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" For The Record...."

This  page is to record my thoughts and dreams as I fulfill my destiny.  Each entry will be  spontaneous and unedited; my words .. my images.  Please check back for each new entry when the become available.

BobbiJean  - April 2000

 

First Entry: April 17, 2000

this shall be where i keep all my thoughts, plans, and the goes ons of my life. please bare with me, as i ve never been good at keeping reconds, as this section maybe the same, but i will be trying to make an inter once aweek, and on specails, in my life.

will as a start, i was born female, or been so ever since i can remenber, if i could only afford the cost to have the body. I do live as a woman, and dress so, even tho i am a backward country girl, and really new to the net. But i love it, so much information out there and free, most of it anyhow.

Well i ve learned that it is possible to get the ops, to become a complete and whole woman, and since have been dispressed, over the cost, and being disablied, that i may never be able to get it done, so its still only a dream, to me as it has been for many years.

But then, no more so, than the rest of my life, of being alone, and then the men i ve been with didnt last, they just didnt understand, that i am all woman, and my feels, and such. But i ve found the perfect man for me, and we ve never laid eyes on one another yet. We meet here on the net, and he is just my dream.  But i am not ready to talk about him, just yet, out of respect, other that to say i love every much, and he will for ever be in my heart, no matter what.

Well as an alaskan country girl, alone i do alot of things most girls like me, couldnt, or wouldnt.
but here in alaska, alot of things are different. i ve got dog mushing girlfriends, fishing and hunting girlfriends, and all can do some auto repairs themselves.

so my t girl story will be abite different, i am sure.

 

Second Entry: May 1, 2000


Now is time to get those chicks, and start flowers and things for outside, as June 1st is planting for this area of the country. I've got an ole franklin wood stove, and a toilet that I use as plants. And looking for another toilet, so I'll have two of those. I am doing pansyies, forget me not's, and poppies, as they do really well here. Then I'll look into some others.
Still have to plan the veggies for the garden, and get the soil turned, but  I've a good low spot to put the garden this year.
Snow is almost all gone now, good thing as I've got spring fever really bad this year. But I've got a lot to do this year also. I sold off 5 acres, and buying another house; to move onto the new place, and use this ole shack, for a woodworking shop.
The ole jeep is down again, so got to get some parts and fix it. I use it as a tractor, as most folks do up here.
I've got to see my doctors and shrinks. Then I have another hearing(s) for SSI; on disability for my back. I sure hope it gets approved this time, as it has been hell surviving the last three years. I am lucky in the fact I own my home. Otherwise I would have really been in a lot worse fix.
I am still looking into a few cabins, for the transgender resort. But that all takes money; something I don't have, and hard to come by since my back injury. I can't just go to work as I used to until I get done what I want.
I am meeting a lot of transgendered folks on line, and this is helping me to feel better. Just to know I am not alone, in this. Hoping to have some of these folks, come out to the country, for bbq's, hunting and fishing, whatever. Maybe you'll come to the ole homestead, and the country.
I will be adding pics, to this site again soon, so be sure you check back now and then.
well that's all for now,
xoxoxo
bobbijean

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