red skies reflect spilt blood
savored and cringing souls rest their agony
demons reach from crimson in anguish
from their eyes fall tears as lonely as me
the impure blinds what's left of the rape
of flesh, and the moon waits to sigh
to ease the pain of those that envy
her perfect timeless light in the sky
exchange for submission, smiles crack
cries are digital, emotions are flawed
ties to love, NUMB, and lips are too
the world caved in with a universal nod
security embraced, not clean anymore
im sightless to all eye-contact
as if the stare the held were knives
plotting which ones will plunge in my back
these ghost keep on with their gossip
mouths bleed their avengeful hate
whimpering of what death spoke
relating to our dreadful date
no peace the dark sleep can bring
this chaos follows forever
this roaring noise on my dying breath
in my death
will never sever
the clown like me puts on a show , toture,pain,agony the feel of defeat knowing that my friendship with you is lost over a relationship we had begun oh so long ago, and now that we've said our goodbyes the pain just won't go away
the clown like me puts on a show
i'vefaked my joy consealed my sorrow its not that i can't live with out you its just i don't even waht to try its been said "if you love someone let them go ,if they come back thats how you know " well i've let you go now i wait for you to return to me the clown like me puts on a show making you and others believe i am happy and fine when all the pain and humiliation never reveals its self. the clown like me puts on a show the pain is real and nobody knows it but me, why didn't i say all those things i needed to say how could i let an angel slip away now my worlds just crumbling down i can see it so clearly , but your no where to be found
the clown like me puts on a show the nights are so lonely the days are so cold my lifes a jigsaw puzzle thats been all torn apart a million words couldn't say just how i feel ,a million years from now you know it i'll be loving you still
when i think of what we use to do i miss you more
i would do anything to see your smiling face outside my door
the clown like me puts on a show
toture , pain , agony the feel of defeat knowing that my freindsahip with you is lost over a relationship we had begun oh so long ago
and now that we've said our goodbyes the pain just won't go away so, again the clown like me puts on a show, and the pain is real even if i let no one know..........
baby w/ a razor blade
kitten in a blendor,
package w/ a bomb in it,
marked return to sender
hamster in a microwave
penguin in a grator,
lock your puppy in a trunk
and come back for it later
attack a horse w/ a machete
beat it w/ a stick
shove a chainsaw up its ass
this is really sick
wrap your parrot up in chains
and lock it in a box
bury it for 40 years
then see if it talks
tie your sister to the bed
tie her up real tight
cover her with scorpions
then turn out all the lights. >>
Like tyrants assembled with tears
Trembling like a tomb
And singing like a statue
I am as empty as the ocean.
My blind eyes scream in silence
So this enternal echo will be known.
Given to the fails of time,
And shattered like plate glass-
You freeze within the fire.
Darkness now lives at daylight
And shadows turn to ghosts.
With all that shined is now hollow
You imagine unconsciously.
And pretending to sleep you realize,
Nothing is what it seems.
I once knew a lady named misery
She lived in a damaged world
And calls me in transparent dreams.
A lonely star
outside the universe
Long ago she experienced
the darkest of pain
Beauty was something
she couldn't believe.
I once knew an angel named EVIL
she traveled like a ghost in the shadows.
All seems balanced now
as the angel burns to die
Alone in the misty, ocean air,
Admist the shore, I sit and stare.
Fathomless realms of endless blue-
Reflect the love I still hold for you.
A love seemingly never-ending
Ever deeper into depth descending.
Dazzling in the sun by daylight,
Weeping with the stars at midnight.
A beauty somewhat paralyzing,
A memory so mesmerizing.
Unconsciously, I call your name.
I remember holding, touching, kissing.
In bleeding passion, begging for more-
Falling in love upon this very shore.
In rising tide, taking my stand,
My feet cemented in the sand.
With burning waves of freezing fire-
Rolling in higher and higher.
I hold my vow, I will forever.
Letting no dying dream dissever.
From my heart what I know to be true,
The pure bliss of loving you.
Before the break of a dancing dawn,
If but in the shadow of hope, is drawn.
A soul cease to ache and need
A heart at peace, no longer bleeds.
In idle longing, undertaken-
By the night's tide, never again foresaken.
In all my love, perfect and true,
I'll drown in waves of endless blue.
And so it comes to be
this isolation that I am.
I can only look to me
to find the way it all began-
this confusion, constant
hunger for something more than this.
I strive to find this being
that I envision, yet seem to miss.
Could it be that I am empty-
or maybe a little lost?
Could it be that I am lonely,
or seek happiness at any cost?
This never-ending something
that I am living deep inside,
depicts the illusion of myself
and all I have to hide.
The black panther follows behind his prey,
Alone it dances the game,
Or what cometh may.
It pounces from behind it goes for the kill,
It waits for its time,
It's moment,
It's meal.
It dreams of me,
It knows my fears.
Prey me know tears.
The black raven dances,
It's wings in full flight.
It's grace,
For love,
For light.
It breaths its songs shine in full midnight.
For like the panther,
It's self made right.
Together they rule the night.
One on the ground,
One in flight.
Remember your fear,
Pray me know tears.
For watch were you go,
Don't ever stop or slow,
For in the dream they dance,
They'll take you under their trance.
Fear for the night,
For they won't stop till morns full light.
Prey me know tears,
for mid-hour is here,
So I go,
For the chance,
The panther,
The raven,
The dance.
Technology's lounging
cold plastic to my ear
Defective reverberation
Absently sighing
Inwardly tossing
and you (I)can't turn away
Night's eloping busting stars
meditation's loosing
spilling forth sheets
just a cluttering mess
He's breathing out there
and this is anguish i've met
Coming clean to this
Inspiration
ink to a perfunctory screen
Emotions run hollow
Hands are shaken
Course it's a shallow reply
Nerves twitching
minutes twisting hours
Growling indigestion follows
Mascara's streaming
it's cool water flow
Beads punching tension
pain echoes
Candles have been lit
again chivalry's choking
Pillows borrowed
to muffle my scream
Is it true it's dead
I'm tossing it in
resting circumstance
in your muttered alibis
Haven't you shame
calling it quits
Sounds as though
your unwilling to try
Thoughts have been fogged
My mouth has run so dry
Melancholy seeds
Moistening lips of blood
I'm a mortal-limp being
The creature setting flames
To comsume your eyes
Your uttering cluelessness
Stopping to catch each breath
Everything's over your head
Too many syllables in good bye
And oh by the way
Did i mention i'm tired
Of dragging on
Where's your composure
No tokens when i'm remembering
Worried your tarnished
When the phone didn't ring
Humiliation exposure
No stamina in bed
You've left me so unfulfilled
Not man enough to feed me the simple things
Much less stimulation to my head
But you can't see it
All those false proceedings
Supposedly true-
Your still promising
Bashful in nonexistant attempts
I'm supposed to go on loving you
Devoured and cowering
Time's skipping hands
And chivalry is surely dead
Happiness cant be met
Too many insincere apologies have been said
Sentiment is sparse
Won't swallow pride to think of me
Thorns of a potential rose
I've picked-it's puncturing
Envious-evident scars are concealing me
Simple words whisper his name
And misery feeds regret
It's everything,anything
Too many expectations
Just haven't been met
My mind keeps me tucked in fantasy illusionment,
safe from the outside world.
It's my secret escape to past calendars,
on the days of Gwenivere.
There to the crevices,
a corner at the silent rocks
where the waves crash daily,
overlooking the Scottish landscape.
I was led there
veiled and bareback ridden as a youth
to the place I dare to call my own.
The swaying of the my widowed tree,
shading for me the negative spaces.
Soft blankets of my tapestry
are composed diligently of ivy, armor, and silver sonnets.
When winds are drawn,
occasional whispers to the sprites are heard.
Grasses-green,
rich and filling to his monarch appetite,
feed the hunger of those thick as blood.
These greetings of lost ancestry,
unmasked in slumber by the roots of my own widowed tree
We are bathed innocent in rituals and holy pools
Society's bred us violent
And babies cry silent when parents turned from you
Nutrition was famine
no milk from mother's breasts.
Baby cries yet silent,
tears concealed in her chest
Happiness cries-
faces withered and worn.
Love came empty souls have been torn
Poverty's bleeding from pockets of brothers
No one has time to love the other
Charity is pity and pity is cheap
Why isn't faith something everyone keeps
Happiness died-
When we stole from the tree
Please pass forgiveness onto me
Happiness cries-
Faces wrinkled and learned
Lets take back the FATHER
the man eternal from which we turned
Shiny revolver
modeled fingerprints
the bullet's calling you
I'm sick of the lies
done with all the shit
you put me through
relations come to resentment
and the blood spills the ties
I've been wasting time
bc everything i did
it was all for you
resurrected from sane mind
your the bullshit mother fucker
bladed excuses
I'm not so willing to compromise
it's all a disgrace
defecating character
hate's tasted this place
grow up boy-show me the man you claim to be
I'm kneeing you down
stand up boy
where's your dignity
still the expecting
waiting to suck on you mothers...
Stupid pussy-shame is your legacy
emotions kill and it's you i despise
I'm holding my breath
and loosing my mind
bullshit mother fucker
wrapped in discretion
gone in good time
Bernadette-bred from the menage
consumed by ignorance & poverty
They hadn't tasted her truth
doubting this vision
hail the renown Lovely
Faith resumed in this child
of frailness and purity
she recommenced in footsteps
harvesting wood to fuel the fires
But her fate was unleashed
built by her escalating
faith in the Almighty Trinity
Before her-the woman illuminated once again
The hovering Lovely
amongst the forest green
Precious mother of Saints
risen forth with fabric
the sheets of white and blue
This was Mary-Roses circled to her feet
Crowned by variable stars
listen Bernadette to the wisdom she speaks
Releasing bubbling springs
by spaded earth.
Let the poor cleanse another with benefit
Bathe in this water so holy
Men of distortion seeing perfect
at twenty-twenty
Here the church of miracles
was born-Walking processions
Prayer to see what penance brings
See to believe the fortune of she
Saint Bernadette-bred from the menage
consumed by ignorance and poverty
Fate brought the opportunities that were lost
For our relationship to flourish
I thought about how things
Could have been done differently without the barriers
Others disregarded you
Your knowledge, your breath, all because of age
How could this be
Seventeen years went by
Visiting in and out
I never knew how special you were to me
In the days of September
I took heed for the first time
As you lay in that hospital bed
I look up to you
Possibly when in turn it’s too late
I love you
Your silver strands
And fragile, unwrinkled skin
I see myself gaping back at me
I’ve got your eyes
Each possessing adoration, emotion, and affection
Your eyes, my eyes
Equal reflections of soul
You’re dancing with me
Strength depth beauty
You smile at me
Even though it hurts
You watch me
Every still movement
Every fluttered eyelash
You kiss me
Delicately like a child
You loved me
You knew me
You inspire me know without words
I’m in debt to you
I couldn’t change fate
Or be there when you were able to speak
And unleash all your stories
But I cherish what we had-
Your laugh-the glowing in your eyes
The short visits
The delicate kisses
And that last weeping embrace
Sedentary soldiers we call pines
tower upon both sides of spoken hills.
Skies set in,
with clouds of haze & dust from the night.
In Solitary she walks,
the Queen of Hearts
to those roads much traveled
for the journey of tomorrow.
Shadows strobe the path beneath nude feet.
Held only in her eyes,
man watches:
the tensing of taught muscles,
ill patterned breaths,
the growth&movement of blackened pupils,
hesitantly she steps.
Rupunzelle let down your hair
I need the key you hold.
You can't stack bricks of belfry to banish him into forever
In the corner she shivers,
layers of fabricated sorrow tossed about her shoulders.
Take her in your arms to the place called home
For years the selfish have chanted
Prayer's muttered shallow
Temptation was planted
And we're never quite fulfilled
Sugared by serpents
Babies are nursing by sour nipples of mother
Animals of poverty
Nibbling greed from big brother
Beings are Starving-
Tip toed wealth as I can see
Sheering his word
Evil's built us this Satan society
Savage is youth
Days of sorrow
Picked for the blatant material mean
Angels are figments
Falling fog from the sky
Miracles exist but only when seen
Come forth unholy days
Spilling blood by law
Sinner's glorifying earth's decay
Breathing air
War is what we breed
Staffs have been lit
Who comes to take us from this heed?
Destruction's amusing
Unblessed be the saints
Desecrating forgotten truth
His name we're abusing
But he died for us on that cross
Afflicting pain
Admiring only our flesh in mirrors
Love is to be vain
Strip my own beauty
Bathe me in the ugliness no one wants to see
What of the father, the son, the holy spirit
The trinity poor
So dirty and he risked his life for me
Monasteries-
Monks sheltering these visions so pure
Yet few innocents are left
Burning wisdom
Can penance ever be met
He called her Acidic Misery
Story book expedition
Nose turned up in the air
Midnight Candy
Slipper of glass
Running shallow
He’s followed her path
Shadow translucent
Taking cover
He's under the canopy
She threading her web
Breath heaving past
Pulse thumping redundantly
The after ending- Cinderella case
Born with a silver spoon
Waltzed perfection
Ruffles and lace
Seducing breasts shimmering beneath the moon
Fingers slipping
Vibrant and wet
Shapely hour glass
Delicious sweet silhouette
Intentions be wary
She knows you are there
Nibbling pout sweeping her lips
Muttering ecstasy
She’s tease and torment
Aged love affair
Brushing erection
As she flows
Midnight candy
He watched her
Eyes following movement where ever she goes
Far from touch
Remember when she was yours
Cravings resemble licking
Taking the hand was asking too much
and now her sex is mocking
your uttering regret
This was the she
The woman he called Acidic Misery
The molting process begins
Stripping layers of clothing
then delicates from your skin> Landing in piles
plump on the carpeted floor
This working exterior has ended
and your uncertain if you should go on anymore
Scented tissues
blotting caked foundation from a face
Mascaras running
Every strand of hair out of place
Paper is wadded
tossed to float within the jon
Ripples crippling emotions
one tap of the handle and then its gone
Shower curtains pulled back now
Head's hung low
Muscles jerking from the pressure
of malicious water flow
A portrait of decadence
bovine corpse bleeding shallow underneath
A person is dying to be unleashed
Steam is rising
rinsing spirit from your head
Body's dying slowly
Thats funny
thought you were already dead
Goosebumps present
and gasping for air
Tears are conflicting
and the molting process is ending
A portrait of decadence
bovine corpse bleeding shallow underneath
A person is dying to be unleashed
Cancer arthritis incurable disease
Society blind-like you he and especially she
Why can't they see
What it is I see
Listen to the cues by ridiculous means
The all too simple sounds
Rang before in created harmony
We the free nation
Yes we used to be
Now let me tell you a story
To present near society
A man a child a people of descendents and race
All slaves to soldiers unseen
Strip us quickly of own thoughts
Dying early - their fears
So they may feed us false security
Ban a right to defend
Let us rest solely with only you we can depend
Treat me like a child
Play on foolish mothers
For husbands are decreasing
Lost in bustling lives
It's all for the children
What an honorable notion
But these intentions are the ones that kill
Let us survive their ideals of gun control
Breaking down the NRA
But this will sentence many to death
How can we fight thieves with nothing
We bare targets on our chest
Guns the corrupt will always possess
Like they abide law anyway
Material things and scenes rule
By left hands to empower
Their secret deceitful dreams
Yes I live in a world
Where there is every kind of cure
By the catch of design
To create a more expensive effect and disease
Look up to those who lie
The cheat the rapist the dictator
Waiting to be crowned
Praise mutiny not God
Prey on the meek
Those made to squirm in poverty
Banish spirits and souls
All teachings of the Almighty
Will be forgotten memories
WE mustn't let the people believe
But I am still a child
And stupid-stupid me
I remember vaguely the way it used to be
I refuse to shut my mouth
Did i mention to society that Everyone everything disgusts me
I am a child of five once again
Resting undeveloped breasts and torso
on the silent carpet beneath my childhood bed
My heart of tears bleeds with shivering clasped hands
and I quiver then,
to the shadows and voices of men
persisting to stand at the foot of sheets
Lips fall to whimpers and trembling breaths
only to diminish by fear
I choke on a quenchless mouth,
that of my own,
with flavors of sweat & salt.
I close my eyes and drift to sleep
with the memories that still come to play
Yes i am a child of 5 once again
His hair,his putrid skin
lie beneath a new girl
Rough hands caressing
soft white flesh
that of snow and purity thus past
Ruby red lips smeared by his sin
on goes the emptying of me the youth
My legs tighten to the wet shallows
RED SYRUP
found in between them
I'm too young to understand what this means
So please let me close my eyes
to forget the child at five
I can't understand this confusion that is me
A broken kaleidoscope pushing pieces
beneath the folds and creases.
The tamed dying to be unleashed
by animalistic means
Retracting claws and positions of virginity
Your breathing obnoxious
inside me through the night
Wetness escaping simple lips
Nothing could be more precious
The purity of raw form and cleansing sins
I crave you as slumber approaches rest at your fingertips
Touch so slight and delicious ignorance in waking hours
You bare -and trembles-consume my lips
Barbarian kisses of silken pink pigment
How have you drawn me so tight
so close to your embraces eternal once again
Your quivering to attention
I've led you in deeper than skin -touch w/taste-
so much more Your everything opposite of me
the antonym that attracts every motion in me
The stereotype I vowed so many a time never to accept
Your erasing memory
because I don't mind being foolish enough to love a man such as this
So retract my claws and consume any trace of virginity
The pale horse is unfolding in the den
Repositioning to slouch in disarray
Pupils hushing & faltering
When drawn to splintered lips
I'm watching closely
Consonant and vowels escaping
To the rising fall of his chest
Abstruse and fluent, transpiring fears
Yet there's no reaction from me
Begging
Emotion can't be defined
It's penury-must I bridle you all the time
I'm defective
The critical being
Reasons are unclear to me
Analyzing to criticize
the reddening and puffiness
Is this guilt-have you tasted twinge and agony
My own consolement is long overdue
I've blossomed to the hollow
Smothering dampness from your eyes
And I am yet to lull the tears
Because I don't feel the torment in your cries
The pale horse is lonely
Stumbling to his feet
as the mirror washes truth
Cap on head,
shoulders sloping forward
It's up to space and time
My stuff is finally packed
It's in the car
and the road as begun
Too gone to turn back
And i didn't realize I'd travel so far
My eyes are out of focus
View finder-I'm loosing control
Pedal's flooring fast
Engine purring subtle
And it seems i can't remember our past
Glancing quick
Checking rear view
Don't remember your face
Looking hard
Can't seem to find anyone like you
Grudges have been hung
I'm still the sentimental kind
Heard someone calling-sanity's blind
But it was just the voices conjured
And so I guess this confirms it
I'm out of my mind
Rain is pulsing slight
Beating chrome and glass
Lightning flashes
Soaking bliss and thundering scenes
I'm having the taste of what loneliness means
Batteries running out
Press on paintings
~florescent and serenity
Tremors quiet the vehicle
Hanging scriptures and thought from the trees
Vague passage memory
Licking lips and simplicity
Glancing quick
Checking rear view
Don't remember your face
Looking hard
Can't seem to find anyone like you
Grudges have been hung
I'm still the sentimental kind
Heard someone calling-sanity's blind
But it was just the voices conjured
And so I guess this confirms it too
I'm out of my mind
and it's all because of you
Bottles spilling empty
spinning quartz from sand
Footprints are translucent
Fingering your own reprimand
Razor picking guilt
from the innocent you see
Righteous tasted truth
hail precious trinity
Mouth's were open
Dying silent
Picture perfect scene
crying for the people
Kissing earth beneath the green
flowers are planted
Some withered in the wreaths you see
Heaven's picking angels
as their souls passed away
Loved ones begging they could stay
But time churns the circle
wicked sweet birth and decay
Bottles spilt blood
and everyone passes away
Razor picking guilt
from the innocent you see
Righteous tasted truth
hail precious trinity
Depression swells
and he left her unfulfilled
nights falling
and your hands don't feel the same
touch has spun limp
and his words can't heal this pain
touch me
i want what we had before
remember sentiment
its still the only thing I've ever asked for
He sung her a lullaby
strumming special for her ears
She's forgotten how to smile
cold and sighing
she's forcing back the tears
Forgive me
i never wanted you to see me crying
guess that's a sight to see
eyes tranquilized by the ceiling
reading between lines
Its happiness your stealing from me
forget the questions
when i dwell on sadness
I'm kissing you
eyes shut, just pretending
there's nothing i 'd rather do
but even when i feel this way
you know i could never stop
I'd never want anyone else but you
My body has decided to fade
existence falling backwards
and beyond the gates
The chaplet of vines personified
by choking ivy on pewter bars
Shadows and greens
barbing choreography amongst the bricks
and i am churning rich soil
beneath my feet
Far to the corner
within this Garden of Eve
bells have chimed
Celtic spirits releasing
let it be known-the kindred rhyme
Stepping closer to notice this cascade
in weathered detail and depth
Dragonflies skimming crosses on
perfect water lilies
Sculptures of Europeans kept
Rummaging finger
from base to chips
it's purity in rawest forms
Breezes of the waters spurting
oracles of sexuality
Glancing back to the fog and mist
Swank beauty
Perceptions stained clearly
seeping acid-like roses on epileptic grounds
Fancy stitching gates of artistic burials
to silence & filter the mortal sounds
I hinge upon the window
rain showering in gentle prisms
along the glass
Breasts pressed and cooled
to release eternal erections
Attire is soppy
and your stroking my hair from behind
Your presence
deafens my character
And I've spellbound myself
striving in failure
It's breathless determination
wallowing in this image
that of the inferior
Sex is alluring
in the darkest of hours
Scanning mirrors
to cease each thrust
I'm using you
because you are everything
All that i could never achieve
The divine
So vigorous and commendable
I'm slouching forward
fearing that worthiness
will soon be uncloaked
My eyes roll back
I'm loathing at your touch
because i'm consumed by rival charm
I repent every Sunday morning
Awakening from memories
redundant by slumber
Splashing arctic water
to drip across my face
I've gotten glimpses of truth
oppressive to mind
the somber of that day
Church bells provoking
your nuptial ties
Rice pummeling pigeons
as you've reached
the temple's base
Slightly pushing backwards
as your stature meets my eyes
Shifting feet,
index finger
jerking his collar
He's liquefied by my stare
Palms sipping the beads
of a bothered forehead
His smile turns skittish
and i stumble back into the crowd
I'm lying envious amongst the pews
Stroking flowers and ribbon
I'm egocentric when it came to you
and the tears have rolled by
Fate settles as mist arises
shallow breaths and forlorn sighs
His lips were dubbed untouchable
I could have sworn they were mine
Turmoil of a jaded life
Partitions to death
Trials and trips
Veins viewing each internal altercation
As our blood is one
I felt it all
In dark hours
My fingers drank from the
Wetness of emptying eyes
And it lies there again
In the flurry
She was so easily swooned
Virtue found
False hands
Extending the ring
Intentions were so authentic to begin
Retaining all movements
Deploring to the thought
Life's a possession
He smiles as she breaks
I love you means I own you
hunger
hate feeds the plate
scavengers
lurking outside
can you kill the fate
penetration behind a soul
children's cries
swelling eyes
deconstructed
bells have tolled
pelting glass
pebbles and switches
hours pass
time's attack
victom arrivals
pissing on doors
mother's wailing
selfish lies
dying on coal floors
barracation
walls scaled
hypnotize
pricking scenes
no motivation
blood and offerings
he's your demise
The puppet master's waking
preparing for mechanical rule
bodies are beings-just sexual tools
Words can't be spoken
Scissors's left-handed
Strings can't be cut
Lives are still broken
It's underlined in the script
and legs are entwined
Dolls so preciously posing
praised for silicone tits
Bondage is pressing
choreographed for sculptured hips
Strung and polished special
It's society's play
And we're all spectators of the day
Age comes to time-imperfections exposed
wrinkles forming in runic rhyme
Chaos was created
Beauties no longer worthy of display
Creator's hands enslaving them another way
Puppet master's tightening his grip
throttling with the malicious fingertip
Tossed aside
They're dying they're free
give them life justice and liberty
Subscriptions of magazines and letters
stacked on the livingroom chair
all addressed to you
but you were never there
Sat for many hours
running fingers in desperation
through my hair
Closing curtains,
can't stand to watch the sun today
Hurts too much
to watch the others laugh and play
Numbers potentially erased from caller i.d.
strange people i "called" friends
I guess their still pretending to be
But since you have been gone
I haven't been the same you see
I'm faithful to you still
but you've forgotten me
Yes it's sad but true
This fence town knows it too
I've sacrificed my love my life
waiting to spend time with you
It's pathetic -one message from wks ago
I'm replaying it on the machine
because it's my recollection of your voice - what it used to mean
TV dinner's in the microwave
Doesn't matter, you never took me out to dinner anyway
Litter box is empty
cigarette ashes piling in the tray
Cd is skipping but it's still repeating my song all day
Leafing on through
from black & white prints to Polaroid's
All images are that of unfamiliarity
I finally realized you were never there
Your face was the one i never did see
The clock chimes-
depression's overflowing
I'm curling in a ball for my own security
Greeting cards are shuffled
on an always ready- made bed
illustrating scenes to keep me happy
but emotions are reversed instead
Because signatures are counterfeits
of fake sincerity
Skimmed on through from
years of loving you,
Birthdays, holidays, and get well too
it's no surprise that none
of many cards were from
yes thats right- you
You were barely there
and worse yet
you forgot to show you ever cared
I'm lucky when you decide to pass on through
you didn't bring me flowers on anniversary dates
but a peck on the lips
wasn't too much trouble to do
And as i recall
You've put me through it all
I woke on a sunday morning
just a few months ago
sick to my stomach
In so much fear
more than you could ever know
You said I'm getting fat
and my eating was a disease
That's so sweet
I'm pregnant and you continue to tease
Now I'm writing you this letter
with just a few more things left to say
I lost our unborn daughter
and I've been crying here everyday
I don't know where we went wrong
all I know is that I'm packed
you've neglected me way too long
And just to let you know
I'm auctioning off my promise ring
because your sentiment never amounted to anything
You don't ever have to come on home
Because I won't be there
to listen to excuses
about how you dont know how to show you care
ZORRO OF THE NIGHT,
TRACES HER SILHOUETTE,
FIGURE, IN DARK SHADOWS,
AS HE SENSES HER LOVELINESS.
HIS CAPE DRAPES, OVER,
HIS STRONG SHOULDERS,
WITH COOLING WINDS,
HE DRAWS THE YOUNG MAIDEN,
INTO HIS WAITING ARMS.
KISSING HER PASSIONATELY,
WITH HIS LIPS,
THIS ZORRO OF THE NIGHT,
ENGULFS HER, WITH HIS
ANIMAL SCENT, SUCH SWEETNESS,
HE CAN’T RESIST. KISS ME,
MY LOVE, ONE MORE TIME.
ONLY THE SILENT OF THE NIGHT,
BRINGS THEIR LOVE, SO CLOSE,
AS HE SPEAKS, SOFTLY TO HER,
I JUST WANT, TO HOLD THIS
MOMENT IN TIME.
CARRYING HIS BELOVETH, NEAR THE
MOONLIGHT. HIS SHARP STARE,
REACHES OUT TO HER,AS HE WHISPERS,
I LOVE YOU
I sit back and watch all the permissive language and all the comments, what am I?
I see what becomes of the world and yet you stand high and mighty
…Still willing to bring me down…
I will not end without a fight
Persuasive comments and intellectual conversations make you seem worthy enough of a medal…
I stand by and watch the world go to hell…little girls fighting and little boys winning…
Who made them this way?
I see you stand and walk away...
How to continuously make you to stay?
Only the brave of the brave know what I feel…
Obviously you shunned the world of my shoulders and brought me down..
I will go down…but not for your sake…but to save your soul from the dark
I stand and walk away…
Not only will I wreak havoc I will also win this battle of the chosen ones and push you down…back down to where you belong
I take your shit and spit it back in my own way.
You're always right and I am never wrong...although I never know what I am talking about.
Murder to the fourth degree, I plan my own escape from your arms.
I run, run, run and still cannot escape.
Excuses keep my soul here to thrive from lies…ALL LIES
What do you make of me?
Is it worth it?
Does it make you feel manly?
Are you big enough to express what your true heart lies within?
You sold your soul to the devil…what to make of that?
I sit back and watch the mistakes you make…Laughs…ALL LAUGHS
Your life is a meaning less piece of unearned shit!
Now to get through
Once in your life…open to the world and let it all rein
Make it the best and let it spill…just as the blood from your veins
I watch her, how to be her?
So cute and delicate…gentle to the touch.
Her forbidden fruit…your harsh and vulgar taste
Even the quiet are loud, just as the blind man can see.
It's all fake.
Control your temper, lay her down and do what is your must.
Her not knowing and your undivided attention make it seem idealistic
Make up your mind follow the right head of yours for once.
But the sweetness of her youth commits you for just one bite
The dark is rising,
and all is lost
i look at the mirror and know the cost
The price to pay
an eternity in hell just for a taste of you
i grow blind
from the poison you have inflicted in me...
with your view...
This world has forsaken me and all is gone
I remember your demons running through my head
like the death of a spawn
Running away falling and rising
the pain stays,the hell comes
everything turns black
knowing that nothing will ever be the same
and its never coming back
I look in the mirror seeing no beauty
Or a smile
Only to find a pale,thin,frighten,looking girl
With tears and tears pourig down my face,
I'm so confused that this other girl is staring back
With a cut up arm, i touch the mirror and then my face
Both feel cold and empty
There's a body but no life inside of it
I can't deny this fact anymore
That girl is really me
No one else but me
Tears and tears keep pouring, soon forming puddles on the floor and into the sink
For such a long time i saw this girl
And no one looked up and said "What's wrong?"
Not even a quick glance
Everything looks darker and darker by the minute
Colder and colder
Emptier and emptier
That i'm dead
The Raven
Forever watching me as I am
His eyes seek only torment and pleasure of all the hearts he kills
And all the dreams he takes before anyone can fulfill
The Raven
Showing his feathers
Giving a faint vibe of seederwood
Showing everything he had but
Nothing that he could.
The Raven
Flys over
To faintly land on my shoulder
As I walk 2-3 weeks without knowing
But he was slowly taking me to his world
A paralell hell.
The Raven
Has a heart cold as ice
Kiss once
Kiss twice
A little heartbreak pay the price.
The Raven
Forever leaving a scar over my heart
Each time I will love
It wont make part
A differnce for feelings I have
The Raven
For everything I knew
He took it all with the broken wing
Flying slowly out of view.
It's so cold
I have shivers all over my body
My vision has coroded
My heart has been broken
Now it's in 3 fold.
Cut my skin
It hurts and it hurts
I'm bleeding down my arms
I hope you see what you've done to me.
Free me from this evil
Death has been breathing down my spine
I wished one day you again could be mine.
I'm hurt I'm dyin' inside
Cry out for you
But no one hears
Only answers are my face with black tears
You have created and bestowed all my fears upon me
You've slid and cut through me
I've been down on my knees
Sweet cruelty will bring me through
This misery.
Sweet misery can be the home you have made me see
The death I have faced for centuries
Death of an innocent heart
It will care for me
I'm down on my knees
Help me please.
You've taken my pride
And drunk it dry
It's like poison
You'll wither and die.
Maybe cut myself watch as I bleed
The Purest Red
I smell of dead
You broke me in two
Now I hate you!
And all i get is misery
All I can do is lie on this floor...
For all,you have cause a death of a heart
My life is slipping by the second,
As i waste away,
No meaning or care to life,
Waiting to go to the next life,
Or just sit there forever in darkness,
Who even cares?
Not me,
We waste out life's getting older to soon die,
Is that my prize for living?,
No one to understand me,
And even now, I don't either,
There are knife scars,
Emotional scars from depression,
And my lungs full, from the smoke,
My heart, black as the night,
My emotions, empty like a box,
My lungs, full of garbage,
As i struggle about this word; life,
And struggle to survive a little bit longer,
But then why should I?
It's over,
No life,
No body,
Seconds pass by,
Faster and faster,
Your life clock slips,
The past is that past,
Which may hold a future,
Life is a guessing game of chance,
Sometimes goods,
Sometimes grief and regret,
Too many problems,
Too much ruling,
Too little of free will,
Just leave me alone,
Let me die in pain,
Or die asleep,
Who else would notice besides me?
People only care if there is money,
So they can be rich and care about no one,
And trust no one,
People lie,
So this is what i live for?
Day and day out,
Light to dark,
Hate to love,
For me to write alone,
And no one to read it or care,
Feeling my pain,
Seconds get faster,
Life gets shorter,
As you bleed inside,
You tell me "This is how life is",
Well fine, it's my life and this is how it is,
Lacking all happiness inside,
Seconds go by,
Life goes by,
Game Over
I wait and watch day by day,
And there he sits in the corner all dressed in black,
Only time will tell where the demons dwell
for that special someone to come my way.
Trapped and alone in my prison cell,
I wait and watch for that special spell.
A spell of love that can not fade,
Break me free from this barricade.
Are you the one,
can it be,
that i finally am free.
Free from this world of hate and pain,
you are as sweet as a sugarcane.
is it possible after all these years,
my curse has been lifted,
and i can wipe away some of the tears.
Ill keep only the tears,
the tears of joy,
the tears of happiness,
tears of a man trapped inside the body of a teenage boy.
Girl dressed in black,
as mysterious as can be,
yet somehow it seems ive known you all my life,
how can this be?
Tell me im yours,
tell me youre mine,
tell me well be together till the end of time.
Is this just a dream or is this real,
if its a dream then i dont want to feel.
Feel like im fading away,
and i pray that this dream would never go away.
frostbitehunter@aol.com
A Raven and his Beasttamer by:Donnie Back aka arawn
as dark as a raven waiting for his prey to 1nce more call out his name
"Frosty, Frosty" she calls just to be apart 4 months doesnt change the way this 1 girl feels.
as cute as can be,the tamer of the beast their love just grows stronger day by day.
they may keep us imprisoned in this cell but how long will we dwell.
Locked in a cage like two labtest rats,
we will be together again someday and thats a fact.
can it be,
The Raven whispers at the stroke of midnight,
"We will be together again some day i promise you my love and ill sweep you away from the prison we are dreading so much of".
4 months passed by then we see the raven,
his Beast Tamer together,
so free.
This is the story i tell to you of a raven and his beast tamer so true.
of a love that is so true,
this is my story i tell to you.
frostbitehunter@aol.com
Love Conquers all by:Donnie Back aka arawn
the demons of hate and immoral standards
oh how they keep us so far apart yet draw us closer in our hearts
Together hand in hand i take you to a mystifying land,a land of dreams and hope
the demons dont want me to cope
Cope with the situation and the feelings that i feel for you,they want me to be destroyed and leave without you
I will not give in to their cries of hate
for true love is stronger than any demons hate for the truth bout me and you
Be gone i say demons of hate and let me fly free from your shackles of pain and torment
You will not crush my spirit nor my soul
for i know in my heart in my soul every breath i take that you are the one for me
and nothing will ever make that go away
To my fairy fairy princess i ask of you
will you join me together hand in hand while i take you to a mystifying land,a land of dreams and hope
where the demons dont want me to cope
Cope with the situation and the feelings that i feel for you,they want me to be destroyed and leave without you
But in my heart i know this to be true
I whisper in your ear "I love you always true"
email me at Arawns Realm if u got any poems u want published and if i approve of it then u might just c ur poem published where every1 can c it
