If I keep going like this I will be dead before I'm 30.

They will have won.
They will not know enough to be sore winners because
I do not matter to so many of them.

Mostly you do not remember the people you hurt when you or they are young.
But I remember you.

If I say your name three times will you magically appear?
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This is the beginning of a period of time in which I will be doing more and saying less than I ever have before.
I need to find words that mean something.  These do not.

The human vocabulary consists of over 5,000 words.
too many of them have no consequence.
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Volume down to 0 and it's still playing.
I cannot shut it off unless I unplug it.
I have wanted to do that before.
There's a certain peace to being unplugged.
Some of my best friends are unplugged.

Some people's plugs are entirely too long.