The flight was fairly boring, but I brought my discman with me, so I could listen to music without disturbing others. I was listening to Hanson when we landed, once again crying as I heard Taylor's voice utter, "Have you ever stood outside a picket fence. You could see through but you can't get inside. You sit there and wait. I look at you and anticipate, what we could be and what we could do..."that's exactly how I feel about him and he sings the damn song all the time, yet he doesn't know how I feel. I'd like to take him off somewhere and scream how I feel in his face so he can't miss it unless he's dense. "Come on Sky, we've got to get off now."Sidney instructed. and tried to help me up. I walked or more like stumbled to the new van; climbing in with ease and seating myself in the back away from everybody else. I continued listening. MMMbop went by, then Weird, Speechless, Where's The Love, Yearbook, and then Look At You. I went through all those fine. It was after listening some more that I got upset again. Lucy was slightly upsetting, but it was I Will Come To You that really busted me up. I lost it and went hysterical in the car. Thankfully we were almost to the new house. Mama pulled into the driveway and we all got out; me taking my time again. I got my bags and carried them upstairs and went to the room that mama said was mine. It was upstairs; first room on the left. Sidney's was the second on the left and Sandy's was the first on the right. I explored the upstairs before going back down. Finding out that between mine and Sidney's room was a bathroom and on Sandy's side of the hall, -in order from the door to the window at the end of the hall-Sandy's room, a bathroom, and guest room. I went and checked out the three bedrooms, being curious as to the way they looked. The shocking thing was that all of the rooms looked completely different. As if different people had decorated them. Then when I went downstairs, I noticed that the whole first floor was decorated in a different style than the up
I was in my room unpacking my things and getting settled as I put my stuff up. There was a knock at the door and I answered it with a, "Who is it?" My mom giggled and walked in. "Do you like your room? Taylor spent a long time in here."she said and sat down in the chair at the computer desk. "Taylor was here?"I asked. "Yes. Taylor was here earlier this week and was very excited when he found out that we were moving here. When he found out, he got the whole family to pitch in and Taylor did your room, Isaac did Sidney's room, Zac did Sandy's and their mother-who is very nice I might add- did the rest of the house. The boys had a little trouble since they don't have the same taste as you girls. But Taylor had an advantage since he had seen your other room."she explained.
That night right after dinner, I headed down the street to go take the guys a shirt I found in my closet. I wasn't sure who it belonged to, but I knew it was one of theirs'. I went up and knocked on the door; feeling anxious to turn around and run. The door opened and the guys' little sister, Jessica was standing there. "Hey Jessica, do you know who this shirt belongs to?"I asked her, holding it down to her level. "Yeah it belongs to Tay, but he's not here. He went to Jan's."she replied. "Oh, well can you give it to him?"I questioned in reply and handed it to her. "Yeah."she said and took it from me, literally slamming the door in my face. "Must be ill. "I thought. I was in the middle of the street, when I heard voices and turned around to see where they were coming from. I saw Taylor between his house and the one next to it with a girl. She was tall, bonde, and dressed in a cheerleading outfit. "Damn I'm good!"I thought. I was about to run back to my house then, but I decided to stay and see what happened. I realized right then that I should have left. The girl leaned over and kissed him on the lips in a passionate fashion and he didn't act like he cared! I started crying hysterically in the middle of the street and he turned around and saw me as I ran into my house.
I was on my way back home from Janice's house when she stopped to talk to me. I was standing there, trying to be nice when she leaned over and kissed me. It was completely different than when Sky kissed me. When Sky did it, I felt all light headed and warm, but when Janice did it, I wanted to break away and run. I heard crying and turned around to look for the person and saw Skyler standing in the middle of the road, in that cute skirt and blouse outfit I helped her pick out. She was bawling her eyes out. She looked at me and ran towards her house. I wanted to burst into tears, but I was more worried about explaining it to her. I chased her to her house and opened the door. "I'm sorry for being so rude, but where'd Sky go?"I said, panting and hanging on the doorknob. The eyes burning in my head were driving me mad, but I ignored them. I had hurt Sky once again and the way that made me feel was unmercifully painful. "She ran upstairs."Sidney replied in a sullen tone and pointed to the hall. I ran up there, panting and fighting back tears the whole way.
I stopped in the hallway when I heard crying. I looked in her room and she was lying on the bed, with her face buried in the comforter. "Go awy you bastard!"she screamed. Her voice was shaky and cold. I was about to listen to her, but I walked into her room and sat down next to her. As I lifted her up off the bed, she flung her arms at me and tried to hit me, but she was too hysterical to aim. "Shh, calm down. Can't we talk about this?"I pleaded, pulling her into my lap and holding her close. "Let go of me!"she was persistant and that was when I knew exactly how bad I had hurt her. Normal she'd literally turn into putty when she was upset, but not now. A tear formed in my eye and rooled down my cheek, landing in her hair. She squirmed and wiggled, but I kept a tight hold on her. "Damn you, let go!"she yelled and I knew her family downstairs thought I was killing her. "Come on Skyler, won't even listen to my explination?"I questioned and she calmed down a little. "Talk fast."she replied, her voice was cold and distant. Not at all like the normal seductive and warm voice she had. "She kissed me and I never said I liked it. In fact all I wanted to do was get away."I ran my hands down her back and pulled her closer to me. "I hate her Sky, but she sucks up to my parents and they want me to be nice to her."I added. She looked up at me with tears streaming down her face. I had been longing to see that beautiful smile for months. "In fact, I wanted to get away so I could come kiss you."I could feel my face turn its firey red color that I despised so and gulped. Hoping that by some act of GOd that she hadn't heard it. She looked into my eyes and me into her jade green ones and simultaniously we both leaned in and as our lips touched and her hands slid behind my neck, I saw fireworks, flames, explosions and sparks.
We both pulled away and licked our lips, and she laid her head on my chest. I wrapped my arms around her and held her next to me. I had been cold before this, but now I had a sudden urge to remove my jacket. She started humming and at first I couldn't figure out what it was, but after a few minutes, I made out a few lines from Near You Always by Jewel. I smiled at her and then kissed the top of her head. Her hair started falling down and the pony-o was halfway down the tail. I tugged gently on it and she looked up at me, smiling gleefully. I looked down into her eyes and then felt around for the pony-o. On the event of finding it, I pulled it out and ran my fingers through her hair. Skyler sat up and climbed into my lap, facing me. She giggled and took the pony-o put of my fingers and pulled my hair back into a low ponytail. Her hands ran down my chest and then she wrapped them around me and pulled me closer to her. She kissed me and we continued in this passionate lip-lock for a while, one of us occasionally pausing to breathe.
I pulled my legs out from underneath her and laid her down on the ned, laying myself on top of her, making sure to continue kissing. I guess I got away from myself because Skyler started trying to push me up. "Taylor...Taylor...oh gheezus..."she mumbled. I stopped and looked at her questioningly. She looked down and I did the same, finding that my hand was in her shirt and apparently she was afraid I would try to go further. I could live with that. If she doesn't want it, I don't. "I'm sorry Taylor.:she said in that sweet, seductive voice. "Its okay. I shouldn't have done it anyway."I replied. "I'd better be going. My parents thought I would be right back."I chuckled and sat up, adjusting my shirt. "Okay you'd better go then."she said, sat up and fixed her clothes since they were hanging limply on her from being tampered with. "You wanna come over tomorrow?"she invited and stood up, looking at herself in the full-length mirror on the wall. "Sure."I replied, sounding a little too excited and walked over to her, resting my head on her shoulder and chuckling. "That's a familiar sight." I said and kissed her neck, turning to leave the room.
