Howdy! I guess I'm doing really good right now considering this is 9 days since I have written my last entry. It's really weird ya know. It's like sometimes life gets soo busy that we don't have time to look in the mirror to see what we look like or how we are changing. And yet we change and when things slow down (if they do) you take 5 minutes and relax and look at yourself you wonder who you have turned into and which direction you are taking with your life. You realize that the world's pressures and it's grasp is holding you and pushing you away from the only thing that is ever constant and constitent in your life. For me, that one thing is God. Yet sometimes it feels like I'm too far to come back to him and yet I always do. I know this last statements have nothing to do with my title of this entry but as I started writing "Hi" I felt like typing it out. Over the last 3 months I have so busy at times if you asked me how old I was I wouldn't remember. I was going on what little engry I had to do everything everyone wanted me to do so I could be with them doing whatever they wanted. During this time, I have lost a couple of friends, gotten closer to others, and made new friends. To the friends I have lost I am sorry I haven't been there. Out of need to do everything I could/ Being involved with whatever seemed important at the time, I am sorry I wasn't there as a friend, as someone to talk to, someone to laugh and cry with. I feel I have let you down and in doing that I have made you and me both suffer. Please forgive me. I don't want to lose any friends and I know that is not possible and it happens over time, but if there is anyway we can become friends again let me know. I value each one of my friendships dearly. I guess that is really kinda hypocritical of me considering I have let them go down the drain. To those who I have become closer to, thank you for allowing me to be a person who you can trust to keep your secrets and to take your "cover" and throw it out the window to get to knwo the REAL you. I know each one fo you is a great friend not just because you are always there for me but also because you can crey with me til there are no tears left and laugh with me til we are rolling on the floor. To my new friends, just be glad I ALLOWED you to become my friend. just joking. You are some of the craziest, sanest, most unique people I have met. You all have taught me a great deal about the world and brung me into a new and interesting perspective. You are some of the greastest people I have ever met. And like all the friends I have had, I will never forget you. I love you guys!!!!! So I'm supposed to be going to this Collective Soul concert..of course it is rainign so I'm not going. How bad does that stink? I'm in a really weird mood and can't understand alot of things but that's all okie-dokie! Summer is gonna be awesome. I have no more school. It ended Friday. My last day ever as a student of Horace Mann JHS. The last day for the school ever to hold that name becuz they are changing the schools to middle schools. It was one of those bittersweet moments that you never want to end and that you will remember for all time. Not because it's 3:46 and you will never have to go to that school ever again. It's because you will never see half of these people again. After 10 months of waiting andhard work school ends in a matter of a few moments. The memories you make there will be with you for the rest of your life. And you come out with this feeling that nothing will ever be the same because of those 3 years. That's how I felt atleast. I hate to end it here but I must for I'm off to see Star Wars! May the Force Be With You-Alice
