Jeva After the Intervention
Josh: I need to know if what Annie said is true. Were you in love with me when you married Buzz?
Reva: Ya know I really don't have time for this. I don't know where Buzz is and he left the Diner while Eleni and I were packing and...
Josh: Yes or no? Were you in love with me when you married Buzz?
Reva: Yes! Yes, I was!
Josh: I wanna tell you something, you picked a hell of a time to start telling the truth, assuming this is the truth.
Reva: Well I didn't have any other choices.
Josh: Reva, there are always other choices. Usually the truth is the first choice and the best choice but it never is with you.
Reva: I had already caused you so much pain and I saw how happy you were with Annie and I didn't want to mess that up.
Josh: What about Cross Creek?
Reva: Oh no, don't...
Josh: No, Reva come on, please. What about Cross Creek? You got me to admit feelings at Cross Creek that were buried deep down inside me. So deep that I didn't even think they were still there. I told you that I still loved you. And that I would always love you.
Reva: It was wrong for me to push you like that.
Josh: And you told me that we had a love that would never die. That always meant always.
Reva: I know what I said but it doesn't mean that it was right.
Josh: Reva, the night after I kissed you at Cross Creek, when I left you there, I came back here to Annie to tell her that I couldn't marry her because I loved you. I was ready to break her heart. But I didn't do that because you broke mine instead. You stopped me. You told me that Cross Creek was a lie. You told me that you were getting back at me for going on with my life without you.
Reva: It killed me to do that but Marah and Shayne were so upset about losing Annie that I...
Josh: Reva, haven't we learned the cost of living lies?
Reva: I did it for you, Bud, for you and the kids.
Josh: I should have been a part of that decision.
Reva: Oh how did I know what was gonna happen? All I know is that my kids were unhappy. They were miserable and I had to do something, I had to do anything I could to make that stop!
Josh: Reva, there had to be another way, a better way...
Reva: Oh well then you tell me! You tell me what I should have done! You put yourself in my shoes and you tell me what you would have done! If you had to make the choice between your children's happiness and your own, what would you have done? Just tell me the truth Bud, what do you think? What would you have done?---My happiness or hers. It was a difficult decision until I looked into the eyes of our daughter and I saw fear where the used to be love. And I knew then what I had to do.
Josh: Reva, we could have worked things through with Marah.
Reva: There were no guarantees.
Josh: You didn't give us enough credit.
Reva: Marah was scared. She was so afraid of losing Annie and so was Shayne. Annie was the only mother Shayne had ever really known. How could we have been happy together if our kids had been miserable?
Josh: Reva, they're our children. We should have decided together.
Reva: You were happy with Annie until I came back, Joshua. You were a real family. The kind of family we would have been if... It took you so long to get over me but you had. You and the kids had finally moved on with your lives.
Josh: It's not as simple as that.
Reva: I know what I saw.
Josh: What you saw was me doing what I thought I had to do for our children. Reva, when I lost you I didn't know if I wanted to live or die. I didn't know if I wanted to go on with my life. In fact, I even thought about going back to that bridge to join you...
Reva: No, Joshua...
Josh: I thought I'd be better off dead with you than alive without you. And then one day I looked into the faces of our children and ya know what I saw? I saw you. And I knew that I had to hang on for them, but I didn't think I could. And then Annie came into my life and she helped me to hang on. She found the key to whatever it was that had died inside of me when I lost you. And I loved her for that. And she was good with our children, I loved her for that, too.
Reva: Then how can you fault me for what I did? You chose your children's happiness over your own same as I did.
Josh: Did Buzz know what you were doing?
Reva: Yes.
Josh: Uh huh. And he agreed to it?
Reva: Yes.
Josh: And why is that do you think? I mean what was in it for him?
Reva: You're confusing Buzz with Alan.
Josh: No, come on Reva. A man doesn't get married because there's nothing good on TV. He must have had a good reason for saying I do.
Reva: Family means everything to Buzz. He'd been without his own for so long. He fought like hell to get them back. So he understood about my decision to put my children's happiness over my own. And he understood that there had to be something drastic to convince you that I didn't love you. And so we tied the knot and it worked because you went straight back to Annie and the kids.
Josh: No I think Buzz did a whole lot more than just understand. I think he loved you. But you didn't love him back. So he figured that if he married you, that over the course of time you would come to love him, too.
Reva: You know you sound like you're accusing him of something awful.
Josh: I just wanna know if his gamble paid off, Reva. Have you fallen in love with Buzz Cooper?
Reva: Buzz is the most wonderful man I know and we've been through alot together, Buzz and me. And that has to count for something.
Josh: You've not answered my question. Have you fallen in love with Buzz Cooper?
Reva: You mean has he won my heart? Yes, he has. He's made his own share of mistakes so he accepts me for who I am and what I am. And he doesn't try to judge me like some people do. We take life as it comes, it's not a history lesson with everything that happens. Sort of the opposite of always.
Josh: I see.
Reva: Do you Joshua?
Josh: Unless you're leaving something out.
Reva: You've moved on. And we're getting nowhere fast and...
Josh: And what?
Reva: And you have a wife. A wife that you love in spite of everything. You married Annie because you loved her. I know that because you're that kind of man.
Josh: You're right. I love my wife. And I hate it that she's going through hell right now. I hate it that it's because of this, because of us.
Reva: I know.
Josh: And everyone's telling me to stay away from her right now. That I shoudn't go to her and help her. But that's exactly what I want to do. I want to find her. Or at the very least I want to be with my children but instead I'm standing here with you...wondering...
Reva: Wondering what?
Josh: Oh boy...You told me that you loved me when you married Buzz.
Reva: Yes. I said that.
Josh: The question I have now is... do you still love me?
Reva: When I drove off that bridge, you moved heaven and earth to find me. You followed every lead, every hunch, every hope for five long years. How could I not love you for that? And you'll always be a piece of who I am. But life goes on.
Josh: I understand.
Reva: There's just all that history, ya know? All that messy, mucked up history and sometimes it gets in the way of life or whatever you want to call it. I mean how can you possibly go on with your life when I keep stumbling through it like the town drunk? I'm sorry I didn't mean that.
Josh: No, Reva. that's okay. We never mean to hurt each other really, not deep down inside but somehow we always do.
Reva: Always. I've just made such a mess of everything, ya know? I've hurt you and the kids and Annie. And I was wrong to even let you come in here so please just go now. Just go and don't look back. What are you waiting for? Please, just go!
Josh: Reva...
Reva: Look, I know you're made at me and I don't blame you for being mad at me but please just go.
Josh: Reva, stop! I don't hate you. Sometimes I wish I did hate you. It would make things a whole lot easier.
Reva: But easy was never for us, Joshua.
Josh: I just mean that if I hated you I could just go back to the people that I've hurt and try to clean up this mess we've both made.
Reva: You make it sound like...
Josh: Like what?
Reva: Like you care about me as much as...
Josh: As much as what?
Reva: I don't hate you either, Joshua.
Josh: That's okay. You don't have to say it.
Reva: I never said...
Josh: I know.
Reva: Tell me. Just say it, Bud.
Josh: Reva...Reva...(Buzz calls and leaves a message on the answering machine) He loves you alot, you know that.
Reva: Yes.
Josh: He's waiting for you to call him back.
Reva: Yes.
Josh: I'll tell ya something, I remember what that feels like, waiting for you. Wondering where you are and what you doing and who you're with. And all the time wishing that you could be with me instead. Hoping and praying that nothing bad has happened to you.
Reva: Nothing bad has happened.
Josh: I think you should give him a call and tell him that.
Reva: Don't tell me how to handle my marriage. I'm sorry.
Josh: I'm not telling you how to handle your marriage...
Reva: I shouldn't have said that. I guess we're both pretty fast on the trigger.
Josh: Too fast.
Reva: And we're always doomed to getting mad at one another instead of..
Josh: I better go.
Reva: Bud, you still haven't my question, not all of it anyway.
Josh: What else is there to say, Reva?
Reva: Does not hating me mean that you love me? Answer me Joshua. Do you still love me?
Josh: We both have responsibilities, Reva. I heard Buzz's voice on that machine. He loves you and you love him. He's your husband.
Reva: And you have a wife. And she loves you. And she's sick. And I know that you're not the kind of man that would just walk out on her when she needs you so much.
Josh: Yes. And I love her.
Reva: When I lied to you, Joshua, and I married Buzz, I thought I was doing the right thing. I guess I ruined all our chances for a happy ending.
Josh: Nobody's near an ending yet, Reva.
Reva: I know but are we just stuckhere? I mean can we ever get past this very moment?
Josh: I don't know. Can we?
Reva: I've just made so many wrong moves.
Josh: Well, I'll tell ya what, I've made a lot of wrong moves, too. I mean my best hope right now is that I don't do anything else wrong.
Reva: But you always try to do the right thing, don't you Bud?
Josh: You know what? You say that to me alot. And you always try to do the right thing, too. My wife is an addict. And I'm hoping that she will admit that soon and get help. And if she does, her rehabilitation is gonna an awfully long time, there's alot of work to do. And if she needs me to be there for her, I have to be there for her.
Reva: And Marah and Shayne have been through so much already. It's really not fair to put them through anymore. We can't put them through that again.
Josh: They shouldn't have to suffer for our mistakes.
Reva: I agree.
Josh: Excuse me? We actually agreed on something, did you see that?
Reva: How about that?
Josh: Maybe if we practice, we'll get used to it. I mean I don't wanna tell you how to run your life or anything.
Reva: You're just telling it like it is. You always do and that's what really bugs me about you.
Josh: Well, the last thing I wanna do is bug you.
Reva: I don't wanna bug you either. And I don't wanna hurt you. And I'm just glad you finally realize that when I came back here even in my own bulloxed up way, I was only trying to do things the right way.
Josh: I know that now. I think I better go.
Italian Cafe
Reva: You sound like you belong here.
Josh: Yeah. Well I guess in some ways I do.
Reva: So did Mama. She used to write me about this place. This time of night was her favorite time.
Josh: Yes it was. In fact, she used to go out every night to watch the moon set. She used to say she'd watch until it became like a silver ribbon wrapped around the entire world.
Reva: She found her place I guess.
Josh: Yes she did. It wasn't like that when she first moved here, but she did.
Reva: Tell me.
Josh: She came here because I needed her. It was about a year after I lost you, after I watched your car go off that bridge. In fact, if it weren't for Sarah I don't know that I really would have made it. I was pretty messed up then, ya know? I could barely put one foot in front the other much less take care of our children.
Reva: And Mama helped you?
Josh: Yes she did, everyday. She looked after me until I was able to look after myself.
Reva: You never told me.
Josh: Every once in a while we would have your dad look after the kids and Sarah and I, we would walk along these streets here. Until we practically dropped sometimes. Checkin' out people, following people, looking at their faces. I'd go chasing after blondes. I almost got arrested once. I was crazy then thinking that I might find you.
Reva: You never told me any of this.
Josh: When did we have the chance? Anyway, the sun would come up every morning and go down every night and we would hope against hope that we would find you somehow. And then we would go home. Sarah would cry herself to sleep. She didn't think anybody could hear her but I could hear her. And then when I was sure she was asleep and the kids were asleep, I'd let myself cry too.
Reva: I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for my parents, I'm sorry for the kids. But most of all, I'm sorry for you, Bud.
Josh: I made it. We all did.
Reva: What do you mean by that? What do you mean 'we made it?'
Josh: We're here.
Reva: I guess. And the kids are okay.
Josh: Yeah, Marah had a couple of rough times...
Reva: Shayne did too.
Josh: He's a great kid.
Reva: He's the best. And Annie's feeling better too.
Josh: Yeah, and Buzz is right there with you. You're a good wife, Reva.
Reva: And you're...you're a good husband.
Josh: I guess we're just a couple of terrific people then.
Josh: Sarah prayed for you to come back and her prayers were answered.
Reva: What about you, Bud? Were your prayers answered?
Josh: You came back.
Cross Creek '96
(Josh is looking at the heart carved into the mantle)
Reva: I know. I 've been looking at it, too.
Josh: This place belongs to us, Reva. It always has.
Reva: Don't...
Josh: Just listen to me, okay? I thought I could hold in the way I feel. I thought I could handle it but I can't. The more I try to deny it, the more I try to ignore it, the stronger it gets. I don't just wanna feel you here inside of me, I wanna feel you in my arms. I don't just wanna carry you in my heart, I wanna carry you to our bed. I love you, Reva. I wanna be with you.
Reva: I feel like I'm drowning.
Josh: Then hold onto me. It's okay, it's alright. It's the truth washing over us. The truth that I could never love another woman as much as I love you. Reva you are so much more than my soulmate. You are my heaven and earth and beyond. You are my eternity. And I cannot, I will not lose you again. I love you. I always have. I always will. And that's never gonna change. I love you. Tell me you love me.
Reva: It's funny isn't it? The two of us here together at Cross Creek?
Josh: We were drawn here, we couldn't fight it.
Reva: I've loved you since I was a little girl. And I've loved you ever since. I married you. We made two precious children together. So much has happened. I was so sure that I had lost you.
Josh: Six years ago when I thought I had lost you, I didn't think I was gonna make it. And if it weren't for Marah and Shayne, I wouldn't.
Reva: I'm so glad you did.
Josh: What does that mean? Right now, right this minute. What does that mean?
Reva: It means....I love you....with my whole heart and soul, I love you.
Lizzie's Party
Reva: Oh, excuse me. I just came to get sodas for the kids. I didn't know you were gonna be here.
Josh: Reva, please. Don't walk away from me now.
Reva: Shayne gets hyper when he drinks soda, but I figure it's the holidays, why not? Marah likes orange soda...
Josh: Don't shut me down, Reva. I know I handled things badly at Cross Creek. I know it seems like an impossible situation...
Reva: Seems like?
Josh: But we have to talk.
Reva: I can't. I can't talk about this.. (Frank comes in to get soda, then leaves) What am I supposed to say Joshua? I mean there's nothing to say. Annie's done all the talking for both of us. She's pregnant and there's no middle ground. And I can't talk about this. It just hurts too much.
Josh: So we're just supposed to forget about what happened at Cross Creek? Are we supposed to forget about how close we came to getting back together? Can you forget that, Reva? (Marah and Shayne interrupt)
Later...
Josh: I can't take it anymore, Reva.
Reva: What are you doing?
Josh: Don't push me away.
Reva: There's nothing left to say.
Josh: Don't do this to me, Reva. Don't do this to us. (They hug)
Reva: (pulling away) We can't do this, Joshua.
Josh: Don't go, Reva, not yet...
Reva: No, no. This is not the time or the place.
Josh: Why did you run out on me at Cross Creek?
Reva: Because your wife showed up. Your pregnant wife. It's finished Joshua, you know it is.
Josh: I won't accept that.
Reva: Well, you have to. And I have to go back in.
Josh: Reva, we have not come this far just to lose each other again. I want you back. And I know that you want me.
Reva: It won't work this time, Joshua. It can't.
Josh: Reva, we can make it work. We've beaten the odds before.
Reva: Annie wasn't here before. She's carrying your child, Joshua. Marah and Shayne need some consistency in their lives. They're just now starting to settle down.
Josh: I understand the obstacles. We've been through that before but that's not what this is about. I love you. And I know that you love me.
Reva: Don't Joshua. Buzz could walk in.
Josh: Just let me finish okay? You and I have been through more rough spots than most people can even imagine. And you know why as well as I do, we belong together. We always have. We are connected so strong. We are so inextricably connected that nothing and no one can take that away from us. You asking me not to love you is like asking the wind not to blow or the snow not to fall. It just can't happen. We can't change the way we feel and I don't wanna change the way I feel. And I know you don't want to.
Reva: It just...it won't work this time....
Josh: It will work. It will work. It will be painful as hell but we'll make it work. We'll make it happen. We can handle anything that comes along. We can do it... (Annie interrupts)
Jeva on the roof of Cedars
Josh: You've gotta stop running away from me, Reva.
Reva: Then leave me alone.
Josh: I can't do that.
Reva: You promised me you would.
Josh: I lied.
Reva: Don't be flip with me, Bud. Not when it comes to this.
Josh: Well, why don't we talk about this. Why don't you tell me what this is because I'm not sure what it is.
Reva: I already told you. It's over, Joshua. Just go home to Annie. Go back to the life you would have had if I had never come back to Springfield.
Josh: You know I can't do that.
Reva: You have to.
Josh: I love you. I always have and I always will.
Reva: You have to stop.
Josh: You know you keep saying that. Come on, Reva why don't you just tell me what's going on because I'm not buying what you're selling. I know you love me every bit as much as I love you.
Reva: Yeah, well that's just that Lewis arrogance talking.
Josh: No, no, no. Don't do that. Don't try to push my buttons because it's not gonna work. I'm not gonna wrap myself around a telephone pole this time. You can say whatever you want, I'm not gonna stop loving you. You can walk out of my life, but it's not gonna make me stay with Annie. My heart, my happiness, my future is the same as my past. It's you. It always has been and it always will be.
***Jeva Kiss***
Reva: That wasn't fair.
Josh: You gonna tell me that you didn't want to do that as much as I did? Can you tell my why anything is more important than you and me right here, right now?
Reva: Please just leave me alone.
Josh: You want me to leave you alone, I can do that. Okay? In fact I'll make you a deal. I'll stay away when you can tell me why you never wanna feel me this close to you again. Okay? I'll stay away when you can tell me why you never wanna feel my lips on your mouth again. Or why you never want me to kiss away your tears again. Or why you never wanna hear me say "I love you" again. I'll stay away when you convince me that there's no reason to keep coming back. But I gotta tell ya something....I don't think you're that good of a liar.
Reva: Go home, Joshua. Annie needs you.
Josh: Sending me home to my wife doesn't answer my questions. So I'll just keep coming back until you do, okay?
***Jeva kiss***
Josh Believes Reva
Josh: I was just with Annie. She’s very upset.
Reva: I don’t wanna hear it. (she tries to get away from him)
Josh: Well you know what, Reva? You’re gonna have to listen.
Reva: Let go!
Josh: No! I have to talk to you right now.
Reva: Don’t! I don’t wanna hear how upset Annie is or how much she’s suffering because this is her fault.
(They start talking at the same time)
Josh: There is no proof of any of the allegations you’ve made against her.
Reva: Don’t! Just do me a favor and get the hell out of here!
Josh: But in spite of that, in spite of reason and in spite of logic, I believe you!!
Reva: You do?
Josh: And not just because I love you, which I do very much. There’s much more than that.
Reva: What? Why are you so sure of me?
Josh: Because I know you. Better than I know myself. I know your heart and I know your soul.
Reva: Oh, Bud…thank you. When? When were you so sure that Annie was lying?
Josh: She was all over the mat with me on this thing. She came up with an explanation for everyhthing that’s happened since I asked for that divorce.
Reva: I know!
Josh: And a lot of it seemed plausible. I mean a lot of it seemed to fit but just a little bit too neatly. And I’m lookin’ at her and suddenly it hit me. I think, this is the woman I married. This is the woman that my children call mommy and I know don’t know her. I don’t know this woman. So much of what she said seemed to make sense but it was too calculated. Do I sound crazy?
Reva: Not to me. But I’m not the one you should be asking. I’m nuts! What?
Josh: Will you forgive me for doubting you at all?
Reva: Oh…Joshua… ~Jeva kiss~
Josh: I love you so much. It really is always with us isn’t it?
Reva: I know that now.
Josh: I really had to be with you. To touch you and to hold you and to just make contact with you. I promise you everything’s gonna be okay.
Reva: We’re together now and nothing’s gonna change that. Nothing can hurt us.
~Knock at the door~
Frank: Reva, can I come in?
Reva: Frank, hi. Of course, please come in.
Josh: Hi Frank.
Frank: Josh.
Reva: Well I guess you have some more questions about the incident with Annie. Either that or you wanna return my tape recorder.
Frank: No Reva, there are no more questions. I’m very sorry.
Reva: About what?
Frank: I’m here to arrest you.
Josh: For what?
Frank: She’s being charged with the attempted murder of Annie Lewis and with the murder of her unborn child.
Frank: Reva, do you understand these rights as I’ve read them to you? Reva? Do you understand your rights?
Reva: I understand them but you can’t arrest me, Frank, because I didn’t do anything.
Frank: Reva, I’m sorry but that’s up to a jury.
Josh: Come on, Frank. You gotta be kidding me here. You know that Reva would never do anything to hurt anyone especially an unborn child. There’s gotta be some mistake here.
Frank: The DA’s office thinks they have enough evidence to charge Reva with the crime. Reva, you have to believe me, I’m not enjoying this.
Reva: The don’t do it, Frank, because it’s wrong. It’s completely wrong. Annie threw herself down those stairs. I did not push her.
Frank: Reva, if there was any way around it, I would do it but there’s not. Levy was slated to make the arrest and I just thought it would help you out if I came and it was somebody that you knew better.
Reva: She did it. She did it. Annie’s getting away with murder and she’s framing me for it. She said she was gonna find a way to get me out of your life for good and she found a way to make it happen.
Josh: Reva, we’re gonna get through this. We haven’t come this far to be kept apart now.
Reva: I’m being charged with the murder of an unborn child. There’s no jury in this world that’s not gonna throw me in jail for the rest of my life.
Josh: It’s not gonna come to that.
Reva: You and me. My kids and my family, I can’t lose you all. I won’t.
Josh: If we stay strong we’ll make it.
Reva: Do you really believe that?
Josh: I’d stake my life on it.
Reva: I love you.
Josh: I love you.
~As Frank takes her to the station…~
Reva: You’ll come see me when you can, right?
Josh: I’m coming with you right now. You’re not going anywhere without me Reva. Let’s go.
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