One
Sweet Day (Third in three Heroes fics)
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SPOILER WARNING: Big time for "Heroes" (ep9)
~ Sorry I never told you, all I wanted to say
~ And now it's too late to hold you
~ 'Cause you've flown away, so far away
~ Never had I imagined living without your smile
~
Darling, I never showed you
~ Assumed you'd always be there
~ I took your presence for granted, but I always cared
~ And I miss the love we shared
~ And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
~ Like so many friends we've lost along the way
~ And I know eventually we'll be together
~ Together, one sweet day
~ Although the sun will never shine the same
~ I'll always look to a brighter day
~ Oh, I know when I lay me down to sleep
~ You will always listen as I pray
~
~
Mariah Carey, "One Sweet Day" ~
Allan Francis Doyle, dont you DARE be thinking what I
think youre thinking! Dont you DARE leave me
now
weve just found each other! You *CANT*
You dont
have to prove youre a hero
. I know you are
I
know
youre an amazing, special, kind caring guy
Im
sorry
I was such a bitch!! If you do this Ill never forgive
myself!
Oh, God, Angel
Not you, too! Im surrounded by heroes
and to think I thought chivalry was dead!
"Angel, its suicide!" I protest
Why dont I
say
Doyle too? Cus if this is what he feels he has
to
do
as much as it hurts me, I wont stop him
We
all
have to follow our hearts
and as the man I love
speaks to our friend I *KNOW*
deep in my heart an
ache begins that I dont think will ever stop.
"Fight the good fight? You never know what youre made
of until youre tested
?"
I close my eyes tightly to stop the tears from
flowing
I know I will cry, but Im damned if Ill
let
tears rob me of my last seconds seeing him. I heard
the punch and the dull thud as Angel hits the deck. I
*WOULD* be sympathetic to the vampire
. Really I
would, if I wasnt trying not to fall apart
Trying to
let him see Im strong, and though I need him, I
understand.
Doyle looks at me, a wealth of unexpressed passion in
his eyes
passion and his apology for leaving me. His
hand snakes into my hair and our lips meet in an
earth-shattering, heart-wrenching
goodbye-and-I-love-you kiss
I dont want to let him
go.. God! Its so unfair! Oh God, Doyle. Its not enough
time!!
He looks at me, seeing into my soul.. seeing all the
things Ive never said and have run out of time to
say. His eyes mirror my own.
"Too bad we never found out
" He starts in the
soft
brogue Ive come to love
Never found out what? Never
found out how good we could have been together? Never
found out what just holding each other would be like?
Never found out how wed fit together?
He morphs his face into demon-form. It startles me a
little, but honestly - its not that horrible
He
doesnt repulse or frighten me
and despite their
current redness I can still see the love in his eyes.
It breaks my heart.
"
if this was a face you could learn to love."
LEARN to love? Doyle, I DO love you! I let my eyes
communicate that last piece of information, holding
his gaze until he turns away
I bite my lip hard as I watch him struggle with the
cables, feeling his agony as if it were my own
My
stomach churns as I smell his flesh burning and I
start to sob uncontrollably. I can hardly bear to
look! For an instant, his scream changes to a yell of
victory and even before the flash I know hes done it
My hero saved us all at the cost of his own life.
Hes gone.. But I PROMISE you, Allan Francis Doyle - I
love you and ILL NEVER FORGET! Ill NEVER forget!
Ill never forget
..
~ Sorry I never told you, all I wanted to say ~
Prophesy's
Diary