~*Never Friends*~
By: Sarah Latta(Crystal-Dawn)
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Personal Note: I don't think Buffy should've did what she did, but that was Joss's work(he IS, unfortunately, the show's creator), but I wrote this fanfic anyway because something possessed me to do so(not literally of course). Enjoy(if that's possible).
**These are Buffy's thoughts on why she had to tell Angel she couldn't see him again.**
So many reasons why I did what I did, why I said what I said. The look on his face when I'd show up betrayed feelings beyond friendship. Whenever we're near, there's this force that pulls me towards him, and I'm sure he can feel it too. The feelings between us, it seems, can grow stronger each second we're together, or apart. But they don't stop. They never stop. Which is why I did it. I can never see him again, because we're *not* friends. We never were, and never will be. Who was I even kidding? The love between us was, is, so great, and once that's there you can't go back. And what's there to go back to? Yup, I was in love from the start, and I suspect he was too. After what happened before, our love is too much of a risk to everyone. I couldn't jeapordize anyone like that, and I doubt Angel could have lived with himself had he lost his soul, again. I tell myself it's for the best... like it was for the best when I had to send him to Hell to save the world. Yeah, funny how 'for the best' can feel so much like 'for the worst', but that's the way life works sometimes. I probably could have dealt with being 'friends', somehow, had he not felt the same way. But he couldn't do it. He couldn't tell me that he didn't love me. I couldn't have said it either, if it were me that had to. Spike was right, we'll never be friends. We can try to hide it, try to deny its existance, but our love will always be there deep within us. And when our eyes meet, and when we're near, that love will pull us closer. It's undeniable. The risk our love holds is too great, and our love can never die. That's why I did it, did what I wasn't sure I could do, what I never thought I would have to do. I love him and he loves me. We'll never be friends.