. You gave me many sunny days and many tender nights. And I will never, ever let you forget how important you are for me.
Meg: And you. You are everything I hoped for for all my life. And now that I've found you I'm so scared of loosing you.
Ben: You won't loose me (He kisses her gently) Never.
Meg: Can you promise me that?
Ben: I promise. I won't let anything take you away from me. Do you hear me? Anything (Meg kisses him with passion and lust. She wants to feel him, to feel his strong arms around her naked body, to feel his caress which gives her so much pleasure. She wants to make Ben feel how much she loves him. She wants to be with him more than ever. And as we know - stubborn girls from mid - west always get what they want.
Later at night, either of them can sleep. They both breathe the magic of the moment as they lay beside each other feeling each others warmth. And nothing else matters, nothing else exists - just the two of them lost somewhere between the moon and the stars.
THE END
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