I want to have a good time
but I can't stop thinking about you
I just want to have fun
but you don't love me like I love you
I want to have a good time
you ask me to dance
I rock sadly in your arms
you whisper "You look pretty tonight"
I wrote this for you
I just want to have fun
another asks me to dance
but I refuse
I can't imagine anyone's arms but yours
I want you to know me
I take your picture
Suprisingly you insist on having mine
we dance again
I want you to love me
I feel safe in your arms
slowly we move together as one
I want you to know me
outside, we say good bye
you wrap your arms around me
kissing my forehead
I just want you to love me
maybe you already do
I want you to love me-
like I love you
I want you to see me as your savior-
because you are mine
I want you to be there-
just as I'm always there for you
I want you to cry and laugh with me-
because I feel what you do
I want you to hold me in your arms-
because I dream of you
But you don't see me-
because the Eiffel Tower is nothing to a blind man
My head is pounding
I can feel my temples pulse
like drumsticks in a rock band
they are endless
A mother calling her child
a cricket's mating call
Never a moment of silence
the world is turning
will it ever stop?
My eyes search my surroundings
the pink spread on my bed
a print of flowers that seen to have
wilted over the years
Sunlight silters through the cracks
in my open blinds
A star that used to warm me
Now seems as chilling as the Artic Ocean
Never a moment of brightness
cold and dark
will it ever end?
The diamond on my left hand
reflects nothing but my misery
causes nothing but pain and jealousy
I have lost all hope
Nevera moment of happiness
hurt and tears
will it ever be?
On the bed stand beside me
lies an object made of steel
I cradle it in my palms
caressing the icy metal
I slash at my wrists
and find a ray of hope
in the swelling blood
The knife and my body unite
scenes of my life flash
before me
and I look upon them with loathing
before plunging into the sea of death
I take a last look at my refuge
crimson with life's river
It has ended
The sun has ceased to shine
remembering
being walked by rays of softness
white, yellow, red-
sometimes I wish I could forget
warm radience on my cheeks
shadows dancing as clouds burn away
forever, I dared to hope
daylight is all I grasp now
no compassion
to what was; what may never be again
unkown, unappreciated
until it disappeared, vanished
the blazing disc was to my soul
as water is to a parched throat
and dehydrated body
yet to the latter
deprivation brings the dark angel knocking
so when the sun longer rises
to arouse my soul
what will?
This pain is great;
no less than physical,
though it is not
you're always on my mind
am I on yours?
your picture haunts me;
reminds me of what what was,
and what could have been
that fixed smile
do you care?
you were my candy;
with interwoven LSD
Good while it lasted,
now I'm paying with
a shattered heart
was I not good enough?
It hurts.
I think I'm dying,
yet my body won't do me that favor
you have caused this
your lies shut down my
brain when recalled
no one knows
do you?
I stand naked
with only darkness to warm me
yet still I shiver
black is not sufficiant
you are not here,
yet still I scream at you piercing the dark
I have been stripped-LIES
It must have been her,
the pretty raven hair
she stole my love
my pride
your devotion
keep my damn heart
I don't need it, or you
I can go on emotionless forever,
why am I crying?
shut the hell up,
I don't need your excuses
you walked off with my broken heart
in your hands-
not even consiterate enough to leave me
the shattered peices
I'm the only one that can lie to me-
what the freak gave you the right?
you tell yourself one thing
and mean the opposite
is there something wrong with this picture?
you set goals and you can't achieve them
no matter how hard you try
what's wrong with this picture?
he tells you fairytales
and you believe them
LIES! LIES! ALL LIES!
You hurt on the inside
and try to hide it
IT'S NOT WORKING
you cry every night
your tears rocking you to sleep
when you awake you find
you've been weeping even in your slumber
you told yourself this would never
happen to you
no one would get that close;
you thought you were strong-
WELL YOU WERE WRONG!
and he doesn't give a shit
He lied when you were speaking the truth-
that hurts, doesn't it?
Sweat pours
runs together with my tears
what am I running from?
Where am I going?
My feet hit the ground
like a hammer does a nail
the shock of solid after air
penitrates up through my body
fear engulfs me as daylight
begins to fade
I am running from darkness
I am going to the light
my vision blurs
I stumbe, lie swooning
A gentle touch
white warmness opens my eyes
your light brings me to my feet
where am I going to?
where are you?
my heart speaks
with your voice
you have not left me
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