I'm sorry, i've abused my power
but i had to, just to know there was something
that i could abuse that wouldn't dissapprove
Or abuse me back
And GOD isn't it fun to bleed
especially when each drop
falls like a rose petal on snow
yes, that's my skin
and i don't appreciate you ripping it up like that
but you have every right to my flesh
so take, rape,cut,burn,piss on it
for all I care
I'm just pretending to be strong
and oh it hurts when you do
but for the sake of your loving me
(or was i just imagining?)
I will keep this bravado
even though i want to be soft
but then again
all the things i want myself to be
could fill my room, and there it would be
instead of me, there would be all those things...
Beauty, kindness, grace, personality
understanding, compassion, forgiveness,
strength, (did i mention beauty?),
and of all things good study habits,
plus some grades that were closer to
the beginning of the alphabet...
there would be technique and skill
and knowledge of everything in the world
and everything you wanted
oh if i was everything I wanted, everything i wasn't
would you want me?
