Tuesday was a day in which I slammed into reality, head on. I lost to Kamikaze yes, but I was ready for that. No, what I wasn't ready for was what happened backstage. For those who haven't seen or heard, my step-dad kicked my ass. I wasn't ready for it, I still don't believe it. Sometimes I think it had to be a dream. But the stitches in my forehead say other wise.

I'll never claim to understand what Will Schorg thinks. The only person that could ever claim that was my mother, but even she seemed to have problems with it. I ask Jane, I ask my little brothers, I ask Uncle Nate, and none of them can ever say they know what he's thinking. He says he does this for my mom. But I know mom wouldn't want this. I know in my heart that mom would never have agreed to what Will do ReLoaded. She may not have wanted me to do as she did, but she wouldn't have tried to force me not too by attacking me. If theres one thing I know, its that my mom wasn't a sadist. Sometimes, I think Will is though. As far back as I can remember, he has only ever fought with those he didn't agree with. He has attacked me, my mother, Nathan, he has attacked his friends, he has attacked strangers who only had a difference of opinion. Will Schorg is a sadist. I wonder if he hasn't just been waiting for a reason to strike me.

Do I hate Will Schorg? I don't know, I haven't decided. How can I hate someone who has seen to my development as an adult. How can I hate someone who took me in when I was young, and had nowhere to go? How can I hate a man that has protected me, and cared for me, and loved me? But does he still love me? He claims too. But I don't know anymore. Will Schorg is a mystery. Everything it seems is a mystery.

Even in my tag team match with Sean Starr, the man who stopped Will's attack, there is a shroud of mystery. Eric Badger's partner has decided to keep himself a mystery, so much like everything else in life. Fine with me. Some people just choose to be like that I guess. Theres nothing I can do about it anyway. Preparation for this match is going to be like any other I guess, I just need to speak with Sean some before it.

The scene opens, it is late at night. And Sara is seen taking her things out of the home she grew up in. She just received her first paycheck from RWA, which compared to the paychecks she has gotten from other organizations she has appeared in, seemed like a fortune. She has used it for the down payment of her own car, and is seen loading it up with all of her belongings. From the doorway, Jane watches her. Ricky and Chris also watch from their bedroom, as their older sister begins to leave her old life behind her. Will Schorg on the other hand doesn't acknowledge what is happening. He only sits in the living room, starring at a photo of her mother taken just months before she passed. Her hair was gone, and weight was low, and yet, she was happy. In it, she is with Jane, Sara, and the twins. They were the only ones that made her happy in her dying days. And now as the first of her three children leaves her home, Will's face shows no sign of remorse. Meanwhile outside Sara has finished packing her things into her car. As she shuts the hatchback, Jane walks up to her, and puts her hand on Sara's shoulder.

"You don't have to leave," Jane says to her. "Where are you going to go?"

"I don't know Janey." Sara responds, "But as long as I continue to do what I do, and as long as Will..." Sara stops after saying her stepfather's name. She had never called him by his first name when talking to Jane. To the two of them he was always Dad.

"Sara, he loves you. Believe me, with all my heart I know it. Please, don't do this." Jane begs her stepsister almost to tears.

"What do you suggest then, Jane?" Sara asks, "Please, just help me, I don't know what I should do."

"Just come back inside." Jane responds.

"Inside to what? Another beating if I don't give him the answer he wants?"

"He didn't mean to do that Sara."

"Janey, he got on a plane, and flew from New York, to Texas. How could he NOT mean to do it."

Jane starts to respond, but stops, not sure what to say. She just takes her hand off her stepsister's shoulder and lets her emotions go. Sara hugs her stepsister.

"Janey, I have to do this. I have to live as I want to live it. Not how he wants me too, or how mom would've wanted me too. This is the time I have to do it. For now, I'm just going to live on the road, until I find a place to settle down. I might go back to the old house mom had in Alaska. I don't know. But I love you, and I love Rick and Chris."

"What about dad?"

"I don't know. I'm sure I do, but for right now, I really don't want to think about him. But I have to go now, if I'm going to go through with this."

With that, Sara breaks the hug. She looks up and sees the twins in the window, and just waves goodbye to them. She walks to the driver side door, and gets into her car. As she drives away from the house, she looks in the rear-view mirror, and says too herself...

"Just one more goodbye."

Five minutes later, she arrives at the Ozone Park Cemetery. She drives in, and goes until she gets to a marker shaped like a wrestling ring. It's her mother's marker. Sara gets out of the car, and walks over to it, and knees down. In the center of the ring, is a picture of her mother taken during her early time in XCW, with the XCW Intercontinental on her shoulder. She stares at it, and a tear goes down her cheek.

"Mom, I'm sorry, but I won't be coming around as often. But I need to get away. I need to get out of Ozone, because otherwise I don't know what I'd do. Will has made it clear that he doesn't want me wrestling, and that he's willing to hurt me to try to keep me from doing so. I don't think you would've wanted him to do what he has done, but he's so sure that you would, that he thinks if he doesn't he's letting you down. I wish you were still here, and that you could help set him straight. I miss you Mom. I've missed you everyday. I just want to be like you. I just want to know what it was like to be what you were, even before I was alive. I just want to experience everything that this life, and this business, and all that has to offer. I know you understand, at least I hope you do. I love you mom, I always will."

So I'm tagging with my white knight I guess you could say. I'm guessing thats why they choose to pair us together. I can't think of any other reason really. Sean Starr, and Sara Pettis. I guess they just decided that there should be at least one random team in this tournament. It's cool though, hey, I'm finally getting a chance to make some friends in the business, outside of the inner circle Mom, and Will keep.

And like I said, we've got Captain Canuck, and his mystery partner in the first round. A partner I don't know, and a opponent nobody knows. Whatever. I guess this is just something I should learn to expect anymore. Well, what do I know about my partner? I know that for awhile, Sean was the RWA World Heavyweight Champion, before it was merged into the Universal Title. And I know he just happened to be in the right place, at the right time for me last week. I really do appreciate it though Sean. Believe me.

And as for Badger. I know that he has held the United Titles before. And I know he was in the big elimination match for the United Titles earlier this year. In fact his partner was Andrew Foley, one of RWA's current owners. Hmmm...maybe I just stumbled onto something. Could Foley be Badger's partner for this match? If I'm right do I get a prize?