Ernie's problem.

At a time when I was somewhat stressed out and busy I felt constrained to write a letter and a small comment in it referred to satan, whom I firmly believed at the time to be causing the trouble in the Middle East. Over several months I re-read the letter and couldn't see anything wrong with it, because I read it from my point of view, but I now assume that God read it from his point of view, and interpreted it in a way that I could never conceive it could be made to mean. But I still wonder if it was something else in the letter, or something not associated with it that got me into trouble.

It has never entered my heart, mind or spirit to criticize God or the Holy Spirit, to my mind I was clearly criticizing satan, and the criticism was not transferable. Is it what is in my heart, spirit and mind that counts? Some other things at that time, stressed me out more than I can remember ever happening before, but I don't think it was that, as that would be in the category of things that could be forgiven. Probably I was not careful enough with the wording, and now I wonder who constrained me to write it. I repent of having written it as it probably has caused ill feeling elsewhere. Did someone take a totally wrong meaning out of the letter, and construe it in a way that I could never have imagined?

I am sure that I didn't do anything seriously wrong, from a human point of view, and can only guess at what may have been misinterpreted. I think that I should be allowed to know what I am accused of, and it has taken nine months to work out several possibilities, all based on a misunderstanding of what I meant. God doesn't seem to have checked with the Holy Spirit that was in me at the time, and has since damaged the connection with my spirit.

I had the concept that evil in the world, guided by satan, would be the cause of antisemitism attitudes (and anti-christian) and would work up to a crescendo at the end times, under what could be described as demonic rule by a world government, and then God would bring the nations against Israel, and punish them there. This is given in the account of the battle just before the Messiah comes, and of the end-time battles, but I didn't think he was bringing people against Israel now. (Nahum:1v12,Though I have afflicted you, {O Judah}I will afflict thee no more. NIV.)

I can't actually see the spiritual realm, the bible tells us about it but not everything. Because I cannot see the spiritual realm, if the Bible doesn't tell me clearly who is doing what, I have to try to work it out for myself. Some I can learn from pastors and teachers, or books, but I haven't found guidance on this one thing. As christians in the new testament times we hear so much of Gods love for us and his compassion, that he will never leave or forsake us, he is abounding in mercy, not willing that any should be lost, that it seems that the whole world is bathed in his love and compassion, and one need only ask and be saved, which I had done, with repentance etc.

Is it possible that the Jews are stuck in a "time warp", while we are enjoying Gods blessing and love, they are still in the old testament times, and God may be bringing people against them, as he sometimes did in the past? I only had the concept that God loves his people, especially the Jews, the "apple of his eye". The old Testament was until John the Baptist, but is it still continuing for the Jews? I am not clear about this, but so far I can't find another reason for Gods attack on me, which took me by surprise, and then nine months of trying to find out why, but He won't tell me why. If this is it then I am very surprised.

Bear in mind that the muslim extremists are firing guns, rockets, and sending suicide bombers into Israel, because they refuse to recognise Israel's right to exist, and are determined to force all jews out of the promised land and take the land for allah. The qu'ran tells them to fight and kill until all is for allah, ie no other belief in the world. Also there are many other verses that are contrary to the Jewish and christian moral standards.

Regards, Ernie.

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