it is because of me,
she was hurt.
i let her down in her time of need.
it is because of me
she felt alienated.
i pushed her away when i was hurt.
it is because of me
that she is gone, forever.
i drew her to it through my actions.
i did not wish to lose her.
but because of me
she had no other choice.
it couldn’t bear to see her waste away
but because of me
there was no alternative.
i did nothing to stop her.
i cannot live without her.
but because of what i did
i must.
it am now surrounded by people,
souls who are firmly planted to this world.
it wander aimlessly amongst them,
unable to comprehend what they are feeling.
it am one sould among many,
but i am the only one
that is no longer attached.
i feel myself slip into oblivion,
but am in a constant struggle
to not become totally oblivious
to everything that it have worked so hard
to accomplish and gain.
she was my final link
connecting me to this place.
she was my anchor,
my rock.
and now,
because of what i have done,
i am not the only one
to lose a foothold on reality.
because of me,
she is gone forever.
because of me,
she has left for an eternity.
because of me,
she is dead.
