"Ostracized"
Too bad I thought I was included
But now, I’m in the area secluded
Far away from the world, on the outside
Kicked out from the group – ostracized
Forbidden to come back
Fear the threat of attack
Personality is too complex
I’m now reported annexed
Into the portion of actually knowing when to quit
And stop with all of the illegitimate
“I don’t have time right now,” I said
And ya took it so personal, ya turned red
And seized my feelings and I decomposed
Into something or someone no one knows
How to deal with and I’m getting better
I'm now emotionally disabled in a desert
With no water, no life, no loyalty
But all I can think of is the cruelty
And the shrill in the voice of the ultimate shun
(I guess) My own group consisting of myself is better than none
Secretly aware for the day when
Everything good comes my way and then
I’ll be able to die peacefully
Instead of being the scapegoat sheepishly
I’m made fun of and I’m hated
For being sincere and not insatiated
With anyone besides my baby
She’s the only one who can save me
But even with her I feel kicked out
And I realize I’m giving in to doubt
The worst fear that I have is to care
And dwell on all the bad things here and there
It’s sad to hear about, but aren’t you glad
I’m not taking my hatred out on shooting my dad
Reluctantly, I feel good because
I can be who I want to be, thus
I’m proclaiming I’m my best
When I don’t have to think about the rest
Of the world and me at the same time
I just have to be patient and wait in line
Creativity has been my only friend
Even when I feel I’m at my wit’s end
Even when I think that no one is honest to me
The truth lies within and that’s what I see
Don’t ever think that I don’t hear you laughing
Or talking about me behind my back end
Fracturing the thoughts of my destiny
I’ll wait for my future to come, lest it be
Play my heart out and sing the tune
The incessant smell of the popularity fume
Let’s all sit and bask in what people think
Just because you’re not ‘cool’ doesn’t mean you’re jinxed
For coolness isn’t determined by how many friends you have
It isn’t even something people should think about
Carelessness is a trait of young people
The weird thing is that we care too much
On these opinions from others
When we should care about our own first
Because our personality’s suffer
