On my bed, I laid listening to Hanson's fairly new album, Live From Albertane; humming along and swaying slightly. They all three had the sexiest voices, but Taylor's stood out among the rest. It wasn't because it sounded better, or because he was famou, but because it was the voice that told me I was beautiful, the voice that approved of everything I did(and wore at that), but also because it was the voice that calmed me when I was weak, scared and feeling alone. The sad thing was that I was feeling alone right now. him and his brothers left yesterday afternoon to go to Trinidad for some concert thing. I didn't go in the pool again, being that I would be reminded of that moment that our lips were pressed romantically together and we were linked by some invisible force. RRIIINNNNGGGGG I ran over and picked up the phone. "Hello?"I said. "Is Sandy there?"someone questioned. They had a deep and familiar voice. "She is, but I'd recommend you call her on her line."I was trying not to giggle. "Well, what's her number?"the person questioned. "Well who is this first?"I asked in reply. "Zac. I got your number from Tay."he replied. "Hehe its written in his journal with a heart around it."he chuckled. I could picture Zac sitting there literally rolling on the floor.
I gave him her number, but we stayed on the phone talking for a long time. I could hear Taylor and Ike fighting in the background. "Gheez leave me alone!"Taylor yelled. "Just chill, I mean I like Sky and all, but you talk about her too much. Her eyes are so pretty and expressive and she's got the cutest figure and oh man it's pathetic. I can't help it if that's inspiration."Ike chuckled and talked in a mushy voice when mimicing Taylor. I heard a thump and then a thwack. I started giggling and then Taylor says, "Zac, who are you talking to?"I heard Zac try to cover the mouthpiece, but not succeeding and he goes, "Sky, now shut up!"In the background, Taylor's voice arose. "You've been talking to Sky all this time and haven't told me?!" I heard a thump and an ouch. "Hey Skyler."Taylor's voice rang clear in my head. "Hey ba..."I felt my face turn every shade of red before he replied. "Did you and Zac have fun?"he asked. "Sure, he's cool, very funny."I replied. "Ah okay. I was just wondering since you've been talking to him for so long."he explained. I giggled in reply and asked him how Trinidad was. "Oh it's a blast. The girls were all over us again though. That's not too fun."he chuckled. "We gotta go, time to sleep. Have to wake up early tomorrow. Bye. I lo...uh lack sleep."he stuttered.
I knew something was wrong with that statement, but I didn't know what. "That wasn't what you were gonna say was it?"I questioned. "Um, ye..shit no its not."he said, I could just picture him looking around the room with a guilty look on his face. "I..."I began, but my throat closed up and I couldn't continue. "What? You what?"he asked, souding anxious. "I(pause)O love you Taylor."I stuttered. I heard Taylor sigh, breathe deep and then came an uneven breath, like he was...crying. "I love you too Skyler."it was obvious then. His voice was quiet and sqeuaky; not at all like his normal soothing, solid, deep voice. "Well, I gotta go. Um we're coming back home for a few days, but we won't be there long and the guys are saying we can't come home for Christmas. I'll make it up to you though. I promise."he said. "Oh okay, well goodnight."I hoped he didn't hear te sadness in my voice. "Goodnight. I love you."he said, letting his voice squeak again. "I love you too."he hung up and I placed the phone back in its cradle and laid down on the bed, letting the tears roll down my cheeks; soaking my pillow.
"Girls, it's time to eat."Mama called up from the kitchen. I ran downstairs, wiping my eyes as I went. Mama had made barbeque chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn for dinner. "Sky, what's wrong?" You normally scarf down Mama's chicken."Sidney questioned. "I'm not very hungry right now."I said and dug around inside my potatoes some more. I picked up the chicken and bit into it. Nobody fell for it. "Alright Sky, what's wrong?"Sandy asked, laying her fork down and looking at me evily. "I'm just bummed. Look I'm eating now."I said, growing ill and taking a bite out of the chicken again. They watched me as I forced food down my throat, making me feel uneasy. I hate it when people watch me especially while I'm eating.
I finished and headed back up to my room, getting out of my clothes and redressing in pajamas, then climbin into bed and falling asleep. My phone rang in the middle of the night and I picked it up. "Hey Sky."Taylor sounded excited. "How, wha, when. ugh?"I said, making us both laugh. "I'll explain later, just be at the mall tomorrow at 10 a.m."he said. "Alright, I take it your leaving again."I replied unceremoniously. "Yeah, we'll be home this weekend though."he explained. "Okay, maybe I can hold out."I giggled and stretched, sitting like this was getting the best of me. "I hope you can."he chuckled in reply and added, "Well, I'd better go. Bye." "Bye."I went back to sleep almost immediatly after hanging up the phone.
I woke up that morning at 9:00, making myself be in a rush. I had too much to do before 10. I jumped in the shower and did all my showerly things, finishing in record time. I ran over and picked up the phone, dialing the number for Taylor's beeper. He called back a few minutes later sounding worried. "Sky, is something wrong?"he panted. "No I just needed to know what I ought to wear."I giggled. "Oh phew. Um I dunno. I guess the red dress. I haven't seen all of your clothes. Na nevermind, that's too flashy everybody'd think you lost your mind."he said. "Ah wear those pants with the stripes down the sides with that white shirt. That looked good."he exclaimed. "Okay thanks. Tell everybody I said hey."I said. "Okay, I guess you're the one leaving now huh?"he aked, half laughing, half sounding sad. "Yeah, if my babysitting job gets hot I'll be busy too. I'm gonna be watching Mrs Whittaker's daughter this Friday."I stated sounding excited. "Oh cool."he said. We talked a while, until Diana came in a told him to get off. "9:30, oh shit!"I thought and ran into my closet.
I got out the outfit Taylor mentioned and slid it on; walking to the mirrorto see how it looked. "Another oufit that Taylor's not here to see."I said to myself. I headed out the door with my purse and walked down to the mall, making sure to leave a note for when mama came home. The mall was packed and I headed for the center hoping to find out where I was supposed to go. Then there was a sign, "Interview In Here."it read. "Corny as shit!"I thought and headed for the sign. Between me and the sign was a crowd of girls and on of them jumped out in front of me. It was Janice! "What are you doing here?!"she barked, emphazing the you. "I could ask the same about you."I replied and tried to push through. "We're all here waiting to see the girl for the interview."she said in her grouchy tone. I tried not to laugh, so she could wait and find out for hersef. I didn't have to wait long. "Is there a Skyler Cornell here?"s woman's voice asked; making Janice's jaw drop. I walked up to the woman and ignored the snickers that were directed at me. I was led to a hallway and a door, where I was asked my name and ushered into a room.
