Chapter 27 Christmas Eve
I got released from the hospital on December 24 on the morning. I was happy to get away from the hospital. All of my family and friends went to visit me at my house. Hanson went to my house, early, they all were there.
“How are you feeling?” Diana said sweetly. I can’t believe she wasn’t mad at me, I thought she was going to be mad at me because I was pregnant and the baby belonged to his son.
“Fine thanks” I answered shyly. Ike, Tay and Zac brought me some flowers. I was glad to see Zac. He was holding my hand and that made me feel more guilt. We were all at the living room and everyone was happy. They talked and laughed. I just wanted to yell at them, Wake up! I killed my baby! It made me feel so bad, that I had to fight my tears.
My mom invited them that night to celebrate Christmas with them, like every year. But this year was going to be completely different; I have killed some one, someone that was inside me, my own flesh, my own blood. I couldn’t forgive my self for doing something like that. When I walked up to my room, when everyone left, I felt a horrible pain in my ribs. I had to stop and take some air and then walk again. The doctor told us that I had broke 2 ribs. I felt a lot of pain.
That night I putted a dress that my sister Nicole bought me. It was light pink, really sweet. Nicole entered to my room and she saw me with the dress and she smiled and I saw a tear rolling down her cheek.
“Are you crying because I killed my baby?” I said sitting down. I felt how tears burned me.
“How can you say something like that Tina!” my sister said at me angrily.
“I can’t handle it anymore Nicole. It hurts so much, I killed my own baby” I said crying even harder. She came and hugged me. I saw Vicky; she was holding Santiago on her arms. I just pictured me holding my baby.
“What happened here?” Vicky asked worried.
“Vicky, I killed my baby!” I said crying.
“No you didn’t,” she said holding me.
“Come on, we have to be happy for tonight T. Itz one day before Christmas and you are going to be with everyone you love” Nicole said pulling me softly from my arm and taking me downstairs.
We all helped mom to make dinner, I couldn’t do much cuz the doctor prohibited me to do effort, I was supposed to be resting and my mom send me to watch TV. I wan’t in the mood to watch TV and went to the living room and sat down staring at nothing. I felt so much guilt inside me and wondered if Taylor felt the same way I did, after all, he was the father.
“Tina come down, they already arrived” Nicole yelled from downstairs.
“Coming” I yelled back. I tried to stand up, but I couldn’t, I felt weak. I made my best effort and went to greet everyone.
“How are you feeling today?” Ike asked me. We were all in the living room. My mom just called the doctor telling him I was feeling weak and he told her that I need to rest and that I had to go to the hospital in 2 days.
“Not very well” my hands were shaking.
“You will feel a lot better after eating something” Ike said trying to comfort me. I couldn’t eat anything. Zac was sitting besides me and he wasn’t holding my hand. Tay was in front of us with Ike. The kids were playing and running every where. I envied them, they didn’t had any problems at all.
“Guys, would you please leave Tina and I alone so we can talk?” Tay asked Zac and Ike. Zac looked at me and I nodded. Taylor sat down next to me and grabbed my hand sweetly.
“Taylor, do you feel guilty?” I asked him before he could say anything.
“A little” he said smiling. I couldn’t believe what he was saying.
“A little?” I asked shocked.
“Yes, why should I feel guilty, you killed my baby, not me” I just stared at Taylor shocked. I felt pain ran thought my body.
“What? I can’t believe he was saying this.
“You killed him, not me” he whispered on my ear evilly and left me alone. I stood up to look for my mom; I needed her so much. When I spotted her on the kitchen, I faint.
When I woke up I was lying on my bed. My mom was holding my hand. I saw Zac sitting next to my sister Nicole. I felt weak and couldn’t stand up.
“Hi baby, how are you feeling?” my mom asked me.
“I feel weak” I answered.
“The doctor said you should be in bed for 2 more days” my mom informed me. I didn’t want to ruin my family’s Christmas.
“Mom, I am ok”
“You lost too much blood, they are going to make you some blood tests to see if you have anemia” I didn’t care if I had anemia, I just wanted Taylor to feel guilty.
“Mom, can I talk to you alone, please?” she nodded and everyone that was in my room left.
“What is it dear?” she said touching my face softly.
“Mom, I feel like I don’t deserve to be your daughter?” I said almost crying.
“Tina, don’t say that! I love you no matter what” she said kissing me.
“Mom, I killed my baby and I feel so embarrassed that you and dad and everyone knows that I had sex” I felt so ashamed to say this, but this made me feel a lot better.
“Oh God…Tina, baby, we are going to go through this” she said. They knocked on the door and it was Zac. He told us that dinner was ready. Mom and Zac helped me to get down. Everyone was sitting on the table. I had to sit between Taylor and Zac.
“Tina, why don’t you say the first payer” my dad said. I was ver nervous.
“God I want to thank you for making Zac and I be here tonight. I…I…” I couldn’t finish the prayer and started crying thinking of my baby. Zac hugged me and also did Tay.
“God, we want to thank you for making all of us be together here” Diana said sweetly.
“God forgive Tina for killing my baby” Taylor whispered on my ear. I felt how my hands started to shake.
“Amen” all of them said and I cleaned my tears away. They all started to eat but not me. I didn’t felt like eating and worst to be sitting next to Taylor that all the time was grabbing my hand. Everyone made me eat, but I just felt like I wanted to throw up.
When we all finished we went sit around the Christmas tree. I sat down on the couch and Zac sat on the floor next to my foots.
“Tina this is a gift from your dad and me” my mom said handing me a little box. I opened it and inside it had a necklace. It was beautiful, it said, “We love you Tina”. I found it beautiful and kissed my dad and my mom.
They all opened their presents. I didn’t have presents for anyone, and that made me feel bad.
“I am so sorry I don’t have presents for any of you,” I said feeling guilty.
“Tina, don’t feel sorry! We were for 2 days in the hospital, you don’t have to worry about that,” everyone said.
“Your gift from you to us is that you are here with us” Taylor said holding my hand. He was a hypocrite. I made a fake smile.
Diana and Walker gave me a book, a beautiful red coat. I thanked them so much; I couldn’t believe they still liked me. Taylor gave me a simple bracelet, I thanked him and he kissed me softly on my lips. I felt disgusted. Zac gave me a box of chocolates with a shape of a X-mas tree and inside had a note like in a heart shape that said:
“Tina,
I love you
Your friend for life:
Zac”
It was really sweet and I kissed Zac on his cheek. I wanted to kiss him in his lips, but everyone was there. Ike gave me a cute card and a candy stick. Everyone gave me special gifts, but Zac’s gift was the best gift. They stayed till 3 am. I was really tired and went directly to bed.
Chapter 28 Revenge
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