Nothing
That is what my life is
I'm trapped in a sea of despair
What I most desire is just out of my reach
I am a lot more than what people think
My cheerful exterior is just a mask
To hide the pain of faiure, dissapointment
And ugliness, which is my life
I am alone, unloved by even my closest friends
Only you have been there
Stayed by my side through
The hardships, the trials of my torture
While the years pass by, the people
I once knew change; I change
The ones who need to change wallow in themselves
Destructive and uncaring
They are the ones who whisper and laugh
Because I am not them
I am myself
And it frigthens them
So alone and unloved
I continue my souless journey
Called life, torture, pain despair
Eagerly awaiting death