Part Two of the Forgiven Series
By Ariel
Author's Note: This is the second part in the Forgiven series written by me. For those of you who don't know, this story is set after the events of "Amends", and takes a few liberties with the characters I'm not particularly fond of. Any comments, criticisms, or requests please send to The lyrics are from "Building a Mystery" by Sarah McLachlan, from her album 'Surfacing', and "Weak" by Skunk 'N Anasie. Building a Mystery made me think of Spike the moment I heard it.
Disclaimer: I would probably sell something, my soul, my aura, whatever the hell I have to own Angel and Spike for one night. But I don't own any of them, so I'm stuck deeply coveting Joss. If he would just name the price...
Thanks to Duchess reading for me, and for liking it. Thanks to Ike for reading it and constantly reminding me of the failures in my personality.
And thank *you* for reading it at all.
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"Then, window, let day in and let life out."
William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet
Buffy stood outside of the mansion, staring in the darkened windows. Behind her the sky no longer had it's deep velvet black, but was swept with a grey pallor. Just a few hours until the dawn.
Something was very wrong. While at Giles' Buffy had remembered something Spike had said. At the time it had seemed small, but now she swore at her own stupidity for not noticing it sooner.
He said "Enjoy another night dreaming WITH Angel." There's only ever been one time I dreamt with him. In the same dream. And that was when the First was haunting him. But how did *Spike* know? What does he know? And where the hell is Angel?
Buffy beat on Angel's door again, before giving up and breaking the lock with a swift turn of her wrist. The inside was pitch black.
"C'mon book boy, where are you?" Buffy was growing increasingly worried. A noise behind her made her turn around, instantly on her guard.
"Angel?"
A ringing laugh answered her question.
Shit. Oh God, please, no. Buffy's stomach constricted and she strained to see in the dark.
"Hello..." Angel lit a candle on the desk, and dragged something with him into the light, his arm wrapped around the waist.
"Lover." Angel threw a limp body at Buffy's feet. It landed heavily and rolled slightly, allowing Buffy to see the face. Bite marks on the neck allowed no doubt the fate of the body.
Buffy couldn't breathe.
No.
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And you won't give up the search
For the ghosts in the halls
Spike pulled up outside a dark warehouse in a bad part of LA. Loud, sensual music could be heard issuing from the open doorway of the building, and a particularly large vamp slouched against the doorframe, his ugly face staring blankly into the night. Spike slammed shut the door of his car, stalking towards the entrance. He removed his fag from his mouth and viciously growled out the 'bouncer'. His game face came to the fore all too readily, and the larger vamp stepped back, surprised, acknowledging Spike's superiority. Spike swished past, his long duster swinging out behind him.
Once inside the building he stopped, momentarily surprised. The whole warehouse had been gutted and replaced with lavish furnishings. The ceiling, about fifteen feet up, was painted a deep midnight blue, and seemed to fade up out of reach of the low lighting. It was almost indiscernible from the black of the walls and black stained wooden floors. The west wall was covered in huge mirrors with swirling art nouveau frames in dark pewter, which reflected back the mirrors on the other wall, making the place seem to stretch in an endless line of ever decreasing hallways. The lighting was minimal, gothic candleholders illuminating un-mirrored parts of the walls. About half of the forms dancing sensually to the music reflected in the glass, making it obvious who in the room was human.
Spike was shocked at this obvious display of confidence. *A whole building full of vamps, with mirrors on the walls? God, this is my kind of place. *
Pulling his mind back to the pressing business, Spike scanned the room and noticed that several rooms lead off of the back wall, separated from the main dance floor by heavy cloth curtains. He strode purposefully across the hall and ignored the looks he got; some appreciative and some pissed off. As he neared the wall, he searched with his mind, senses trying to detect Drusilla in an inexplicable way.
Somewhere between hearing and smell, he knew that the left-hand doorway was the one for him. He pushed through the curtain. Entering the darkened room was like entering another world, music much softer and slower than the grinding beat of the one outside. 'Weak' by Skunk 'n Anasie was playing. In the near blackness, Spike allowed his vampire sense to scan the room, easily finding Drusilla in the corner, curled around a chair with one of her dolls. He walked over to her, wondering why she was sitting alone. Flickering purple candles rested on surfaces, and a bed could be seen in a dimly lit corner.
"Princess?" Spike knelt down. "Dru, pet?"
Drusilla snapped her head up, insanity and joy looking back at him.
"Spike? My Spike. Miss Edith said you'd come back. Back to your princess." Dru's eyes stared straight into Spikes and he caught an unneeded breath. She was so beautiful. But so mad. Spike guessed that the other vamps here had shunned her, from fear or contempt most likely. None of them looked like the type to take on a rabid vampire queen.
"Yes Luv. I only went away to find Angelus for you. To try and say sorry." Spike lied, knowing the risks, but also knowing Drusilla would be too eager to try and read his thoughts for now.
"My Daddy? Oh Spike, Princess forgives you. See Miss Edith, Spike does still love us. He brought me my Daddy."
"No, Dru... I found Angelus, but, well, he wasn't Angelus. He was back to being soulboy again." Spike watched Drusilla's face, knowing what was coming next. He ground his teeth that she should be so wrapped up in Angelus; that he should be so weak for her.
" But Miss Edith didn't tell me..." Drusilla looked into Spikes eyes then ran her hand over his short hair, digging fingers into his scalp. His eyes rolled back and closed, his body swaying slight as she saw his memories, read his thoughts.
"No! My Angel gone back to her!" The view of Angel and Buffy together flashed behind Spike's eyes, then he found himself sitting on his heels, having to lean heavily on his hands to find his balance as Drusilla released him. He staggered to his feet. *God I hate when she does that. *
Drusilla was vamped out; her mind still focused on the pictures of Angel and Buffy together. She hissed, then doubled over, falling from the chair onto the floor, curling into a ball.
"My daddy, My Angel..."
Suddenly her voice choked, and she keened, the sound of a wounded wolf. Dry rasps broke from her throat.
Spike stared at the groveling body of his lover, amazed. Various incoherent thoughts flew around his head. Never had he seen Dru cry. God, he'd never even seen her upset except when one of her damned pets died. I expected anger, but this? She turns into a bloody sniveling wreck when...
*She loved him. *
Spike's face contorted with rage. This thought was new to him. I figured lust, insanity or selfishness. But after two lifetimes together she loves a bastard demon who's been gone longer than she's been un-dead? She loved Angelus? A snarl escaped Spike's lips.
"Nobody left...All gone... nobody loves Dru. Does Spike love Dru?"
Suddenly she was rising, standing up with a killer's grace that never failed to obsess him. Her face was close to his, luring and sensual, and he blocked the sheet of anger for now. Damn her. Damn her to hell. She ran one of her flitting hands down his chest and he watched as if from outside his body as her tongue touched her lips. Need flooded his body, pulling him back from the frozen moment of time in which he had realized...He needed her to want him. Him, not Angelus. Could he never win against that sick fuck? Dru's other hand touched his cheek, gentle, evil. She stared through him again, trying to read his feelings. Irritation rippled his face. *This will never do*
He leant forward and kissed her. All his hatred and anger came out in that kiss; came flowing out in the guise of passion. In the background the music mimicked his thoughts, mocking him.
Spike growled into the kiss, anger becoming carnal in his mind. She was *his*. If she wanted that fucker Angelus, he'd just have to show everyone who was really the master. His demon banned all logic, and Dru's movements drove him on.
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No.
"Mom!" Buffy fell to her knees, a hand wiping the forehead of Joyce's grey face, her other one going around the shoulders to lift her up, cradling her head in Buffy's lap.
"Mom?" Buffy choked. Tears obscured her vision, as of yet her senses reeling into blissful denial, shock hiding the truth for now. She stared at her mothers' face, her eyes were closed and she seemed to be sleeping. Buffy could only stare. A sudden blinding sweeping pain, the tip of the iceberg, swept through her small form and sobs ripped from her chest. She buried her face in her mother's hair, her grief spreading through her mind.
*She's...He killed my mother. I can't... Giles. *
"Shhh..."
She looked up, dazed, the light liquid from her tears, running so freely now: her fight, her soul. Bleeding down her face. Angel stared back at her, on his knees in front of her. Her mind could not comprehend for now, he was who she loved. He hadn't...Her mind choked.
He leaned forward and licked the tears from her face, growling softly. The face of the man she loved. The face of an Angel.
"I think I've done it. Welcome to hell, my slayer. You see what you put your dear old lover through?"
"Angel...why...what...How could you...Oh God. I loved you." She stared at him, helpless in her grief, still hugging her mother's body to her, looking up into the face of her killer.
A smile was forming on that face.
"Let me show you, lover. Let me show you how I did it."
He kissed her. Tongue invading her mouth, confusing her, a few seconds when she was willing before she came back to reality. A painful reality where her mothers' killer was roughly pushing her to the floor over Joyce's now cold body.
"NO!"
She struggled, blind, despair sweeping through her. Thrusting up she tried to push him off of her, but he pinned her, flattened her outside the pool of light created by the candle. Helpless, she still fought feebly, but she was dying inside. All her will to live ebbed away, her mind focused randomly on the strangest things. What would Giles say? She had taken him back: it was her fault. Mom, I'm sorry. She felt Angel bend to her neck, heard the fangs enter the skin. Nothing left to live for. Couldn't take the pain. Give in to the darkness. Pretend.... It never happened.... It didn't have to now.... Angel?
Senses faded to black.
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Angelus was bent over Buffy's unconscious form, his fangs about to draw the last blood from her veins.
Suddenly a crossbow bolt hit him in the side, causing him to jerk upright, feral eyes widened in shock.
"Get off of her." Giles stood in the door way, his eyes almost as feral as the vampires'. A loaded crossbow was in one hand, stakes were shoved into his belt and a large cross was in the other.
"Why, hello Rupert. I should have guessed you would show up. Can't do anything in this town without an audience."
Angelus stood up, and pulled the crossbow bolt out of his side with a grunt.
"Move away from Buffy."
Angelus laughed, and held his ground.
"What's wrong Ripper? You're worried about losing the other woman in your life?"
Giles jaw clenched, hatred radiating from him. He advanced on Angelus, holding the cross up and to his face, the crossbow in his other hand. He was still too far away to be sure...
Angelus started to pace around Buffy's body, circling with Giles. The erratic flickering of the candle brought his face in and out of the darkness.
"Looks like you're too late again, Watcher. But you get to see this one die..."
Giles loosed a bolt, hitting Angelus squarely in the kneecap. The bolt went all the way through. Angelus fell to his knees with a growl of pain, incapacitated for the moment.
Giles ran forward and lifted Buffy, dropping the crossbow in the process, but still clutching the cross. He lifted her, carrying her out of the mansion in a burst of speed. A roar sounded from behind him. He slammed the door behind him with his foot, and made it a few feet away before collapsing to his knees. He put Buffy down on the gravel drive, panting, safe in the advancing sunlight.
He laid her body down carefully, and placed an ear to her mouth to check for breathing. It was so faint, so incredibly shallow, he thought he might be imagining it.
Please Buffy. I can't loose you; you're all I have left. I can't loose you to him, not now...
He placed fingers on the opposite side of her neck form the bite, and her heartbeat was slow and erratic. Her life was ebbing away, Giles knew that in a few seconds she would die. Unless.... Oh God, he couldn't think about that. The choice was so unbelievably painful. And not very possible. Oh Willow, please hurry.
Giles bent down and kissed Buffy's pallid forehead, and turned back to the mansion. It all depended on one thing. He would not let her die. No matter what happened, he could not lose her completely.
Swinging the door open, he saw Joyce's body for the first time, and Angel kneeling a few feet away. Oh God. Buffy. The monster had killed her mother.
The picture simply shocked him, not sinking in; his mind already fully occupied with saving Buffy.
Had it worked?
"Angel?" Giles' voice was hard, ready to do anything. He didn't care if it was the demon or the man: he would kill either.
Angel looked back up at him, his eyes full of tears. He just stared at Giles, misery plainly evident.
"Kill me. I can't...Oh God. I hurt her..."
"You did more than fucking hurt her you wanker." He spat. Giles grabbed Angel by the hair, dragging him to the doorway of the mansion, all the Ripper coming out. He would kill him.
Angel didn't resist, he let himself be pulled, but sobbed out, begging:
"I can't.... What did I do? Where's Buffy?"
Giles dropped Angel at the doorway, realizing that he could not take him out in the sunlight and reach Buffy in time without him burning. She lay on the gravel driveway, her blonde hair glowing in the sun, a deep contrast to her white face. Her head was turned away, neck arched so the bite marks were painfully exposed. Angel choked, his form shaking violently as he cried, his eyes fixed on the two red points that pierced Buffy's neck. Giles just stood momentarily, staring at the vampire a hate so violent it engulfed his body.
Suddenly Angel noticed Buffy's chest heave. Giles felt rather than saw it and immediately moved. This is it, he thought, she's dying.
He ran to her, leaving Angel lying in the doorway.
He was at her side, bending over her, tears flowing freely. He picked up her hand and brushed hair from her face. Staring at his slayer, he cried. Without her, he had no life. Jenny had taken with her the last of his love for this world; Buffy was his responsibility, his friend, his daughter. And now she too was leaving him. Giles sobbed.
"Giles?" Buffy croaked, her eyes still shut.
Giles thought he had imagined it, until he felt her move slightly.
"Buffy? Oh God, Buffy, I..." Giles sobbed again. She was alive. Her slayer healing... He gently slid his arms under her, determined to get her far away from here.
"Is she alive? Giles, please!" Angel shouted, pain rending his voice. He stood in the doorway, his hands unbearably hot, every muscle tensed, hanging on the silence that seemed to kill him.
"She's alive. If you come near us I'll kill you." Giles unconsciously echoed Buffy's words when she thought Angel had bitten her mother. He didn't turn around, just walked swiftly down the path, carrying the fragile slayer effortlessly.
Angel collapsed backwards into the doorway, driven blindly by his need to get away from the sun. Back into the darkness that held all the evil that he hated about himself, and the dead body of the mother of the girl he loved. The murdered mother. And he had killed her.
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