Fragile as Glass
The Duel
The next day the cadets began
their fencing lessons. Fencing was, of course, not directly linked to a
soldier's life of combat in mobile suits. Therefore, it wasn't taken very
seriously. But His Excellency insisted the new cadets be trained in the art of
fencing, and his orders were always obeyed. They handled their new foils easily;
most had already taken a few lessons from fencing masters back at their family
estates before setting foot at Victoria Academy. All were dressed in the
standard whites, with mask in place. Their Instructor had not arrived yet, so
they took the rare liberty of doing as they wished.
Excited whispering filled the
large room and snaked up to the high ceiling. Noin glanced at it. She was
unfamiliar with architectural styles and decoration but a word flew out of the
depths of her mind, so deep inside she hadn't known it was there. Frescoed. This
was a frescoed ceiling. She blinked and stared harder. Where did that come from?
"Why are you staring at the
ceiling? Are you about to die of shock?"
Noin recognized the drawling
voice without turning around. Grey Sommers. He was from one of the richest
families on the Earth and his family name was so respected and widely known she
was sure he felt that fact alone would admit him to Heaven without further
examination.
"She probably has never
seen anything like it before, coming from the gutter as she did." said one
of Grey's 'friends' spitefully, recalling Noin's ragged clothes on Registration
Day.
Noin turned around slowly. Grey
and his hirelings stood behind her. Don't get upset, she told herself. They are
not worthy of your contempt. Don't get upset, don't get -
"Yeah," said another
one, "I heard her parents had to declare bankruptcy to send her here,
didn't they, Lucrezia?"
Noin's resolution not to get
upset fell faster than a shooting star. She stepped forward, drawing her foil
from the sheath at her side with such fluid ease it astonished the jeering
cadets watching. They didn't know - how could they? That she'd fenced with her
father on the rooftop. Their foils were old and slightly rusty, but they gleamed
like new under the milky moonlight, clashing as he showed her the feint, the
riposte, attack au fer, and many others.
She never questioned how he'd
gotten them in the first place; they'd always been there, like the constant
aching of her belly or the spidery cracks in the walls of their apartment. Her
grip was firm as she pressed the blade under the throat of the boy that just
spoke, just short of cutting off air.
"Don't you ever insult
my family again!" she breathed fiercely. "And don't call me 'Lucrezia'.
It's Noin."
Grey and his friends stood
stunned for a moment. Reginald, whose pulse beat wildly under the pressure of
Noin's foil, was round-eyed and short of breath. Noin had never spoken so many
words at once in the whole time that they knew her, or reacted to their insults.
So as not to appear cowardly, Grey drew his own foil. He wasn't from one of the
wealthiest, most powerful families on Earth for nothing. He'd had fencing
lessons since he was five.
"You'd better not hurt him,
'Noin,'" he said dangerously, speaking the last word in extreme sarcasm
"Or else."
Noin turned slightly and met his
eyes. Despite himself, sweat broke out on Grey's forehead from the effort of
holding her intense gaze. She lowered her foil and Reginald slumped in relief.
"Is that a challenge?"
she spoke very softly, voice belying the hard glitter in her eyes. Too many
times she'd been silent while they baited her, teased her, insulted her. She
raised her foil, knowing the button on its tip would render it useless in
actually wounding him -
"All right, everyone, line
up by this wall!" Instructor Velorn strode inside, clipboard in hand to
take attendance. The cadets scrambled into place, Noin discreetly re-sheathing
her foil. "Nitta...Noin...good..." His eyes scanned the row of cadets,
occasionally barking at a student to straighten up. "Merquise? Where's
Zechs Merquise?" the cadets stared straight ahead, not even blinking. He
sighed. Of course no one knew. Velorn felt rather sorry for his top student. He
didn't seem to get on well with the other cadets.
Just then the door opened and
Zechs stepped inside. He saluted to Velorn smartly and said
"Forgive my tardiness, Sir.
It won't happen again."
"It certainly won't. One
more tardy, Zechs Merquise, and I'll have to give you a demerit."
Instructor Velorn indicated the line with his pen. Zechs took his place next to
Noin. "You may choose your partners for today, cadets. You've all been
doing very well, and I commend you. Reginald, come here. Watch me closely,
everyone."
He whipped out his foil and then
proceeded to show them the correct way to hold it, and a few of the basic
positions with Reginald as an opponent, traditionally presenting his foil. They
began the exercise, with moves such as attack, counter-attack, lunge, cross, and
parry. Reginald, who was still feeling pressure of Noin's foil at his throat,
was less than a decent fencing partner.
After his brief instruction was
over, Velorn ordered them to pair up and practice the moves he showed them. All
the cadets chose their partners and began the exercise; all, that is, but Zechs
and Noin. They stood by the wall, uncertain of what to do.
"What's this?" he
barked. Both of them started. "Start practicing! That's an order!" The
two cadets saluted him and presented their blades, vaguely surprised he was
making them fight each other.
Zechs was stronger, but Noin was
faster. Their foils flashed in the brightly lit practice chamber. Most of the
cadets were carrying on avid conversations as they fenced, but this pair was
silent. Zechs couldn't think of anything to say, and Noin, still smarting from
the comment Reginald made, wasn't aware of their unnatural silence. Soon both of
them were sweating, cheeks flushed, but still they fenced, unaware that they
weren't doing to basic moves Velorn showed the class, unaware of the sudden
silence around them as the other cadets stopped their efforts and watched.
Noin executed a stop thrust,
extending arm and foil to their full length. Zechs was momentarily caught off
balance in his haste to get out of harm's way, and with an ease that comes to
most people only after years of fencing, Noin disarmed him with a flick of her
wrist. His foil clattered loudly on the polished wooden floor.
They stood there panting, and
suddenly realized the silence in the room. They looked up and saw everyone
staring, the cadets with mingled expressions. Some were awed, some admired, some
were even frankly jealous. Even Instructor Velorn was at a loss for what to say.
Zechs stood, his hand still
feeling the reverberations of Noin's foil against his. I was defeated, he
thought wryly, and truth be told, with some surprise. At least it was Noin.
Noin took off her mask and wiped
her face. I did it, she realized, I beat Zechs. Strangely though, she didn't
have any sense of triumph or accomplishment. She felt empty. Her right hand hung
limply at her side, foil touching her leg. It was cold.
Instructor Velorn gathered his
wits and settled them about his startled expression like the ceremonial cape he
wore on special occasions.
"You two obviously don't
need lessons from me," he said to them warmly. "I see that there is
little more that I can teach you." He glanced at the clock to his left.
"And our time is up. That will be all for today, cadets. You are
excused."
The cadets left, a few glancing
back at Zechs and Noin, and all of them talking.
"They must've had lessons
before they came here."
"But Noin couldn't
have ever held a foil before today!"
"How did she do it?"
Noin heard them. She didn't know
how she did it, she just did it. It was natural. How could it not be, after all
those late nights on the roof? Father beat her easily every time though; she
didn't notice that her own skills were that advanced until she crossed swords
with Zechs. She bent down and handed picked up Zechs's foil. He was very still,
looking at her. When she straightened up she saw that he wasn't really looking
at her; rather, he was staring through her, seeing something only he could see.
"Here." She held out
his foil, hilt first.
"Hmm?" Zechs was
startled out of his reverie. He took the foil from her confusedly. "Oh,
thank you. And Noin...I --"
"You two were
magnificent!" called Instructor Velorn from the doorway. "I need to
see both of you tomorrow morning before mess, understood?"
"Sir!" both of the
saluted and exited.
He was remembering that duel
he'd had with Pargan.
The voice was silenced as he
protested aloud into the stuffy darkness of his room.
"But I'm not going to lead
the Peacecraft monarchy! I will destroy my enemies, and free the Cinq
Kingdom..." Even though no one else was there he flushed with embarrassment
at how ridiculous that sounded. He could no more free the Cinq Kingdom than he
could testify in court with his mask on. And if, even if he somehow pulled it
off, fooled everyone for years who he really was and became a famous and feared
soldier, how could he take such a personal stance in freeing the Cinq Kingdom
from under the thumb of the Alliance? If he did so, who would rule? He might
resign and rule, but that would mean revealing his identity to all, and no one
would accept a former soldier with bloodstained hands as the leader of a nation
with pacifist ideals. But if he was to free the Cinq Kingdom, the only way would
be becoming a soldier and rising above his enemies!
He pounded the wall in
frustration. It wasn't too late yet; he could leave the Lake Victoria
Academy...but how could he live the rest of his life with the Cinq Kingdom so
close...yet so far away? How could he live with the memories? Relena, taking her
first wobbly steps...Father slumped over the polished surface of the table in
the meeting room...his entire country blackened and bloodied by the evil taint
of power-hungry villains?
Noin sat on the edge of her bed
and pulled the foil into her lap. It was very plain, with the slender blade as
sharp and business-like as the instructors that trained her. She thought very
hard about the events of the past fencing session. How did she know the ceiling
was frescoed? It was so unlike her well-disciplined mind to come up with a word
out of nowhere like that. She reached further, looking deep inside herself. And
came up with...nothing. Vexed with her own ignorance, Noin turned to other
thoughts.
I heard they had to declare
bankruptcy to send her here, didn't they, Lucrezia? At this her fists
clenched involuntarily, fingernails biting into the mattress. She took a few
deep breaths to steady herself. They've been at you like that for months, she
told herself. Then why? Why did you get so upset? Because he called you
Lucrezia. When was the last time anyone called you by your first name? Father
called you Lucrezia when he teased you.
Yes, it did. A sour smile
flitted briefly across her face when she remembered how silly he'd looked when
she pressed her sword under his throat, gooseberry eyes bulging like a frog's.
Father was an excellent teacher, she thought, tears blurring her vision slightly
as she remembered his kind, deep voice and gentle touch.
I fenced for him, in his memory.
It was like he was holding me up, whispering that I could be faster and
stronger. Better. I could almost feel his presence...
Noin remembered that part of her
cheering in triumph as Zechs's sword fell to the floor. She'd met his eyes right
then, and shocked was to see their expression. It wasn't anger, or shame; being
defeated by a girl would be the height of embarrassment to the other cadets, she
knew. It was something she couldn't quite put her finger on... Bitterness?
Surprise? Vexation? Something of all three were there, but they couldn't have
what shocked her. She'd seen them often enough in the eyes of others.