Is it that Obvious?

I was told that the end of the world had already come
But why do refuse to believe it?
Is there a reason why I try so hard to keep what I have with me?
Why do I fight so hard for the people around me?
Especially the ones that make me smile so much
Did I finally gain that will that I always wanted but knew that I could never have?
That will--the will to live...
Did they finally see the pain in my eyes that I tried so hard to hide?
I wish I could just cry
But that wouldn't be me at all
I'm not used to this feeling inside of me
I'm not used to having this will inside of me
I thought I knew what I wanted
But it's not enough anymore
I don't want to die
Not just yet
Just let me enjoy these precious memories a bit longer
Do you see me?
Do you hear my cry?
I tried so hard not to get close to anybody
I tried so hard to keep a distance
But whatever I did, they just stayed
They saw that little bit of kindness that I possessed
And they knew
They didn't need to be told
They just knew
Was it that obvious?
Here I am expecting for them to just go away in just due time
Maybe because I thought that they would hate me soon
But that bond between us stayed
I never knew what true friendship really was
I was so used to the jealousy and the urge to be better than everyone else
But with them I completely forget that urge
And I just want to smile and laugh just like everyone else
Am I weird for thinking this way?

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