Title: Fighting for Control Author: Angel hotaru Rating: Dunno E-mail: angelhotaru@sailormoon.com I wrote this a while ago, but never posted it on my site. Don't know why...Anywho, I have no idea why I've decided to write this, but I'm hoping it turns out somewhat powerful. It would be nice if this got some reviews (wink wink)! Enjoy! Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon, there is that good enough? ***Begin*** I am Tomoe Hotaru, and right now, not in control. I can see and hear, dimly. I realize that my body has been taken over by Mistress nine, whch is scary...incredibly scary. I can see my father, he is standing beside the adult version of my body, which I am in, trapped underneath Mistress nine. I hope that help will be here soon, but I also fear it. Help can only come in the form of Sailor Moon, who I know is the true messiah, as Mistress nine is the messiah of silence. Or am I the Messiah of Silence? Darkness? It doesn't really matter right now. All I know is that if Sailor Moon comes she will bring the chalice, and she will give it up to save me, ultimeitly allowing the world to be destroyed. As soon as she has it this woman inhabiting my body will call Pharoah 90, and when he comes, from across time and space, he will destroy the world, he will fill it with silence. Papa! My father has passed out! The demon that was inhabiting his has left, to battle Uranus and Neptune. Mistress nine is pulling Sailor Moon through the rift, and then we are in my body, my young body, again. She's playing dead, or she's pretended to faint. As me, of course. "Hotaru!" Super Sailor Moon calls. No! I think, don't come here, leave, or destroy her...and me. "Hotaru" a different, more groggy voice calls. It's my father, though he's still unconscience. Ah, I love him so much. If only I had the strength to save him. Mistress nine begins to speak, with my voice as Sailor Moon is helping her/me up. "The chalice, Usagi...give it to me, It will save Chibi moon and me!" I try to keep her from speaking, but it's in vain Sailor Moon looks as if she is about to hand it over when she stops. "How do you know I'm Usagi?" she asks, then she pulls away. "you're not Hotaru!" Mistress nine laughs. "Yes I am , but in body only!" She is now back in my adult body. I want to scream "Leave me out of this!" I feel myself pushing to regain control. "What happened to Hotaru?" She asks. Mistress nine laughs, her infineitely long hair whipping around. "I absorbed her. I control her!" Then she says more, about her being an alien life form, and how she has possessed me, and I mentally shudder. I can only feel my limbs as the move, my mouth as it talks, only they are foreign, and I can't control them...I can't control them. I want to cry, but I have no control. A door opens and mistress nine turns, allowing me to see, too. Its Sailors Uranus and Neptune. Usagi crys out. "for the future of the world we will destry you!" Sailor Uranus yells. "No!" Sailor Moon pleads. "Wait!" At that exact moment Mistress nie turns my head, and all of the cosmos is revealed from behind a black curtain. "Wait only a little longer, my master," my voice says...my voice. It's kind if like being suffocated, and I can feel like I'm beginnig to be clastrophobic. Can you imagine how awful it is to feel like your own body is betraying you? I push harder. I feel for a moment I am free, and I say the only thing worth saying, at least to me. "I'm so sorry, Chibi Usa, my friend..." I feel Mistress nine taking over again, and she is mad, and a little frightened. She needed to be in control all the time. But she shows none of this fear. "She's gone." Mistress nine says, annoyance lacing her words. She knows that I'm not, but if the senshi think I am... "hotaru!" Cries Usagi. "Stop! She's gone!" yells Uanus, Neptune silently agreeing beside her. Mistress nine smiles evilly with my mouth and says evenly "She's right. Hotaru just died." Liar. And I'll show her. I rest for a moment, not paying attention, only sensing as Sailor Moon takes Neptune and Uranus' attacks for me...and Mistress nine. I feel her grasp them with her long hair. Suddeny I sense someone I can not ignore, even to collect the last bit of my energy. Father... He stumbles in, holding his injured chest, gasping my name. Mistress nine grabs him with her long hair, my black and purple tinted hair. Oh, daddy...leave here now! I want so much to save him, I love him so much that the impossible happens. "Papa, oh, papa!" I hear my words and am in control for a second, then Mistress nine is back. She covers her mouth with horror. She lets her hair fall limp, releasing everyone. 'Brat' she thinks. I want to stick my touge out at her and blow raspberries, as childish as that sounds. "Hotaru...are you in pain?" he asks. Oh, father! Then mistress nine gets an idea. "Papa, get me the chalice, please! I need it..to.." she implores. No! she can't use papa, she just can't! Hasn't he suffered enough? Oh, just leave him alone! no, don't get the chalice for her! "Hotaru is still alive" Sialor moon says, creating a ball of light in her hands. "No!" cries Uranus and Neptune. Mistress nine is excited. she points to the chalice forming in Usagi's hands. "I need that" the says in a weak voice...my voice. My father, the smart and loving father, Professor Tomoe drags himself over to Sailor Moon. "I need that for my ..."he takes a moment to breathe and rest. "...my Hotaru." Silently Sailor Moon hands him the chalice. I weep for her purity and naivete. She is so pure... My father walks over to her, tome. "Is this what you need?" "Yes, hurry!" she cries, pain in her voice. As soon as the touches it the room is flooded with light, mistress nine and I in the center. Thats it there is no hope...well there is always hope, especially in Sailor Moon's heart. Mistress nine laughs. "You can not defeat Pharoah 90 after this is absorbed, you will need a crystal more powerful than this chalice, and you don't have one!" "Hotaru? Answer me!" My God, she still believes I'm in here! I love her pureness and her light. I feel she can defeat whatever is put infront of her. I believe in Sailor Moon. All she needs is help, and she has me, because I AM still here, not in control, but here. I am Sailor Saturn, now I must be reborn. So I gather energy, energy to defeat Mistress nine, and her master, pharoah 90. I can not think about what happens next, I must try to break free. There is much destruction, and I hear my father call my name once more. "Hotaru" Now I can't concern my self with anything but the defeat of the Death Busters. Much goes on, and It seems like an eternity of Sailor Moon foghting for me, Hotaru, and the outers fighting agenst me, Mistress nine, and then I can feel my power growing, and Mistress nine's fear is back. I feel nothing for a moment, and time seems to stop...I FEEL the star on mistress nine's forehead break, I felt her mind scream, and I felt the hot burning power of my planets symbol on my forehead shine out beneath it. Sailor Saturn has been awakened, and the words echo through my mind...'Death Reborn Revolution.' End I realize that may have been a little odd, and I would like to have some feedback, so please e-mail me, and tell me your thoughts!