Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wing or the song "I want you to want me."
Warnings: Yaoi...It's sort of a song fic. Some self pity…That's it I think.
Notes: This fic is going to be written from Duo's point of view."//.....//"=Lyrics
Rated PG-13 or R for nudity...a little bit of cursing...
~Fic Start~
"ug..." I groaned and rolled over, smacking the alarm clock on my bedside table. Time to go to work...I glanced over at Heero's bed, expecting him not to be there, he always woke up earlier than I did to leave the apartment to go to the Preventers office. But strangely enough, I saw his messy mop of hair peeking out from under his pillow. The poor guy must have gotten fed up with getting up so early. I didn't want to wake him, so I stood and watched him sleep until he suddenly threw the pillow off the bed and blinked up at me.
"What time is it?" He gasped. I think he realized that he must be majorly late if I was getting ready for work. I worked at the junkyard with my friend Hilde, and I leave an hour and a half later than he always does.
"It's 10 o'clock." I smiled at his slightly angry expression. It was funny how so few could tell when he was angry or just plain annoyed...I was proud I could tell right off.
"Damn, I'm late."
"Oh well, here. I'll make you breakfast while you get ready." I didn't give him time to object as I ran into the kitchen. After a few minutes, we were eating slightly burned scrambled eggs at the kitchen table. He didn't really seem to care that my cooking wasn't up to par though, even though occasionally he'd stop me from cooking by telling me he'd cook something. I smiled, which got me a weird look from Heero.
"What are you smiling about?"
"Nothing nothing..." I waved my hand dismissivley at him. "I was just remembering all those times you ask me not to cook, and when I insist you threaten me with bodily harm."
"Sorry," he almost smiled. The only time I had ever seen him smile was when he was doing something malicious. It was sort of nice thinking that I could get some heartless soldier to almost smile. Soon after we ate he sped off on his motorcycle. As I watched him ride away, I wondered if he felt the same love and admiration for me that I felt for him. It was weird, he was the only guy I felt love for...usually I'm a real ladies' man.
I sighed, Why am I such an idiot? I mean, how could he possibly like me the same way I like him, when he's in love with that Relena chick? I got into my truck and headed down to the junkyard, I decided to blast my radio the whole way down there though. I had asked Hilde if I could borrow some of her CDs and she gave me one she said that she would never listen to anymore because the songs were so old. Popping it in to see exactly how out of style the songs were, the first track sort of mesmerized me.
//I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm begging you to beg me//
The chick on my radio sang and sang. It turns out that the song happened to be one of those that gets stuck in you head all day. And so it did, I sang it as I fixed the engine to an old limousine and the oil spurted all over me. I got a little angry when it got in my hair though. Fortunately this was near the end of the day, so I went home a little early to take a shower.
When I got back to the apartment, Heero was already home since he gets home before I do and makes dinner just so I don't do it. But he wasn't in the kitchen, so I went to our bedroom. Pushing the door open a little I peeked in, I was sure he heard me do it, but he didn't say anything to me, he just buried his face in his pillow and sighed. Now that I think of it, he did seem a little depressed lately. Maybe Relena found someone she liked better? Or maybe he had a bad day at work... I decided to leave him alone for a while. I'm pretty sure he doesn't want a 'baka,' as he so delicately put it, asking him about his problems.
I grabbed my towel and went into the bathroom but something he did attracted my attention. He looked up from his pillow and wiped at his face, still not noticing me. Had he been crying? Why the hell..or maybe I should ask what the hell could make the soldier cry? If he caught me watching him, he'd surely shoot me, so I got into the shower, but I left the door open so he could have access to the bathroom if he wanted.
Sometimes this was a bad move on my part because he would flush the toilet without even using it just to hear me get all mad and yell at him when the hot water burned me. Jerk. Sometimes I would try to start up a conversation with him when I was in the shower and he was brushing his teeth. Usually he would tell me to shut up and just take my shower though. Lost in my thoughts, I didn't even hear him come in so I started to softly sing that song I was listening to this morning.
"I want you to want me, I need you to need me, I'd love you to love me, I'm begging you to beg me." I heard a small noise from where the sink was but I was concentrating on how lovely me singing was and on how much the song reminded me of Heero and I. " I want you to want me, I need you to need me, I'd love you to love me...I'd shine up my old brown shoes, I'd put on a brand new shirt, I'd get home early from work if you'd say that you love me."
"Really?" Heero said softly from his place sitting on the counter. I opened the shower curtain and peeked out at him.
"Hey Heero, when did you come in?" I asked nervously, choosing not to acknowledge what he had said.
"A minute ago..." He looked at me, his eyes softer than usual. I was confused. He smiled. Then I was shocked because it wasn't a malicious smile. "I suppose you saw me crying too, right?"
I smiled at him. "You know the song Heero? I'm surprised." He nodded.
"It's a good song."
"Heero?" I looked into his dark blue eyes. "What did you mean when you asked 'Really'?"
Heero looked a little sheepish, and I could swear I saw a faint blush creeping over his cheeks. I must have been mistaken. "Well," he started, "Duo..." No way he was going to say what I had been hoping he would someday say to me. "Duo, I like you."
"Ha," I laughed, a little disappointed. "thanks Heero. I knew that eventually you would want to be my friend."
"No." He took my wet hand in his strong callused one. "That’s not what I meant." I looked at him questioningly. "Duo, I've liked you more than a friend since you broke me out of that hospital after you shot me. Seeing your face on that TV screen brought me a feeling of hope. I didn't want to believe it then because I didn't want to feel anything for anyone, so I tried to hate you. That's why I stole your Gundam Parts and acted so cold towards you for all that time."
I cringed remembering how pissed I was when he dismembered Deathscythe. But then he squeezed my hand and I registered everything else he had said. "Heero...does this mean you--"
"Yes." He cut me off. "I love you." He looked kind of hurt when I stared at him saying nothing for a while. I grabbed his other hand and pulled him into the shower with me and laughed.
"I love you too Heero." And then I kissed him.
"Really?" He looked at me, his eyes wide and then I could really tell he was blushing because apparently he had realized I was naked and he couldn't get away. I don't really think he wanted to.
"Oh Heero, I never lie," I said pushing him against the wall of the shower and kissing him again. "Wait a minute.."
"What? What's the matter?"
"What about Relena?"
"What do you mean?"
"Aren't you two--"
"No!"
I jumped back, surprised that he yelled it. "But you're always..."
"I'm sorry Duo, didn't mean to yell..I know I'm always protecting her...blah blah blah..I'm just really sick of everyone assuming that I'm in love with her. I protect her for the sake of peace."
"Oh..."He pulled me closer to him and I rested my head on his shoulder as he held me. "Heero?"
"Yeah?" His warm breath against my ear made me shiver.
"Why were you crying anyway?"
"You saw me?" He backed up a step to look at my face and I felt fingers gently running through my soaking wet hair.
"Yup. Now please tell me why."
"It was because I was thinking that if I didn't tell you, you would give up on being my friend and if I did tell you, you wouldn't want to be my friend because of how I felt."
It was my turn to hold him now. "So that's why you've been so depressed lately." I worked at getting his jeans and tank top off. "You should have told me sooner, It would have saved us both a lot of misery. And it's really hard to take a shower while fully clothed don't you think Heero?" He nodded and let me undress him...I turned away from him to try and hide the fact that the sight of him naked was turning me on. That was difficult though, because he pulled me back around to kiss me and I discovered that he was also excited by all this. "Heero.." I murmured. He just smiled again.
"Sorry Duo."
"No no no...don't be sorry.." I turned of the water and we dried ourselves off. I then smiled at him slyly. "Hey Heero...do you want to push our beds together tonight?" I winked.
~Fin~
Well, that was different. Give me a break, it was my first try at a first person fic...and if Heero seemed a little out of character, forgive me. Also, if you thought you were going to lose somebody you were deeply in love wit, wouldn't you cry too? I know I would, but that's just me I guess...*shrug*
