Chapter 2
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Chapter 2
What was that? Why was he acting like this? So many questions and absolutely
no answers, Rory’s mind raced as she ran all the way home. She dumped her stuff
onto the coffee table and crashed into the couch. She lay there for a long time,
just thinking, she knew she had to talk to him despite his chilly attitude, but
not right now, it would have to wait a day or so. She had to plan what she was
going to say, and take care of a few things first.
Dean was sitting on the Gilmore couch next to Rory, he was fuming, and
crying. “You kissed Jess?” he finally croaked out. He had just listened as Rory
told him about the events which had taken place at Sookie’s wedding. She nodded
at him shyly as they sat there for a few moments in an awkward silence. Rory
decided to break the tension by speaking again “Dean, I never meant for any of
this to happen, I would never hurt you on purpose, it just happened and I think
it was a result of building feelings. I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you about this
sooner, I just didn’t know how to. You were so good to me, and you deserved more
then this. I want you to know that I really did love you, and they have not yet
found a word to describe how sorry I am and how awful I feel for putting you
through all of this.” She said quietly, all the while looking at her hands,
which were twisting in discomfort on her knees. She was choking back tears, she
rubbed her eyes firmly, ‘No, I promised myself I wouldn’t cry, it will only make
this worse, it will only make me second guess myself’ she thought, and she
suppressed the stream of sobs that was threatening to come flowing out. “You did
love me,” Dean said quietly, “Did, meaning you don’t anymore?” he asked, tears
now free falling down his cheeks. Rory just looked at him and there was enough
in her gaze to tell him it was true, but he didn’t want to believe it, he
couldn’t lose her. He was about to speak but she beat him to it “I’m so sorry
Dean, I never wanted it to end this way.” It was all she could say without
bursting into tears. He nodded “So that’s it, it’s over, after all we have been
through, it’s just over?” he asked, she nodded, she couldn’t speak, it was to
hard. He stood up abruptly and walked out the front door.
As soon as the door was safely shut Rory let the tears come flowing out of
her eyes. She couldn’t even understand why she was crying, she knew she didn’t
love Dean, but maybe it was the finality that was now facing her that scared her
so much. The tears just kept coming as she walked into her room. She sat on her
bed for a few minutes to calm herself, and when she had finally dammed the river
she leaned over and picked up “Howl” form her bedside table. She flipped through
it, reading the notes that Jess had put in the margins for her for the hundredth
time. She didn’t even know why she bothered anymore, she could recite every word
he had put there for the thousands of times she had read them that summer. She
put the book down and looked at her bed, it was so inviting. It was only 7P.M.,
but suddenly she was more tired then she had ever been before.
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