"Gone Away" By: Wink192 I'm watching him walk down the aisle. I never thought I'd be right here, right now. He's wearing a tux and everything. He looks so cute with her... I shouldn't have waited so long. I put it off and put it off, now it's too late. I want to be annihilated. I was devastated when one month ago, a young man named Taichi Kamiya, whom I'd known since he was a boy, showed up at my door step. "Do you wanna be the best man at my wedding?" I thought about the question. My automatic reaction was, "Who's the lucky girl?". He hesitated. "Well... it's Sora." Oh my God, kill me now. "This can't be happening!" I thought. But it did. Here I am. I'm at his wedding. Sora Kamiya. I shudder at the thought. I hate her. I just knew this would happen. Her crush on him was so obvious, I definately should have prevented it. But I still think it's all my fault. I shouldn't be mad at her, I'm the one to blame. I had heaven in front of me, and now I'm screwed. How could I be so dumb? "Well... what do you say? Do you wanna be the best man?" he asks. "I... I can't." I studder. I couldn't live through that. No way. "How come?" he questions in a pouty, little kid face. He looks like he's five years old. "I've... got a meeting to go to... and an appointment. They're right after eachother and they're REALLY important! I could lose my job, you know." I lied. "Well, I thought you were gonna dump that job and focus on your band. You just got a record deal, remember?" How could I forget. Such a great opportunity comes up and a week later, the love of my life is getting married. "Sorry, Taichi." I think I'll let you down. And I still show up. He hasn't seen me, I hope he doesn't. It's so embarassing. I feel like a criminal or a creep or something like that. I just sneak in after telling the groom I'm at a meeting. But I can't miss this. I should though. I should have forgotten all about it. I mean, it could be too much, I could go into shock or something like that. You see that all the time in movies and on TV. People get all choked up at weddings. Imagine if your absolute soulmate was marrying some cheap skank next door. It hurts to be here. The minister is saying all that junk as they just stand there all happy and in love. Well, they look in love. Sora at least. Taichi looks nervous. Like he's got to pee or something. I want to just grab him and take him away to some place where no one knows where to find us. Somewhere secret. Somewhere away from everything. I wish that place existed. I'm thinking of a song, a meaningful song. Hmmm... starts out with a single guitar chord reapeated several times, then a pause right into bass lines and drums. It goes on into lyrics... Not only is it dark outside, now it rains, now it rains But you see someone walk outside in the pain, in the pain Why do you talk to me Why is life so long? I had so much before Where has it gone? And it feels And it feels And it feels so wrong And it feels And it feels And it feels like you're already gone Like you've gone away... Stay tucked away from all reality, in your time, in your time Am I the same or am I different, out of line, out of line Am I alike or Am I unique Why do we hurt And why do we bleed Cuz it feels And it feels And it feels so wrong And it feels And it feels And it feels like you're already gone Can I reach to the sky Can your words make me cry I'll predict the future Will I live or will I die? Could I carry you that high? But strength will only get you so far I will sleep through the day and let care flow away And awake to painful memories and they take the night away from me And it feels And it feels And it feels so wrong And it feels And it feels And it feels like you're already gone And it feels And it feels And it feels so wrong And it feels And it feels And it feels like you're already gone Gone away, gone away, gone away, gone away... I exhale. He just said "I do". Why? Does he understand that he'll be with her for almost the rest of his life? That every morning, he won't find someone that truly cares for him standing there telling him to wake up so they can get a cup of coffee by the beach, only a note left by a horny red-head wearing a wedding ring saying she went to the mall with Mimi or whoever. Is this what he wants or does he just not realize the mistake he's making? The mind of Taichi Kamiya is one hell of a blur. I hear it loud and clear. The question that would change my life. If I wrote "The Matrix", I'd change it a little bit. It's the question that drives us... "Does anyone object to these two getting married? Speak now, or forever hold your peace."* "Here we go. The question is asked. Thus begins my eternal period of holding my fucking peace..." I thought. I thought wrong. "Yes!" I stand up and shout. Taichi turns around and looks like I just woke him up. It's now or never. "Taichi Kamiya, I love you!" Congratulations audience, I just fucked up your world. Mimi turns and stares at me. Her eyes are wide with shock. Koushiro looks surprised. Jyou looks like he's been kissed for the first time. Hikari and my brother gaze at me with disbelief. And Sora..... Sora has been torn to shreds. The birds stop singing. People stop what they're doing. The rivers stop flowing. The wind stops blowing. The snow stops falling. The clouds stop moving. And Sora Takenouchi's heart stops beating. In about 2 weeks, I will have a wedding ring on my finger. I'll be living in an apartment in America about a week later. That same week, a Japanese girl with auburn hair will call me and tell me how much she hates me. About 3 months later, I will have a hit album called "Split Second" and tour with my new spouse. A year later, I'll leave the band and settle down for life in the fabled New York City. I will not be forgotten, because of the hit single that will be stuck in peoples heads for years called "Gone Away". Oh, I forgot to mention... I have a lover named Taichi Ishida. * note: That's not the exact words, but they say something like that!