"Heartfelt"

I miss you so much
I wear your shirt
around the house
I tried to capture the feeling
of your arm around me
as we laid on your couch together
or the feeling of your hand in mine
during the foggy ride home
your plush lips against my own
trying to tattoo their imprint to my flesh
to close my eyes
and recall their tender, imploring weight.

These days I long to remain
lost in my dreams
so that I may see you
and enjoy your company
that I can laugh and
hug you
with all the love
in my heart.

Reality, life
no longer pleases me
without your touch
upon my days
to make them more than ordinary
with a mere
breath of words from your lips
or a soft touch of your hand
caressing my face.

No indeed,
my dreams are much more
pleasant these days
for when I awake
I am hit with pain anew and I close my eyes
for a moment
so I can return to your smile
your kiss
your embrace
as I cannot look forward to
in my days of wakefulness.

I walk around
doing my usual things
but I feel lost in a fog
and it's hard to keep
under my appearance
for too long.
One cannot simply
force themselves into contentment
the heart and the mind
for once are in agreement
on such a matter.

I can smile in memories
and perhaps even giggle
in rememberance of
something you once said
the warm spark is just that
there and gone.

I have a feeling
this would be
slightly different
if I might have the pleasure
of hearing your voice
my name upon your lips
over a phone
to span the distance
between us
for us.

If I cannot hold you
then I at least
long to hear from you
what saddens me greatly
is I had a chance last night
but I was not at home
I have been praying
this entire day
that I might have such
a chance, a moment
again tonight
when I would be home
able, willing, and
most eager to receive
the phone call from my beloved.

You who are at the center
of all my thoughts
these days
and always.
My heart is aching
and my eyes are shedding
tears in abundance
which causes me
to laugh at myself
this being only
the third day
since your departure
and being eleven more to go.

I am silly
but I am justified.
For I have found a man
who loves me as I am
who adores me
with his heart
his words
his actions
his silence.
It rests between us
with ease.
I shall bring this
heartfelt epistle
to a close
I miss you.
I love you.
Come home soon.