Hey! Howdy! It's BEEN A LONG time. If you haven't found out about me and Todd being over. You are INCREDIBLY late. He's been dating (maybe going out I'm not sure) this girl for about 2 months now. They started dating shortly after he and I broke up. And yes, Alice is over him. I've moved on..and Sunday kinda proved it. It also proved that I'm a horrible person but we will leave Sunday..back at Sunday. I am still single. Sometimes it gets bad and I get lonely, but then I look at Page and all her many boyfriends I don't feel so bad. It's like seeing someone who is caught up in 5 guys makes you glad to be single. Ohh well. I sit here listening to her and her on again off again boyfriend Justin. It's really sad to see how much he makes fun of her and how much she still likes him. It's kinda makes you want to puke. He's a major jerk and no matter how much you may dislike Page and what she does you have to feel sorry for her. Jessie, oh boy, Jessie. Her relationship with Michael at its best was something many people wish they had. And now it's fallen. My only hope is that what happened in the past can be forgiven and if possible that their relationship can be mended, just like my friendship with her. There are alot of problems, including Sunday, that we need to workout. She will never know how truely sorry I am. I have made alot of new friends since September. Alot of them I have become really close to. Others are becoming great friends..just a little more slowly than the others. It's fun walking the halls or sitting at a corner waiting for THAT hott guy (well one of those) to walk by. It's always fun to see two of them right after another.=) Blind dates are not always fun. That's another thing I found out recently. It's not good to go on a date with two couples, you, and a guy you have never talked to. Lets just say There was no words spoken to each other after "Hello". It was very pitiful. Hey, you live and learn and eventually it'll help you in the future. It's funny, at the start of this school year I thought it was going to be the best school year ever and now that the first semester is almost over I can tell you, it wasn't the best. Yes, I did have a great relationship, and I met alot of new people, and I was in a play, and I got casted into West Side Story. But there was also the heartache of losing that relationship I once had, and then losing him as a good friend (I don't know whether or not to consider him a friend or not because of things), I've had to deal with a stressful class and trying to convince a teacher that the grade she gave me was WRONg and infact she didn't give things to make up. Thankfully, she gave in to me and I recieved a B. I've also had to deal with many of fights between friends and between me and friends. I've had to learn and relearn that maybe somethings that you think are right really aren't. I've lost a couple friends. And for whatever reason it was I am so sorry. I've learn many of lessons. I was talking to someone about these past couple of months and said something along the lines of This second half of the year hasn't been great at all. And he said I'm sorry or something like that. And I gave him the line I said about. You live and learn and it's all part of life. Some how, Some way everything ends up equal. You win sometimes, You lose other times but the main thing is that you keep your focus and you learn from your mistakes. Sometimes the lesson is for the better and sometimes it's for the worse, but you always end up stronger than when you started. No matter how hard it hurts, or how much someone or something hurts you, or whether you feel like giving it all up, you've gotta know if you at the lowest of lows it can only get better. You also have to know that the world doesn't stop, it keeps turning so pick up the pieces of your heart fast before they get swept far away. Also, you've gotta know that God does everything for a reason and "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philipians 4:13.~ I'm back from Christmas and this year Christmas was different. There wasn't alot to be happy about. Yeah, Christ being born. And I was happy about that. But this past two weeks have been some of the hardest to live with. Not saying that I haven't had fun because I have. My life has been affected alot by everything that's happened. Hopefully it will teach me many lessons for the future. I can only hope for that. Ohh well it's time to go to bed. I hope everyone has Happy Holidays! Much Love, Alice
