It's midnight the day before deadline, and I couldn't be having more fun. I truly love this part of the process, of putting it all together. It's like a big puzzle. The hardest part is stopping - or, better, of knowing when to stop, knowing when it's done.
This, of course, is a wonderful metaphor for life, as most art is.
Heera, amazing Advertising Goddess Girl, has a hard time with this too. She sees graphics the way I see words. We have cut and paste sessions and she reminds me of those scenes in A Beautiful Mind when he puts all of the tabloids around him and numbers start jumping out at him and order is found in chaos.
I do this with words. I don't know how, anymore than beloved Heera knows how she does it with pictures and ads. Some people really get math, and I just don't. I like the idea of karma, of how we come into this life with predispositions for somethings and ways of being. We carry things from far away, from long ago, that don't matter except for their effect on our lives and choices today, in this moment.
I sometimes think that I was born into the wrong line of being. That there were two women giving birth or conceiving at the same time and I messed up. All the people in my family are in the medical profession, talk about body fluids all the time, and think about the peanut butter sandwich they're going to have for lunch during open heart surgery - my sister. I almost fainted hearing about it. I was born a writer, and then entered the international affairs and politics realm. I used to watch ER, but not for the medicine, for the story, the dialogue.
At any rate, things sometimes look a little bit out of whack, or clearer in perspective, depending on how long I've been staring at this screen.
Back to loving this: This is a great job. I get to interview great people, come into contact with great people, and learn amazing things while having amazing discussions. I've fallen in love with a whole new group of people doing the environment & harvest issue, and am still pining over all of the wonderful people all over the world who came together for the Dalai Lama issue.
I get to write about things I believe, present a gift to the state about wellness and higher consciousness, and occasionally I get a really great massage or reading or an assortment of new modalities. It's feels good to do good work. It feels good to be in my passion. I think that it shows in the end product, and I hope it will continue that way, and all of it will grow and evolve and all of that juicy stuff.
I've found I like being a little controversial too. I like to get to the heart of the matter, dig beyond the surface, take the time to find out what's really going on, become interested, and then dive in. I love to learn. Learning about the beef industry for this issue was very enlightening, scary, but enlightening. Thank God for Daily Blessings Foods!
I'm going to bed now. I thank the universe for this wonderful day, look forward to lying down in my bed with my warm and snuggly husband and dogs, and waking up wrapped in bliss.
