[from heart to hand]

this page contains MOST of the poems ive written over the past few years. its been a while since ive really had time to find inspiration for anything. i jes recently started to write again. so the last poem on here was written February 28, 2004 ill update this as much as possible.. but mind you.. i jes chose the majority of the ones i felt you all should read. looking back, i cant really say that i like them much but i gues that's really how i felt at one point in time. so i dont mean to make you think im all depressing and overly obsessed with love since majority of these are about heartbreak. i also would appreciate it if no one took them without permission (hopefully if theyre that good) people would wanna borrow them or put them up somewhere else only because they can relate.

I love you. June 18, 1999 I love the way your smile shines as i look across the room. I love the way i dream of us kissing on a full moon. I love the way your body feels next to mine. Just holding me through the night so take your time. I love the way you dance with me as your body sways left to right in directive ways. Bust most of all, I love your love for me. Your respect and kindness is how we came to be. So these words i say are straight from the heart i love you. I've loved you right from the very start. Missing You Asi sit here in the room i think about you day and night listening to your last good words "love you and take care, alright?" who would've thought the time would pass so fast i knew from the beginning your kisses wouldn't last. I left you for a while. why'd i let you go? What was i thinking? i guess nobody knows. i hope this breakup is going to be my last Can we get back together and forget about the past? Writer's Block August 9, 2001 my painful head runs wild and draws a blank screen empty words lost decisions. my thoughts lose concentration my feelings go crazy the worst fear of my imagination comes to life in another world. a world where you are forbidden to think or speak only listen. -listen tot he thoughts of another and envy them as someone better than yourself. I dont want to listen ANYMORE! I choose to be heard; I scream to the death! the battle is over. I have won. Give Me Your Heart February 26, 2002 Give me your hand to place softly in mine with my fingertips ill trace every crevice, every line Give me your arms to wrap around my waist i need you here beside me to feel your warm embrace Give me your shoulder so i can rest my head near your heart and near your soul I'll dream about in bed. And when i wake up, Give me your eyes to look back at mine happily with no regrets beautiful and divine Give me your lips to kiss the morning sun to whisper in my ear that I'm the only one Lastly, Give me your heart to ensure a common place a stonger love created each time i see your face. Im Sorry April 8, 2002 I'm sorry for that Saturday dont hate me for that night Im confused but i regret we didnt get the chance to make things right At this point, Im crying my tears i cannot hold although youve made me very happy my longings begin to unfold My feelings are changing curiousity is getting stronger as this confusion increases, my heart begins to wonder. Im sorry to have to do this especially in writing but like the hypocrite that i am I take this path instead of fighting. Please accept my apology and agree to be my friend as I have agreed to be yours until the very end. Gullable April 18, 2002 I cant live without you, I lie to myself each day and every day without a doubt you begin to drift away You told me that you loved me I believed your beautiful lips I believed the way you held me and touched me with your fingertips. I believed your wonderful voice I believed your listening ear I believed the way you'd hold me close when i was crying or in fear. I believed the way you called me and the way you said goodnight I believed the way you apologized when we got into a fight but now i dont know what to believe You're causing me too much trouble for the sake of my past and future and for the sake of being gullable. Untitled July 19, 2002 hate equals love love equals hate two four letter words never meant to penetrate and when both words pierce into the skin the outcome reveals more obvious within a different situation engraved in time lost in your memory forgotten in your mind hear my story as i speak my rhyme a significant episode so difficult to find day by day i live this way my price to pay for what i say love is deserved hate in return 50/50 answer a priceless lesson learned pain never meant to hurt said the man up above love equals hate hate equals love. Nobody's Angel November 26, 2003 I am the angel to care for these two lovers to watch over and guide them on their journey of happiness from the beginning i have seen the tears of joy she has cried as they have slowly drifted into tears of pain i have felt that pain too. I am the angel to point them in the right path the path to everlasting love on their journey of expectation From the beginning i have heard their conversations with another from laughter to yelling screams I need to scream as well I am the angel whose job is to protect this boy and this girl from the hurt love has caused. But i feel the pain and i need to scream as i have pointed them in the wrong direction lost and lonely i have failed to do my job So i lift my head and pass on my wings to someone worthier than myself for i am unable to do this job I am nobody's angel. Prove January 5, 2003 Just give me one minute to prove my feelings for you I just want to be alone with you to hold you to kiss you my body's growing weak and i cant seem to speak Im on a natural high I ask myself why why time seems to fly when were together alone and consoled in this world that seems so cold so cold i need your touch that used to hold me so much so tight so right I cant fight my desires you put my body on fire Just one minute, time is set one promise to keep there'll be no regret. What They Say January 30, 2003 They say i feel for him as he may not feel for me they say i want him back this is what they see they say he makes me happy they say he makes me smile they say that just for him I'd run the extra mile they say that i'd come back to him the moment he says yes they say that im confused. this, i must confess. They say that i'm lost in love infatuation and lies they say i need to get a grip of what i cant deny they say i cant decide between the future and the past they say that im not sure of why it ended all too fast For those who say these rumore may be half correct but you dont know shit about the truth so get your ass in check. He Said/She said February 27, 2003 Him: Today i saw your face and i couldnt help but smile and then i began to realize we havent talked for quite a while Her: boy, i know what you're feeling i feel the same way too hearing your voice on the telephone its hard to believe im missing you Him: Im glad we got that out of the way now we wont pretend but then again, i wonder are we more than friends? Her: Yes, i must admit that thought has crossed my heart too often to remember even while we were torn apart. Him: Girl, i wont lie to you and say that saturday want fun it seemed so right and easy as if i was the only one. Her: Beb, im trying my hardest and im giving you a chance you dont always get a second try in a once broken romance. Him: The thought of this confuses me in the deception adn the lies I can't stand all the questions the who, whats, wheres, and whys. Her: Then dont believe the shit they say and figure this on your own do you want me by your side? or would you rather be alone? Him: Why do you need to know so badly? we've got all the time in the world living life tot he fullest as little boys and girls. Her: I only want to know so i can move on with my life to live another day and get over all this strife. Him: Since its bothering you so much here's the deal with no guarantees I'll tell you how i feel Him: I think I want you back Her: Do you know that for a fact? Him: See thats the thing, i dont know. Her: Then dont put on a show Him: Well what am i supposed to feel? Her: whatever you think is real Him: Do you want to be with me? Her: Dont you see me on my knees? Him: I hear your questions through and through Her: Beb, you think its just bugging you Him: If it bothers you, why do you ask? Her: cuz wat might be our future is our past. Him: in the past, we've done so wrong Her: we both have changed, Ive waited so long. Him: So long for what? yes or no? Her: Dont tell me what i already know. Him: You know my answer more or less Her: Please make this day one of the best Him: I hope i do by saying ____. "26" March 29, 2003 April 26 i stood there half transfixed no blinking while saying yes marked the beginning of our quest May 26 or so one month seemed so long ago smiling glances rang the bell left this story for me to tell June 26 was hot summer came, winter not no one's fault, thats a fact communication, obviously lacked. July 26 damn it beb, you make me sick i want to end it all with "no" but somehow, i just cant let go. August 26 and school a new beginning and new rules 4 months past and you're still here my love for you has grown to fear September 26 is in the air maybe the best month that we shared you changed my mind and i gave in yet to come was your fill of sin. October 26, up and down as my tears fall, a crying sound nothing left for me to do except that i should be blaming you November 26 was last what we had is now the past who can tell why i tried so hard when lack of effort was on your part. Risk February 28, 2004 one inch of creativity a step into the art borderlining the ordinary a leap of faith by heart aware of your power responsibility accepted promises gone sour priorities neglected but all that changes in a glance the outcome of the day lucky you! a second chance for this situation, you may portray the choice is yours alone chancing loss or gain forgetful of the "known' equal options will remain.

What's Love? September 17, 1999 Is Love that tingly feeling that you get when you see that special guy? Why is love a good thing? someone tell me why Is Love that special place? the place where he told you he cared? please dont remind me anymore because i dont remember where. Is Love that special time as we were walking hand in hand? when Love was on our mind? but I cant remember when. Is Love that worthless person? someone tell me who the one that ruined my whole life. I guess that person's you. Who, when, where, why? how come i take the blame for all the things that you have done you ought to be ashamed. Expression February 10, 2000 There are too many words to say to express myself in a natural way Maybe even some expressions where they dont even have a proper word to fulfill the complete definition. Through happy or sad tired or mad completely graceful or unseemingly faithful I will alwaise express myself. I'll do what i can and I'll do what i feel watever i do I'll alwaise keep it real so dont love me if im beautiful dont like me cuz i'm nice Love me because i express myself and because i live my life. Skin Deep February 16, 2000 You're eyes like hollows of darkness as dark as the nightime sky your hair like a reflection in a calm sea with the shine of the moonlight night your lips like a lovely rose so perfect in every way the way they move the way they sound yes, you have the perfect face But beauty is not only skin deep and yeas, i do agree that you're oh so beautiful in every way in the inside and skin deep. You make me happy because you care You make me happy just by being there. and beneath skin deep Your laugh is like a music box playing beautiful melodies in my ear in my ear and in my heart and in my heart, you're always there. So all that i need to say is inside and skin deep youre beautiful in every way. Listen June 7, 2000 Listen with your heart not with your ears because you might not quite hear when an angel sheds a tear. Quiet of all noise silence of all things because you might not quite hear when an angel spreads its wings. Stillness in the room darkness in the night because you might not quite hear when an angel begins its flight. so calm down, relax and take your time because only an angel can be your guide. so be silent and listen with your heart. Suicidal Girl April 12, 2002 As an average teenage girl i am different from the world i feel that there is no way out i feel i have to scream and shout and still no living soul can hear my yearning for a listening ear by friends and family, i am ignored for when i talk they all get bored Who am i to say i care for others' situations, i am not aware. emotions run wild misunderstood child living with regret flaws needed to perfect My destiny is unknown i'm a child not yet grown but when i am up in the sky I'll watch you and youll wonder why. as you reminisce about the past and how i left you all too fast. so if i have to say goodbye don't blame it on yourself and cry as difficult as it is to change the world you cannot change the average teenage girl. Where do I stand? April 23, 2002 confusing thoughts memorable places unaware truths deceiving faces. a loving friend my eyes do see but when im gone the truth set free. loss for respect consequences gained love all gone hate still remained bewildered with agony lost in a trance lost in a friendship lost in romance. stay my friend and hate me not no friendships lost true love forgot. no longer standing but fallin with time the decision is yours no longer mine. 14 Downhill October 7, 2002 A new day has arrived a new beginning of my life awaken by the sun these 14 years are done. yet is there a change? destiny rearranged no difference i can see cant i just be me? no, i must succeed in all my work and deeds to make my spectators smile i must run the extra mile. Yet, no rewards to find help me now, i must be blind for aging by an extra year brings nothing to my eyes but tears. a year increase is not fifteen a 14th year of which ive been a little girl still learning. freedom from 15, im yearning. for happiness has not incresed my protection, they have ceased. no change in life for me to see that 14 downhill is still 15. Dawn December 30, 2002 I see him staring at the star filled sky watching wondering waiting for reality exceeds dreams and no one can take those drems away the night is so calm and he is so peaceful quiet and curious i see he has a plan a plan of dreams a plan of life a plan of reality a plan of attack. he silently waits for the break of dawn sitting on top of the highest hill waiting for sunrise for when the light hits his face he will stand up and his plans will be put into action as i watch him succeed. but i am still staring at the sky which is now lit up by the awakening sun watching for my break of dawn wondering where i will be taken and waiting. still waiting. Untitled January 29, 2003 You claim we'll be friends but you dont do shit to try to mend this heart thats broken from your mistakes all your lies, youre being fake. You say we'll talk, but all i do is see you walk away from me, in time we'll see who you're really trying to be -a friend or enemy _____, please just tell me this are you really going to miss my voice, my touch let me know how much how much you care about me being there and when i seem to disappear how will you feel? i want the truth dont you fear dont tell me what i want to hear. I found inspiration to think of writing this, im losing ink in my pen this poem wont mend my broken life from now and then. Bathroom February 24, 2003 I stare at the mirror those eyes looking back at me those lips that were once pure and virgin are now drenched in lies and loneliness the reflection of a girl -me. I cannot bear to look so i turn my head and remove my clothes one sin at a time I step into the tub turn the knob and let the water wash away the shame from my body the body that was once pure and virgin is now drenched in lies and loneliness I hide my sobs through the noisy shower and hide my tears through the running water I have nothing left to do but stand in that tub everyday and cleanse myself of everyday shame the shame that ook this once pure child and brought her into a world of lies and loneliness. Don't March 03, 2003 Dont tell me that you care when you plan to walk away Dont tell me its not fair when you dont plan to stay Dont kiss my hand when you want to kiss another Dont say those are the facts when all you do is wonder Dont tell me what you want when thats still a mystery Dont tell me that you're not intending to hurt me Dont whisper in my ear or look into my eyes Dont tell me what i want to hear when i know it's one big lie Dont give me a second chance and dont lead me on Dont try to fix this romance when i know you're already gone. Broken Friendship July 23, 2003 you said friends forever i said fighting we should never all said and done for the better promised to care for one another life was great while you were here strange connection far or near said to be the perfect pair always played with fun and fair slowly we began to drift from my perspective, i see the shift of friendship, you act so swift as though nothing occured, though youre missed. im obviously replaced by another friendly face i guess i couldnt keep up with your pace all those laughs ended up as waste. So you tell me who's to blame come on now, dont you feel ashamed? for causing this girl so much pain this girl you see without a name because now im breakin up in tears from facing the worst of my fears I cant believe after all these years you'd ignore me by simply covering your ears. So i hope you realize in the end you were never a true friend you can never completely mend our broken friendship from now and then.

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