My belief

I am going to try and explain how I came to terms with "my Divine." I call him "my higher power" or my "Divine" because so many people are turned off by the word "God." Many that come from abuse feel God was out to get them. He was punishing them but he wasn't a human being was our abusers. Before anyone misunderstands me my savior is the Lord Jesus Christ. I believe in God and the Holy Spirit.

God ruling heaven not earth. I strongly feel this in my very soul. You see in the Bible it talks about God getting into a fight with the Archangel Lucifer. Lucifer would not go along with God. Archangel Michael stayed with God in Heaven he did not turn his back on God. Lucifer was thrown down to the earth in this great battle with God. He was told he would rule the earth for billions of years. (Can't quite remember how many.) Lucifer and "the fallen Angels" (those who followed Lucifer and his beliefs) rule our earth now. They are the Child abusers, the murders, and the drug pushers. These are people in this world that do not follow God's ways. The whole time on earth they have a choice to turn to God or not too. This is free will we all have it. He does not force himself on anyone of us. He does not interfere with people on earth. It is our choice and only our's.

I feel he has Angels and us to work with him. If we follow what he wants us to do, we are "his people." No we do not have to change any part of our lives. He loves us unconditionally. Yes flaws and all. He understands we are not perfect. If we call on his name and open our souls he will come in. I know this cause he lives in my soul. I feel his peace, love and understanding.

I was raised Catholic and married John my first husband in 1965. He ended up being very abusive to me. I divorced him in 1970. The Catholic Church would not annual the marriage. I felt so lost so with this I went on my own journey seeking my Lord. I attended many churches. What I found is many churches and pastors being very judgmental. I feel it is not up to us to judge this is the Lord's job. He knows everyone's life inside out and upside down. I don't. He hears their dying wish. I don't . What I did learn is to read my Bible. Everyone can interpret the Bible as they wish. What I found is to ask Jesus to live in me cause I needed help to survive. He is here to this day! This is one thing I did not like. I stayed with an Assemblies Of God Church for years. I could feel the Lord's presents but then they moved the church to far to drive to.

He also has spoken to me after I pray. I sit quietly and hear him. The first time it happened to me was back in 1977. I don't share this part with many for fear they will think I am nuts! I knew I had this special gift since 1977 but I was afraid of it. My dad knew of it before he died. He understood totally what I was talking about. It was not till I got on AOL that I shared my story with Dee66. She said they could feel it in me and she encouraged me to trust what was happening to me. It was not until 1997 that I decided to listen more to him and trust him more. Because of this I am going to share some of the special things that have happened to me. I am feeling very afraid about sharing this intimate side of me but I know I must. Victoria