Thank You, well at Least Sort of
I chose again to block out the words I heard you say
I don’t want to hear your voice, no not today
I refuse to believe I wasn’t worth your time
I know that I was and that I deserved more
Now that you are no longer mine
I can proudly walk through the door
Who I was becoming was not who I am.
I deserve flowers, my favourite kind
For no other reason then to say “you are mine”
I thank you for showing me the way to exit
If you had not pointed it out, I would still be
lost in the maze of uncertainty
I know someone will love me, all of me
Including my quirks and occasional anxiety.
He will not force me to change or tell me to get better
He will support me through actions and write me love letters
I may have given you a lot of things, including complacency
But at least I saved my self and my intimacy.
I feel you should have been up to the task
To do things without me having to ask
I needed hugs, support, and sometimes insight
Why didn’t you ever fix my burned out headlight?
I had to fight against objects to get your attention
I did not deserve all the contention.
I deserve to be loved and not shown defeat
I should be the missing piece in making your life complete.
