In the End

When all is said and done,
You're not here
Like you said you would be.

When all is said and done,
I don't need you
Like I thought I would need.

When all is said and done,
I'm hurting still,
though I'm healing.
I'm growing still,
like you taught me.
I'm missing still,
but not how you want me to.
I'm loving still,
Loving more, loving greater.

When all is said and done,
You're simply fading
I can hardly remember who.

When all is said and done,
You weren't the one
I thought I knew.

When all is said and done
I'm better off without you.

Something Like Independence

See me run,
See me fall
See me stumble
See me crawl.

Will you give me your hand?
I can't be alone;
I want to hold on.

Will you jerk it away?
How can I say
I'm not so trusting?

Will you help me to fly?
I've tried and I've tried
But I just can't do it
Alone.

How can I say
I need you?

Serene Endeavors

Your love confounds me,
surrounds me,
wraps me in its tender arms.

I bask in the warmth of
your blazing smile,
your engaging eyes,
your secure embrace.

Your voice reaches me
when the world has forsaken me,
and the comfort of your touch
is enough
to quell my fears.

I feel my soul conform,
in utter harmony-
a woven fiber,
clinging to your heart
as two become one,
and I become happy.

Drifting in the perfect calm
of your perfect love,
feeling your perfect self
caring perfectly
for all my imperfections.

I am in constant admiration;
everything you are
is everything I want,
and now, somehow, everything I have.

Your love confounds me,
surrounds me~
Please don't let go.

Something

Here in the heart
we’ve learned each other.
We’ve learned the hopes and the fears
Loved the joys and the tears.

Hold my hand- whisper
There’s nothing- to fear for.

Something happens-
when you smile.
Something happens-
when you laugh.
Something happens-
when I touch you and whenever I dance in your arms.

Feeling this way
only for you.
Only closer each day, seems
Closer to a dream.

Two of us- stronger
Conquer all- together.

Something happens-
when you smile.
Something happens-
when you laugh.
Something happens-
when I touch you and whenever I dance in your arms.

Here today in the light
light of you living for me.
The light guiding night
Finding calm serenity.

You and I
lying side by side.
In silence needing no words
Knowing you’ll never leave.

Never knew- you’re better
Newer now- than ever.

Something happens-
when you smile.
Something happens-
when you laugh.
Something happens-
when I touch you and whenever I dance in your arms.

Something happens-
when you smile.
Something happens-
when you laugh.
Something happens-
when I touch you and whenever I dance in your arms.

Icarus

The colors, they all morphed
together into oblivion
as we sat in the glow
of the comfort
of each other.

Do you see, see the way?
The way they fly,
fly far, far away?
Sometime you and I
should soar to the sea,
dip into the waves,
fly close to the sun.

But flying too close
would make your wings burn
and melt into wax
Like the colors
of the swirl
of the glow
around us.

I don't mean to extinguish your fire
But you know best of all,
That I can't fly
That Close.

Something or Nothing; It's All the Same

"Do you want a jelly bean?"
He stretched his hand out to me--
stretched like the goo of the jelly of the bean.
Always offering to me something.
But I want nothing.
Nothing like the space of asleep but not dreaming.
Like the still of a frozen winter night.
Is the hollow of a heart not feeling.
But I want nothing, giving nothing in return.
He gives still,
something for nothing.
Because still I love not.

Child

We sat in the dark,
she and I.
And she asked me,
"Are you sure
nothing's wrong
in the world that we live?"
And no I'm not sure.
But it's going to be alright,
gonna be alright,
Anyway.

Eve

Leaving all glory she awakes to the world
Light-blinding breath of cold air in the world
Miniature hands she waves to the world
A tiny squeak she sings to the world
As she cries.
And you hold your babe in your arms.

Falling off bikes and knees skinned-up
Bruised emotions and dreams shaken up
Tears dribbling down as you wipe them up
Hugging your leg with hands reached up
As she cries.
And you hold your babe in your arms.

Falling in love and she's filled with fear
A broken heart comes to you in fear
Packing bags to move though in fear
Then steps out to the world, hiding her fear
But she cries.
And you hold your babe in your arms.

Now she herself with love in her heart
Lying in bed with fast-beating heart
And a tiny squeak reaches your heart
As she holds her babe close to her heart
And she cries.
And you hold your babe in your arms.

But No Escape

She sang beyond the genius of the sea.
Its waves masquerading as her tears,
Its low rumble hiding her cries,
Its ferocity overtaking her meekness.
A prisoner of the world
of her silence
of its violence
Breaking free.
Her breath slips
slides
floats
glides
Into oblivion.
And her song---is silenced still.

Now All Grown Up

Leaves fall; 6 years old.
Twirling, dancing; a ballet.
Seasons end, time fades.