A Midnight Thought: Ranma 
By: Kimagure Angel

Standard Disclaimers Apply…In other words, I don't own the characters.


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Akane, can't you see how much I love you? You should know by now that
I ain't no good at saying this kind of stuff. Hell, even if I tried,
someone would end up interrupting and take everything that I had said
the wrong way. (I know all too well, almost every time I've tried,
it's happened.) 

Have you ever thought about how much simpler your life would be if
me and Pops had never shown up? I know I have, several times. Look
at how many times you've been kidnapped or even almost killed because
of me. I never meant for you to be put in danger because of me. That's
not how it's supposed to be. 

In a way, I'm sorry our first wedding attempt didn't work out. I still
can't believe how stupid I was then. I can't believe that I actually
told you that I didn't love you then. Both of us know now that I was
only really lying to myself. I don't even know why I did that either.
I wish I did. 

You wouldn't believe how messed up I was when I thought you were dead
during the battle with Saffron.  I kept wondering how in the hell I
could loosed the most important person in my life when I had finally
just found them? I couldn't believe that it took everything that happened
in Jusendo for me to realize that you were the only person I really
loved. I was just about to tell you that I loved you, but stupid me,
I couldn't bring myself to do it. I couldn't set my stupid pride aside
for just one minute so I could tell you, the most important person
in my life, that I loved you. Even when the wedding was ruined by our
so-called friends, I couldn't tell you then either. Someone could have
gotten killed, hell, you could have gotten killed, but I still couldn't
bring myself to tell you. 

I'll probably beat myself up a lot with that fact for a long time to
come. I hope someday you'll forgive me for all the hurt I've caused
you over the years.  But right now, I'm just happy that I was finally
able to tell you how I really feel about you. How I've always felt.


You know, ever since you've agreed to become my wife, I've looked back
during the time I've spent here and can't help wondering what you ever
saw in me. Can't help wondering why you ever said yes to someone like
me? But, you know what? I'm glad you did. 

Now, with only a little more than a week before our wedding, I find
more and more things I love about you. Not just your beautiful smile,
and yes, even your jealousy (which I wouldn't change for the world),
but all the times you're around just being yourself (mallet and all).
Who knows if things will change once we're married, but one thing that
I know will never change is the fact that I will always love my Akane.


Aishiteru Akane.

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