******ok....i'm not too sure what i want to do with this page yet. i think it's just gonna be some of my thoughts on random topics that seem to be on my mind at one point in time or another. it might get weird or long or deep or whatever, so at anytime....just stop reading! hehehe! oh ya...i'm not editing this stuff at all. it's coming straight out of me and onto the page so please disregard any typos, grammar errors, and all that good stuff k? if i like the idea, i might just elaborate on it later and make it better, but for now this is just mainly a free-write page.....anyway...i guess i'll start now...******
sometimes i get the feeling that there is someone out there that is meant for me; someone who knows how to make me smile; someone who understands when silence is necessary; someone who believes that crying heals my pain; someone who isn't afraid to give me all they have without question or expectance of something in return; someone who steps back and lets me make my mistakes but is right there dusting me off after i have fallen; someone who's word is never in doubt; someone who knows my secrets but never tells a soul; someone who loves unconditionally, even when the situation is uncertain; someone who knows my every thought, my every dream, my every desire, my every breath, my every heartbeat. sometimes i get this feeling, and its so strong i am overwhelmed by it, consumed by it. this belief that there is a person out there who is set apart from the mindless rest, just for me, by forces unknown...i'm so sure of. yet, this person is hidden away by thick forests of naivity, of self-pity, of illusion, and of mistrust. this person remains in the dim, dark areas that surround my reality only to occassionally linger at the edges of my perception and simply float out of my grasp before i am able to perceive who it may be. this person weaves unknowingly through my dreams, eventually attaching themself to a distant hope i have, that one day their identity will be discovered and the unasked questions will be answered. they will appear from nowhere with insight, knowledge, and most of all an undying, unmeasurable, and unquestioning love. until then, i must continue on in life....gently drifting through it, following the currents and tides where ever they may take me. until then, i am content to rest upon my wooden raft that flows down this magnificant river toward an unknown destination, in hopes that i will learn valuable lessons along the way which help me to uncover the mystery of my destined soulmate.
~~~well now....i didn't know that was in me but i just stared typing and all that came out...~L~ umm small kine deep huh?? oh wells, i guess i'll post it and see what kinda reactions i get from it......just wanna see how this page works out first...anyway thanks for coming and sign my guestbook and things to let me know what u think of this place k?? :0) thank again~~~
