August 21, 2002
Since I last wrote Mrs. Gomez(santiago & yvonne's mom) got into a car accident. She was hurt pretty badly. Mami, Tito, and I ended up taking care of her and the house for 2-3 days because the oldest daughter was house sitting and she couldn't come and help, and because santiago did some stupid @$$ $h*t that she didn't need to put up with and kicked him out. Well I admit I am pissed at him for leaving his mom like that even if she was the one to kick him out. Did he not realize that he left his little sister in charge of everything all by herself? But then things got better Angel, Mrs. Gomez's husband, came back from Alaska, so we didn't have to worry so much about her cause he was there with her. Then a few days later Santiago comes back to the apartment. Which was a wise choice but then he goes and gets into a lil bit of trouble and yeah. My mom through all this has been like WOW and letting me know I can't have anything more then a friendship with him until he wisens up. We went to go visit a few days ago, when we got there he was still sleeping but he got up and fixed himself up a lil'. But I never said hi, almost like usual, and neither did he. I can't believe after all the stupid crap his mom and my mom have told me he's done that I still like him. I need to either take action or get over him... <3 Yezenia <3

August 24, 2002
Well Registration was yesterday...That was fun. I got to see Devon, Jenni, and Sophia all together again. Even though we were there to prepare for school it was fun cause we got to joke around and stuff. You know check to see who we might like this year although I know one person who is going to be on that list for the 4th year. I just can't seem to get over him. Someone, maybe even him, needs to tell me if they like me or are interested because oh like you people care. I do know someone else I've kind of had my on. At the beginning of freshman year we had this orientation. Well that's where I first saw him, I won't mention his name cause my friends besides Sophia don't know I've kind of like him. Well maybe it was just me but I kept looking at him you know trying to see if he noticed me and it seemed like he did but he didn't really talk to me AT ALL so I gave up hope. But I saw him at the movie theaters when I went to go see Austin Powers Goldmember and he called my name, but me being the stupid idiot I am ignored it. Ever since that day I've been thinking about him and when I saw him at registration I was like DAMN HE'S FINE LoL. But I don't know we'll see if I can change my shy way a little this year. Devon, Jenni, Sophia, and I have carried our pact from last year to this upcoming year because we had no luck with it last year. That's pretty much it...nothing too exciting in my personal life :);):P Yezenia

October 15, 2002
Hey sup? Wow I haven't written anything in a long time. Let's see what's happened since then... Nothing really I guess. Homecoming is in like a week, don't have a date but going anyways. I have to say I look hella fine in my dress LoL j/k. Yeah, well nothing has happened with you know who or with the other guys or with any other guy at my school. SOmeone give me some advice I gotta find out what to do. anyways I'll fill you in on the whole homecoming thang soon. TTYL Yezenia

November 11, 2002
So I went to homecoming. It was fun for awhile. I don't know ... it was weird. First, there was the fact that you know who was there without his @$$hole friends and I still couldn't talk to him and he oh nevermind. THen I can't say the other reason cuz I don't want to offend anyone that will read this in the future. But it really pissed me off. And a lot of things are going through my head I can't deal with them all. Especially about my friends. Sometimes it feels like they aren't there for me and sometimes they just annoy the hell out of me. But they are the only people they semi-understand me. Oh I don't know I'm confused about EVERYTHING!!! LoL Well yeah, :);):P Yezi :);):P

December 2, 2002
Can you believe it's December already? I can't...It's gone by so fast. Winter Formal is soon, but I don't have a date. I'm to afraid to ask anyone especially you know who, and I don't want to go that much. I mean I love to go and dance and chill but homecoming sucked butt because of you know what (read last entry). I guess I'll go but I don't have a dress at least not a new one no one has seen me in. We'll see. I got to go but I'll write later. Yezenia

December 15, 2002
Hey, well lets see... Winter Formal was yesterday. It was fun, I guess. Everyone had a date andI felt really stupid being there. I should have just asked him, and faced a yes or no answer. If they would have played K-ci and Jojo I would have started crying I swear. Well as you can see I still like him but I don't know. ONce again he doesn't seem to like me very much. I don't know, I'm still confused after what, 6 months that I've talked to him. AHHHHHH!!!! Good song to cheer me up though, "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera. lol ttyl, *~*~*~Yezenia~*~*~*

January 24, 2003
I feel so stupid right now but I'm listening to some Doo-Wop so I'll feel better. That's something I should tell people to do, when you feel down listen to some Doo-Wop and it helps. I don't know why but it does. I feel stupid because I just realized I am fifteen years old and my younger brother has expierenced more than me. Well I'm exaggerating a little bit but it's true. He has already had a girlfriend and has tons and tons of friends. Then you look at me and I have never had a boyfriend and I am so shy that I can't talk to people so I have like 4 four close friends. DOesn't that sound sad! I don't know... Maybe I'm thinking about it too much. I still like him and I can't help it. I need him to tell me he doesn't like me so I can move on. BUT if he likes me he should tell me, because he already knows I like him. OH I better shut up I sound so stupid. Well see ya! Yezi

March 24, 2003
Aight so it's the first day of spring break, YEAH!!! I get a well deserved break from all the stress in my life and yes that does include friends, and sophia you know who this stress is hehe. Well let's see I still feel kinda stupid about what I said last time but I realized that my brother and I are different. so I don't really care. AS for him, I really don't know. To me he will always be the sweet guy who took a girl he barely knew to her own b-day party. To him I am probably a pain in his a$$ lol. I just need to find a new boy to crush on and I think there is one, but I'm not real sure about it yet. I want to be completely over you know who before I like this guy. Guy2 seems real nice, funny, and adorable. I don't know maybe this break away from school will help me think things through, at least I hope!!!! ***Yezi***

April 10, 2003
OK well spring break passed an I still haven't made up my mind about who I like. Guy 2 has a girlfriend so that can't go far, and HE hasn't talked to me since christmas. I am so confused. Everything has been so overwhelming for me lately. My mom's "fiance" is moving in, my bro is getting into some trouble,and school is starting out like CRAP!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH..... gosh. don't know what to do anymore, sometimes I just wanna go smoke so dope just to see if it really does helo solves problems, but in the end I never would!!! A certain person is o my nerves which sucks because she acts like I'm attached to her damn hip, and me being me can't say anything because I don't want to hurt her feelings. SO instead I ignore her which probably hurts more. OH shades of jupiter... ok well I got to go <3 Yezenia <3

August 29, 2003
Well this ummer has gone by really fast, and even so I did not do ANYTHING! So in June, I had my b-day and I thought someone would call me or come over. BUT no one came over, no one called, no one did anything. My family tried to do something for me but it turned into a whole party for the grown ups. Then I took driver's ed, and then nothin. My mom took two weeks off and we still did nothing. I took the driving part of drivers ed this month and yeah I passed so YAY! Still no <3 life or life in general but hopefully that will change this year. He was gonna go away but he came back. There is just no getting over him. Hopefully there will be some new guys to get me off him. I don't think he knows how much I'm willing to do but oh well his loss. I deserve a good guy I guess. Anyways I gotta go ....
PEACE, Yezenia