Ice | "Ending the Innocence" |


The scene opens in the house in Alaska left too Sara by her mother. Sara walks inside, its been months since Kotomi moved back to Japan, and the house has been vacant since.

Sara drops her stuff at the door and looks around at the empty room. She's given up on staying in Sacramento. Theres no reason too, seeing as how Xplosion is nothing but what seems like a distant memory.

Outside the December weather has painted the horizon white, but it is a clear day today. Sara goes down to the basement, and quickly turns on the power generator, as the house is incredibly cold from not being used for so long.

As she waits for the house to warm up, she decides to start a fire in the fireplace to keep warm. She walks over to a old stack of wrestling magazines in the corner on the basement and starts grabbing random ones to use as kindling. She begins to walk back up the stairs, while flipping through the old 'rags' just out of curiosity. She begins to read an old article from years ago about an old XCW Tag Team, The Meat House Gang, when she suddenly becomes aware of what sounds like another set of foot steps coming from upstairs. Knowing her Japanese cousin went home for the winter, Sara decides that it has to be a stranger. She reaches the top of the stairs, and takes an old shovel off a peg in the wall right at the top, ready to use as a weapon if need be, dropping the magazines on the ground.

She begins to patrol the house listening for the sound of foot steps again, before hearing them again, coming from her childhood bedroom. Sara walks over to the door slowly, raising the shovel above her head before peaking her head around the corner....

Standing in the middle of the room, stands a image of herself, only much younger....

Sara just stares at her former self. It has to be her at about 8 or 9. She smiles as she lowers the shovel. Not sure at what she's seeing, the younger Sara smiles and waves. Sara starts to wave when she feels a hand grab her wrist.

"Don't wave," a voice that sounds like her own tells her, "Don't be nice to her, especially with what you have to do."

Sara turns around, and sees another vision of herself, this one though, older looking then she is now. mid-twenties, or early thirties.

"You know what that is right?" the older Sara asks present day Sara.

Present day Sara shakes her head no. And the older Sara chuckles, "Thats you Sara. That what everyone sees, when they look at you. They see that little girl, right there. You realize what this is, you're seeing things from everyone else perspective. Zone Capone, Connor MacDaddy, Hellraiser, Redd, Jack Jones, T.K. Money, all of them. When they see you in the ring, they see that little girl."

Sara looks back at the girl, who is still smiling at her.

"Do you know why they see that Sara? Its because thats what you are. You are still that little girl, standing right there. No matter how much you lie to yourself, and try to tell yourself you've grown up, it doesn't matter because THEY still see that girl right there. And you've done nothing to prove them different." the Older Sara says.

Sara looks away from the younger version of herself, clutching the shovel harder in her hand.

"It's time to grow up Sara. You want a fresh start. Here it is. But theres no reason to start a new, if you're just going to be the same little girl you are now. You know what you want to be, you want to be me right?" older Sara asks.

Present Sara nods her head yes, her back still to the little girl Sara. The little girl Sara's smile fades away, instead changing to a tearful frown. Present Sara turns around and sees the little girl, and tears begin to form in her eyes as well.

"See what I mean Sara? Why are you crying? Because of her? This is what you want. This is the moment you've been waiting for your entire life, ever since you used to play dress up with your mother's wrestling gear! This is the moment Sara. It's time to stop being the Little Girl, and be the woman you've always wanted to be! Do it Sara! Do it!" the older Sara says.

Present Sara takes a couple steps forward, towards the younger version of herself, the shovel still in her hand. She raises it above her head...

"Bye Sawa." the little girl Sara says, the tears still flowing.

"I'm sorry it has to be this way... Sara whispers, closing her eyes before bringing the shovel down....

*thwack*

The shovel slams into the hardwood floor in front of Sara. She opens her eyes, and the little girl version of herself is gone. She looks around, and sees only the older version, standing at the door clapping her hands.

"Good job, it's not easy to end your childhood." the older Sara says, "You're ready, you're finally ready to let me take over. Let me show a little. Oh, how long I've been waiting for this moment. Been waiting for you to give me a chance. But you just never truly wanted to grow up, did you. Admit it, if given the chance, you would've stayed a kid forever right? Sorry, the world, especially the wrestling world, isn't like that. But thats ok, I'm here now, no more Sara Pettis to mess up your thoughts, no more baby Pettis to cloud your judgment. I won't be here forever though, your mother found that out. But thats all for another day.....Ice."

Ice looks away for a second to collect her thoughts, and turns back, to see the vision of her other self is gone. She does a quick spin around, and sees that she is alone. She drops the shovel on the floor, and smiles to herself.

"Oh yea, I'm back...T.K. Money has no idea what he's got in store for him on Inferno. No more little girl. No more Amanda Bynes wanna be. And Hellraiser, I wonder what he's going to do when he realizes I'm not so scared of the boogey man." Ice says before looking towards a window in the room, seeing her reflection in the glass.


Ever since my interview with Rolling Stone, I've been feeling distant. I've been feeling like nothing seems to fit with my life anymore. I can't concentrate on anything. Not on work. Not on school. Not even on my family. I've made attempts to talk to them, but I've been ostracized by everyone I knew and loved. I regret the things I have said. If I had just stayed the way I had been, I would've been fine. I had lived with what happened for this long, I don't know why I had to say anything. I know what happened was a mistake, and it was a mistake t ever bring it up.

Maybe this is why mom didn't want us to wrestle? Lately its just been one low point after another, each time that I think I've hit the bottom, I begin to fall again.

But I'm not going to fall anymore. I won't let myself fall any further. I'm putting an end to it right now. By killing who I am. Who I was. I suddenly came to the realization that, this entire time, I've been looking for sympathy. I've been looking for people to shower me with tears. I've been out to get people's pity. Out to get people's sorrow. But I'm not asking for that anymore. That ends right now, because everything I've ever been up until now, is dead.

Sara Pettis is gone. She's dead. I have no use for that persona, that name, that version of me. No more feeling sorry for myself. No more looking back at everything bad that has ever happened, and crying about it. Its time to move on, before I destroy myself. It would only be a matter of time before I went too far out, into the darkness, and I wouldn't be able to find my way back. I saw what my future had, I didn't like it.

The little girl is going away for awhile, she's been replaced by me. I've been waiting for this time to come for sometime now. This side of me to finally say, 'enough is enough, I'm tired of this pity me bullshit.' Finally I feel like the time has come to bring back a legend.

People will say, 'it's just a name,' but what do they know? Without a name, there is no character to relate too in the story of life. As long as the name Sara Pettis was stuck to me, everyone would just see the little girl, who cried, and used her parent's name to get to the top. You see, too all of you, 'Ice' is just a name my mother wrestled with. But I saw both sides of her. 'Ice' was more then just a name. 'Ice' was ying to Becky Thompson's yang. Becky Thompson was a loving mother, and wife, just like Sara Pettis was a naive little girl, trying to find her place in the legacy of a world she wasn't ready to enter yet. Neither of them should've been in the ring. They both lacked what it took to be great. Sara Pettis got lucky a few times. But you saw what happened when she really got put on the spot, she folded. Becky, it's pretty obvious she couldn't get by in this realm without me. Thats why she gave up so easily.

I'm not a quitter. I'm not the type that can get knocked around into submission. I'm the type that wins championships, and headlines Pay-per-views. I'm the type that even Zone Capone says, 'Damn, she might be small, but at least I don't have to feel guilty when I slam her.'

No more being cute. No more being innocent. No more talk about a broken neck, or a broken heart. No more talking about dead parents, dead beat parents, abusive parents, no more talk about ex-boyfriends that post old pictures on the internet. No more thinking about joining the military, or going off to college while wrestling on the side. No more compassion There is only one thing in my life now. Wrestling. Wrestling in RWA, and SFT. I've got unfinished business to tend to in both of them. The face my still be the same, but the name has changed, and with it, the attitude you've all been missing for so long returns.

...The legend has been reborn.

End...