lyrics.

"would you dance, if i asked you to dance"

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05.08.02
for me this is heaven

the first star I see may not be a star
I can't do a thing but wait
so let's wait for one more
and the time, such clumsy time
in deciding if it's time
I'm careful. but not sure how it goes
you can lose yourself in your courage
when the time we have now ends
and when the big hand goes around, again
can you still feel the butterflies?
can you still hear the last goodnight?
and the mindless comfort grows
when I'm alone with my 'great' plans
this is what she said gets her through it
'if I don't let myself be happy now,
then when? if not now when?'
I close my eyes and believe
that wherever you are, an angel for me

- JEW
- 'clarity'
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05.07.02
crush

faintest snow keep falling.
hands around your waist.
nameless, standing cold.
take in restraint like a breath.
my lungs are so numb
from holding back.
walk close to the fence
to feel it hit your clothes.
turn and smile nice.
smile say good night in a breath.
simple discourse breaks
you clean in half.
regret.
try it once and then you know.
it's your move,
settle for less again.

-jimmy eat world
'clarity'
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04.26.2002
cross my heart

Your acid rain falls
upon my heart's flower garden,
salting and poisoning its earth.
You call them tears,
I call them weapons,
and with my back turned your
knife felt like a blessing in disguise,
but I couldn't see into the future
to understand what this would mean.
I wish I had understood when she
lifted my head in her hands and said

"things you love will
always leave you hanging."

-under a dying sun
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04.18.2002
every stitch is a reminder

I can build my own frame.
I can mold my own life.
I can remember you once said
that life is just a game,
the more we try the less we learn.
But now I can finally
lay my hand and walk away.
Harsh words and blank stares
are like cracks in the cement
that cause me to stumble.
Just like all those
many things that they demanded,
its one more reason to scream at them.

I can build my own frame.
I can mold my own life.
I can remember.
It just a faint reminder
of all the things you said
and on the tip of tongue
is the reason that I left.

-under a dying sun
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04.10.02
3rd Wish

I I wish I could be alone
with you for one last time.
When I left I gave you back
My only symbol of our love
You promised me one thing
Please hold yourself to that
The things that I would say to you
Would spark the flame that once
burned so bright

-keepsake
'the things i would say'

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04.08.02
The Brilliant Dance

So this is odd,
the painful realization that has all gone wrong.
And nobody cares at all,
and nobody cares at all.

So you buried all your lover's clothes
and burned the letters lover wrote,
but it doesn't make it any better.
Does it make it any better?
And the plaster dented from your fist
in the hall where you had your first kiss
reminds you that the memories will fade.

So this is strange,
our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance
where nobody leads at all,
where nobody leads at all.

And the picture frames are facing down
and the ringing from this empty sound
is deafening and keeping you from sleep.
And breathing is a foreign task
and thinking's just too much to ask
and you're measuring your minutes by
a clock that's blinking eights.

This is incredible.
Starving, insatiable,
yes, this is love for the first time.
Well you'd like to think that you were inincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once
before we felt loss for the first time?
Well this is the last time.

-dashboard confessional
'the places you have come to fear the most'
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4.5.2002
it never snows in florida.

distance means nothing to me.
it only makes me want to see you longer.
my words just like a mentioned kiss
with every letter they are growing stronger.

days go by.
feelings, they go on.
unfortunately, without you
it will never snow in florida.
it's best to take your time
conversation cuts like glass.
i'm the calm before the storm.
i'm the second before the crash

i've been between myself for days.
i'm the hero of the year.

-new found glory
'nothing gold can stay'
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4.4.2002
Devotion

if you have a moment to spare for me
if you need a friend that I will be
if you need some company then call me
if you wanna see a bad movie
if you still believe you can trust me
if you need a hand to hold
there, look down by your knee
no matter what you’re going through
no matter what you did or said you’d do
no matter what it is, I will help you
if you make a call I will dial 9
if you’re short on bus fare I will drive
if you need a warmer coat here take mine
if you want I'll get down on my knees
& if you stay I'll get you your own key
if you need another dying wish then you can kill me
if you have a stain I'll shout it out
tell me all your fears & have no doubt
if you need some privacy I will get the hell out
if you’ve lost your watch I have the time
& when you have the time I've got the perfect crime
if you need a car to stall you can kill mine

-The Stereo
'three hundred'
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4.3.2002
not myself

Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
And there are times
I lose my worried mind

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
And words will go
From poetry to prose

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

And I, in time, will come around
I always do for you

Suppose I said
You're my saving grace?

-john mayer
'room for squares'
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4.2.2002
The Waiting Hurt

Waiting here watching VH1
Counting Crows is playing "Round Here"
And I'm not having fun
Because you're not here with me
three more years- six more days to go
until I see you again
and here I sit alone
one more time around
it's not time for me to go
let me wallow just this once
and drown my sorrows in this glass
So I try to get my mind off her
But it's not working tonight
I wait for her letters
And ream we're together
One more time
three more years- six more days to go
until I see you again
and here I sit along
one more time around
it's not time for me to go
let me wallow just this once
and drown my sorrows in this glass
I can't remember the last time
Because it's been a long time
since I've cried like this
Back long before we even met
Somehow i knew
The sound of your voice when you first said
Those words in the classroom
And when you harassed me i was glad
Because it was from you
Before I even knew

no motiv
-sadness prevails
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3.30.2002
satellite

Satellite in my eyes
Like a diamond in the sky
How I wonder.
Satellite strung from the moon
And the world your balloon
Peeping tom for the mother station
Winter's cold spring erases
And the calm away by the storm is chasing
Everything good needs replacing
Look up, look down all around, hey satellite

Satellite, headlines read
Someone's secrets you've seen
Eyes and ears have been
Satellite dish in my yard
Tell me more, tell me more
Who's the king of your satellite castle?

Winter's cold spring erases
And the calm away by the storm is chasing
Everything good needs replacing
Look up, look down all around, hey satellite
Rest high above the clouds no resrictions
Television we bounce 'round the world
And while I spend these hours
Five senses reeling,
I laugh about the weatherman's satellite eyes.

Satellite in my eyes
Like a diamond in the sky
How i wonder.
Satellite strung from the moon
And the world your balloon
Peeping tom for the mother station

Winter's cold spring erases
And the calm away by the storm is chasing
Everything good needs replacing
Look up, look down all around, hey satellite

Rest high above the clouds no restrictions
Television you bounce from the world
And while I spend these hours
Five senses reeling
I laugh about this world in my satellite eyes.

-dave matthews band
'under the table and dreaming'
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2.12.2002
your body is a wonderland

We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I've left to do
Discover me
Discovering you

One mile to every inch of
Your skin like porcelain
One pair of candy lips and
Your bubblegum tongue

And if you want love
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while

Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland

Something 'bout the way
your hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take
when crawling towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it

you want love?
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while

Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland

Dang baby
You frustrate me
I know you're mine
all mine all mine
But you look so good
it hurts sometimes

Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonderland

john mayor.
"Room For Sqaures"
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1.15.2002
fraying all the ends.

You are the last one
who can recognize his friends
and nothing ever changes.
You're always exchanging
peace of mind for everything.
You want everything.
You want it all.
I can see it in your eyes.
I can see right through you,
there's nothing to you.
You conjure lies
and you'll surround yourself with
everyone who says what you
need to feel all right
everyone who speaks the words
that make you perpetually contrived
they say what you want to hear
say what you want to hear
what you want to
why can't you be strong?

-midtown.
"save the world, lose the girl"
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12.28.2001
screaming infidelities.

I'm missing your bed, I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak
& this bottle of beast is taking me home.
I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
You're not alone & you're not discreet.
You make sure I know, who's taking you home.
I'm reading your note over again.
There is not a word that I comprehend,
except when you signed it
"I will love you always & forever"

As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs,
and sit alone and wonder...
how you're making out.
But as for me I wish that I was anywhere...
With anyone...
making out

I'm missing your laugh, how did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as your pretending.
I'm missing your bed, I never sleep.
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to sleep.
And this bottle of Beast is taking me home.

Your hair.
It's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities.
Taking it's wear.

-dashboard confessional.
can be found on:
"swiss army romance"
or
"the places you have come to fear the most"
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12.27.2001
one season two late

He's in the back of your mind
all of the time
learn to forget
love. leave. forget.
And when I sit alone
I think of what you said
better off just friends
I'm better off just dead
And the hardest thing I do
is wake up without you
when everything falls apart
the emptiness leaves a mark

-keepsake.
'the things i would say'
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12.20.2001
emo.

One more time you will laugh about it
And he'll never try to give you more
And I don't care, he is such a ----
Treats you like you are a stupid w----

And it seems like things will never change
You go on, every cloud is in your way
And I know you feel empty all the time
You'll never listen to anything that I say

She's better off sleeping on the floor
'Cause she fell right off when all
Is said, you know
It's okay to just want more

Why leave when you claim it is love?
But why stay when you're not the only one?
She's proved she's strong
Be brave, be strong

She's better off sleeping on the floor
'Cause she fell right off when all
Is said, you know
It's okay to just want more

She's better off sleeping on the floor
She's better off sleeping on the floor
(Because she fell right off her bed)
She's better off sleeping on the floor
She's better off sleeping on the floor
(Because she fell right off her bed)
She's better off sleeping on the floor
She's better off sleeping on the floor
(Because she fell right off her bed)
She's better off sleeping on the floor
She's better off sleeping on the floor
(Because she fell right off her bed)

-blink 182
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12.11.2001
Standing on the Edge of Summer

In this room
I'm sitting by your side
It rains for hours and the phone is off its hook
Standing on the edge
Casting lots to set me up
Before you knock me down
Off the Summer's edge and drown me

We're betting on our own lives
Making up for all the time we lost.
In this house of cards
We're all holding hearts and spades
(one breath. one step could knock it all down)
But you lead with your eyes and you give it away
(design to cut from the clouds)
When the people you love get lost in the shuffle
You let it go and then you fold

So we stay on the open road
We drive for hours and still no end in sight at all
Driving in your car
Miss the stop sign
Fall in love
Just to get knocked down
Pull your punches and burn with your cigarettes
Pulled like a punch and burnt like a cigarette
Forever...

-thursday.
'full collaspe'
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12.7.2001
the negative space.

She feels it
He doesn't feel at all
She wants it.
He doesn't want enough
She dreams it.
He dreams in shades of blue
She holds on.
He lets go of all they know
He's living.
She's dying way too young

A girl so strong Broken one by one
day by day She runs away
from the ones who really love Love her!
A girl so strong Broken one by one
They say that home is where the heart aches
But in her case Home is where the heart
makes her the one we love
It's been so long since he's seen your face
An image that he can not replace
It's been so long since she's been gone
Her love's with us for ever long

She sees him.
He never sees a thing
He breathes it.
She's choking on her own heart
They said that he could never hurt her
In the end he was the one who
almost killed the one we love.

-keepsake.
'the end of sound'
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12.6.2001
for evangeline.

in one night you made me your own
the deepest embrace's creation
i layed there for days and you forgot
in one night you made me your own
in one hour you gave me away to the angels
you sent me up to the sky
now their wings fan the heat from the face
you'll never see the hair you'll never smell the little hands
you'll never hold now i am but a silhouette down there
a silhouette of a memory of a solitary night nothing more.

-juliana theory
'understand this is a dream'
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11.26.2001
stay.

You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.
And you say I only hear what I want to
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance
that you're running to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.
So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, well, this is not that;
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.
And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I miss you.
You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you
and one day I'll let you go.
"You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you
know you're just scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."
And you say I only hear what I want to.

-lisa loeb
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11.6.2001
such a person.

This isn't about you or the life she's lead through you.
Just every passing day leaves me wondering what is really true.
Expecting to find you sleeping soundly.
Through and through sadness comes misplaced
and ends are means by which to uncover truth.
Happiness will come when you are with the one
who can take you to places you never were, but always knew.
I'm coming for the ride and you say it's too safe inside.
You cannot realize it's taking time i'm taking it in stride.
I'm sure it's safer inside,
you just can't realize
but you're such a person. Wake up every morning,
every morning with her name in your head.

You can survive but you say i'm not half what I wish I was.
So much back then there is no end and no room for pretend feeling.
Only this I cannot fathom it,
there's no escape from uncertain fate.
There is no excuse, why did this happen to you?
Can our lives be made up from what's been left in time?
You're feeling time crushing at the spine
and you're tired and i'm tired we're so tired.
Yeah you're tired inside.
You just can't realize what's wrong or what it's like to be something on
you've come a long way and I know everything feels gone.
Will you see this through or will you say it's through?
Everything seems so gone to you.

-midtown.
'save the world, lose the girl'
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11.5.2001
CONSTELLATION

some things can never be explained
why every sky still looks the same
and i wonder how my world would look without you
some things can never be explained
like how our scars remain the same
and i wonder how the sky would look without my star
sleep seems a dream away and a year too late
words that can't be spoken stream off my face
i want't to be selfish you are my everything

some things can never be explained
why does your love remain unchanged
cause i know it wouldn't be the same without you
sleep seems a dream away and a year too late
words that can't be spoken stream off your face
please don't forget my name
and take me with you when you leave
i've got a lot to lose i've got to let it go
please don't forget my name.

-juliana theory.
'understand this is a dream'
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11.2.2001
Hear You Me

there's no one in town i know
you gave us someplace to go
i never said thank you for that
thought i might get one more chance

what would you think of me now?
so lucky
so strong
so proud
never said thank you for that now i'll never have a chance

if you were with me tonight
i'd sing to you just one more time
a song for a heart so big god wouldn't let it live

may angels lead you in
hear you me my friends
on sleepless roads the sleepless go
may angels lead you in

-jimmy eat world.
'bleed american'
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11.1.2001
Saints and Sailors

This is where I say I've had enough
and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound,
a trophy display of bruises
and I don't believe that I'm getting any better.

Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring
and I'm thinking awful things
and I'm pretty sure that few would notice.
And this apartment is starving for an argument.
Anything at all to break the silence.

Wandering this house like I've never wanted out
and this is about as social as I get now.
And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you
'cause they would never do,
I would never do.

Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring
and I'm thinking awful things
and I'm retty sure that few would notice.
And this apartment is starving for an argument.
Anything at all to break the silence.

So don't be a liar
don't say that "everything's working" when everything's broken.
And you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor
and your eyes say the jokes on me.

-dashboard confessional
'the places you have come to fear the most'