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DON'T CRY




All I'm gonna say is that it involves Zechs and Noin, and that this was my first songfic, as well as first time writing as either of them. Its okay, but I don't know. I wrote my main comments at the end of the fic. Tell me what you think.

Little Trowa-san


You'll Be In My Heart: By Phil Collins
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[note: In the beginning its kind of sketchy, I know, and also when Noin dreams I use ~'s. Then the dream becomes a reality, and so I ended the ~ ]

[Look at <>'s as thoughts of the characters. Anything between those is what goes on in the character's head, and is not dialog. Everything between the borders of *'s is song lyrics. ]

[I don't own anything. This is just simply an act of entertainment put together with a song I also don't own. Please don't sue me, it'd be a waste of your precious time. Arigato ^_^ ]


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She laid her head down on the dusty pillow one last time. She felt foolish. She felt worthless. She felt horrible. Images of Epyon flashed through her mind, and then the explosion. It was big, it was way too big. Why did she have to be so close...so close to Peacemillion?

She rolled over, her back touching the hard and cold metal bed. She pressed herself onto it fully, and looked up at the crumbling ceiling. She wondered, where he was now. Why he was there, and a million jumbled thoughts of what he was thinking. Tossing and turning she found it most impossible to ever close her eyes.

Why, why had she done all of this? Why couldn't she look back on that time as something good, and not something painful? But it kept appearing back in her memory.

A light flashed through the room and paraded patterns and stripes across the single navy sheet, laid across her chest. 1A dream. A simple dream. But I'll never see it...never... I can't even wish to dream it.

~A shadow crossed over her head, one reminding her, one that terrorized her time and time before. The eyes cast an eerie shadow upon her chest, and she backed herself in the wall. Scared. So scared.~

The shadow grabbed her up to its face, easily and quickly, and she winced in the pain, forcing her eyes open. This wasn't a dream. The reality poured through her slowly, catching her unaware.

It tore at her shirt, revealing herself to it, and thrust off the rest of her clothes, throwing them somewhere behind. Fear welled up inside the woman, always known for strength and endurance. She thrashed at him more, hitting him as hard as she could, and when she reached for her gun, instead she felt her naked body left bare. And then the rough hands were upon her, touching her, feeling her, and her face was in pain. The tears rolled down her cheeks as the stranger touched her, and the whole time as she kicked her bones ached, and her body rejected his touches.

She had always felt her first time would be wonderful, be something to remember, and be glorious... and now it was all being shattered in front of her face. A bit of blood smeared onto her slender fingers as she pulled her hand away from her side, where strong and painful arms held her down. She whimpered a bit, softly at first, letting her aching body fight back as much as she could let it. The weight pushing down on her was immense, and she could feel her wrist break as he hit it back into the cold and hard ground again.

And then he was inside of her, her body, her soul... this wasn't supposed to be happening to her, not her... not someone as strong and willful... not like this! She was mad, and frustrated, and the emotional and physical feelings welling up inside her body hurt, it wasn't anything of how she dreamed it, not at all. Then that pain turned into raw tears. Tears that fell past her in pitifulness, and tears that proved her suffering. Even after the massive stranger got up and was away, she lay bare, her body shaking and facing the ceiling and her eyes pooled out around her, not even a small sob reaching one. She cried like there was tomorrow... and it didn't help. There wasn't such a thing as a good cry. She closed her eyes tightly, the tears still falling and held herself, but nothing helped, the salty liquid dripped into the corner of her mouth as she sat up, her body bruised, bleeding and shaking. This wasn't supposed to happen... this wasn't.. She kept repeating it to herself as if that would help it go away.

She imagined him. What he was doing. If he was falling asleep at one of his ever long meetings or if he were in flight, fighting with no regrets on the air battlefield, she saw him so often occupying. She tried to smile, thinking of what he was doing at hand, but even that gesture hurt, and her sides began to ache, bringing harder sobs out of her, her tears bleeding down her face.

She cried all night, creeping back on the hard cot, not even for a moment wondering, or wanting to wonder who the man was... She lay still, barely stirring, and as the sun rose quietly. A midst the darkness of the room, her eyes were closed, and tears ran freely, overlapping old traces, and pooling around her cot pillow.


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-- Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight --
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The warm cupping of a smooth hand slipping around her trembling chin woke her to a small jump. Her body ached so much, that the jump was very small. Then the blue of eyes reassured her and she felt her head aching even more than ever. For him to see me like this...

The gentleness of the hand surprised Noin, and it fell from her chin and raised up to her cheeks, brushing away some of the present falling tears. Embarrassed and speechless, she just sat, staring on into that endless blue that she doubted ever seeing again. Then the hand fell, and brushed across hers until she felt a strong and reassuring squeeze and a gentle and concerned smile.


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-- I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry --
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Surprise flowed through Noin's aching veins and she looked at him, a small confused look, taken in by the young blonde.
"Noin, I'm back... why are you crying?"

The words were simple, but just that small phrase hurt unbearably. She turned her face away from his, new tears forming once again, and she didn't know what to say, words seemed impossible now.

"Noin? Please don't cry... you can talk to me... talk to me about it? I'm not going anywhere, I'll stay with you..."


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-- For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry --
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Noin didn't answer but pulled her hand away from Zechs, barely believing his words. This couldn't be possible. Not him. He'd never stay to his word... so why did he say such a thing? Of course he would leave, but she couldn't do anything to prevent that. Nothing. She'd always be stuck watching him journey elsewhere. Besides, it wasn't like she was never busy either.

She pulled both her arms around herself, shivering like mad, and Zechs looked at her worried, watching the way she held herself. She looked so lost, so small... so helpless. Noin never looks like this... never... there must be something really wrong... she can't be so maudlin that she got jailed in, can she? He pondered and reached out to take her hand again, she seemed weak, limp, and when he did it, he pulled her close into his arms, embracing her with a gentle might, and warming her cold body.

"Noin... please... I'm staying... I paid you out of this dump... come on... please stop crying..." his pleading voice didn't seem real. It was his own deep voice, but with such concern, such gentleness... She wasn't used to it. Curiously she sighed, closing her eyes and deciding she liked his uncommon gestures. Noin eased into his arms, and finally her tears seemed to dry.

Zechs held her there for a moment longer, his arms securely holding her, and then finally, she sniffed in pitiful air, and tried her attempt to speak, for her voice had long gone dry from shouting and protesting the night before.

"Zechs... you... you came... why are you here? Why now?"

Zechs pulled her to face him, ever so gently, and ever so calm. His gentleness surprised her, and she watched as he placed a single finger to her lips, his eyes directed on her.

"It doesn't matter... I came here. I found you, that's all that matters..." His voice was soft now, almost in a hush, and Noin found herself speechless, staring at him again.

In about fifteen minutes, and all held in a great silence, although, to Noin, it seemed comforting somehow, the two gathered the remaining of her things, and she exited the tiny cell, with Zechs leading her along. By now she realized she had a small limp, her knee swollen and aching a lot. She hobbled by his side, and Zechs curtly had a few second chat with the head officer of the jail.

Once in broad sunlight, Noin's bruises and cuts were obvious. Zechs noticed easily as they walked down the busy morning day streets. He watched her carefully, the whole time, silenced by her effort across the street in how much pain she must be in. By now it was clearly evident that something horrible really had happened, yet, he stayed quiet, sure to use the right time to talk to her again. Something in his heart said she had been calling for him.

He flagged down a cab, and they were escorted towards the higher part of the big city, where Zechs stopped at the bottom of a large motel building. Noin curiously looked at him, and he gave a friendly smile, patting her on the shoulder, nodding up to its immense walls.

"We can stay here for the time being," he paused, making sure to wrap his arm around her as they pushed through the big crowd across the street to the front doors of the motel. She nodded quietly, too quietly for her own good, in his opinion.

After they were suited a room, Zechs laid down her things, noticing blood on one of the shirts, and worried, stuffed it away in one of his own bags. He left the large suite for only a moment, and returned to find Noin staring out the window in silence, looking down the 5 stories at the busy people and traffic below her. Zechs approached her from behind, worry in his eyes, and turned her to face him, taking both her hands in his.

"Noin..." he said, his voice light, and Noin plastered a smile on her face.

"None of this polite stuff, Zechs-sama. I don't need any of that. You've gotten me out of jail, and I don't need your help now..." she found herself teasingly pushing him away, although in her heart, she wanted to hide herself away. He mustn't know...

Zechs took her by the hand again, and his eyes sparkled, slender face nearing hers.

"Don't give me that Noin. You were crying. You never cry... not like this..." He brushed a stray piece of hair that seemed to like darting into her eyes every few seconds, and a small smile spread across her lips.

Its touchy, very very touchy... I'll wait until tonight... Zechs pondered "How about you come with me to 'The Alberneize'?" he delighted cheerfully, trying to brighten her spirits.

"The what?" she asked, and before she knew it he was heading down the motel hallway and on the street, walking side by side with her.

"Its a really nice restaurant. They have wonderful luncheons there. You must be starving from being stuck in that cell, and so we're going there."

"Zechs," she continued, a little out of breath from the drag down the street. That's funny.. I'm never this out of breath for something so simple... "Don't you know I'm broke, I have no money. I did until they drug me in there... they took it, as well as my ID and license."

Zechs gave a hearty chuckle and pulled Noin closer to his side as they turned the corner, a big blue and yellow sign appearing with the words: 'The Alberneize'.

"Noin, don't be silly. Its my treat, and I'm sure we can get those back before we go back home tonight," Noin sighed, and was drug into the restaurant.

After having a more than tasteful meal, and an extra helping of dessert, Zechs admitted he was overly stuffed, and finally Noin gave in to be full too. By then it was late afternoon, and even with small sweet chats, they had taken up most of their time in the small restaurant.

Walking her down more quiet streets, Zechs began to explain what had been happening in the past four months, where he had gone, and what important and humorous things he ran into. And all the while, Zechs' eyes were on her. Even her poor attempt to smile made chills run all over him. He could feel the day grown darker with every given ride across the city park, and every joy ride in the taxi, just for the hell of it, the whole time Noin complaining about how ridiculous all of it was. Is she having any fun at all? He wondered when they started towards a tiny and secluded Italian place, and ate by the silence of candlelight.

Why is this happening? Why is he being so sweet? It wasn't me crying wasn't it? How can that turn such a strong and defiant man into such a gentle creature? Unless that isn't it at all, and he's preparing me for some horrible type of news... why do I wonder? This isn't all that it seems. Its a nightmare... or is it a dream?

The walk home was the quietest of all, Zechs, hands in his pockets and his head hung low. He didn't say a thing for at least 15 minutes, and this, bothering Noin, she started to randomly babble on about how much her men must miss her, and if they've not improved since she was gone, about how much she would work them for the next week. Zechs answered with silent bows of the head, and polite nods, and sometimes he hummed, but it was obvious to her that he was deep in thought.

"Zechs? What is on your mind this night?" she finally brought up. A long moment of silence before there was an answer.

"I have to go back to L2 tomorrow morning," was the icy reply, and then a bit of silence again. "I have some quick business to attend to..." his voice was dry, and as willful and strong as always. Noin nodded quietly, and her eyes seemed to draw away from looking at him. A small pain pricked at her eyes, but she ignored it.

"I see." Yeah, I see... I see what you were cheesing me up for all day.

The rest of the walk home was in aching silence, but once they reached the motel room, Zechs flung open the door with a smile.

"I have a little surprise for us," he said with a wink, and she walked in slowly.

"Oh do you? I notice you said 'us' and not 'me'. Something you'd enjoy too?" He just grinned and once the door behind him was shut, he disappeared into the kitchen area of the suite.

Noin lazily walked about, waiting, by sitting on one of the casual wicker chairs placed nicely in the livingroom. She waited for about fifteen minutes, and strangely enough, the patience that was once in her, seemed to fade, and she stood up heading to the bedroom.

Finally looking in the mirror, for the first time in four weeks, she grunted at how ratted her hair was, and how bruised and cut her face was. Why she looked like a bum off the street. She was surprised that Zechs went through all this trouble, and the whole time said nothing about her appearance.

"I guess that was just a part of his plan..." she mumbled out loud.

"A part of what plan?" A deep voice said sneaking up behind her, hands behind his back.

"What are you up to?" she asked, noticing the mischievous smile.

He pulled a bottle of red wine out from behind his back, and gladly set it in her palms.

"Oh so that's it? Trying to get me drunk are you!" He laughed and took it back from her.

"Just thought it'd be nice for tonight, right? Before I'm leaving and all. Let it keep you company while I go take a shower. I'll be back in a few..." and with that he grabbed a towel from the bedside, and disappeared behind the door.

Noin slowly sat down on the edge of the bed, that strange pain pricking at her eyes again. She held in a small sigh. A painful sigh. This isn't fair. Why does he have to tempt me with such words? Why does he have to pretend that its not anything to me? I know he knows... how much I care for him. Yet still he throws out promises as if they'd ever be true... and just when I could almost believe it... But I'm through with that. This is not me. This is not the Lucrezia I know... I wouldn't take this all to heart... She found herself nervously folding her hands in her lap, and looked slowly down at them, her body beginning to shake.

"But it hurts..." she said aloud, and her hands fell to her eyes, tears tearing from her and dripping down her face, once calm and clean before. "This is not me... not me to cry like this..." she said once again. She couldn't bare to see Zechs come to her rescue, even if he didn't know it, and then in the same second, vanish again. But there was no way she could stop it, nothing she could do... she couldn't bring herself to think another way... but she felt alone, and now would forever feel more alone. It was not that she was never alone before, but a new fear of loneliness grew in her now.

God, can I do it...? Zechs said to himself, washing in the steaming shower. He turned the water off and shook his body, wrapping his waist in a towel, and letting his hair drip along his back. Worry surged through him. He hated to lie like this to Noin. Even if she didn't act like it, he knew it hurt her. It had to. For him to leave.... But maybe not. Maybe...

"This is stupid... it'll never work... why am I being like this? I'm not acting like myself at all..." Zechs grumbled and dried the last bit of his body. His hair wasn't as dripping as before, but it was still fairly damp.

Making his way to the bedroom to get more clothes on, and only standing in the towel, Zechs casually swung the door open. But even when she pulled herself away, and when she let her hands drop to her sides, all of what had happened was evident to him.

"Noin..." he said, his voice soft. She had made no sound, but another clear teardrop splashed off her cheek, and she looked at him in shame and humility. Standing to her feet, she tried to make her way out of the room. Dammit... to be caught like this again!

But Zechs had already caught her in his arms, and was holding her tightly from exiting the room.

"Noin...Lucrezia... we have to talk..." Noin took in a slow breath of air. He had addressed her personally.

"I...Zechs... I... can't talk to you. Not about this." Zechs' heart felt shattered.

How can she say this when she knows I want to help? How can she say this when I am planning what I am? Maybe she will never change...

"Noin! Dammit!" Zechs felt himself grab her fiercely around the shoulders, positioning her stiffly in front of him. In this kind of strength, there was no way he was letting her go. "Your not going anywhere! And your going to talk to me, you can't just keep this bottled up inside of you. Do you know what that does to people? It makes them kill themselves... I'd never forgive myself if that happened to you!" Noin gulped in quietly, the power on her shoulders making her cringe a little.

"Zechs, I'm not going to--"

"Noin listen to me! You can't do this to yourself! I'm worried about you... what can I do to help if you won't tell me what happened... Noin... I..." She looked at him, her body still shaking, but just slightly. He looked down at her limp arms and his eyes widened suddenly. He gently picked up her wrist, eying it closely, his intense eyes went from it to her sullen eyes. "Its broken..."

Noin looked slowly down at her own wrist, a small pain seeping up inside her. This whole time and she hadn't even noticed her own broken body part. He carefully held her hand and walked to his bag, strangely enough, pulling out a small balled up bandage and a small popsicle stick. He propped her wrist straight and wrapped it up, the whole time, Noin staring at him in silence.

When he was done, her hand fell back to her side once again. She looked up painfully at Zechs. "I'm sorry... thank you... I'm just a little... worked up over being locked away, that's all," Zechs stared at her sternly, helping her to sit on the beside with him.

"No, Noin, that isn't it. I know it isn't. You wouldn't cry over something like that. I know you much more than you think Noin... Please.. just... tell me... I won't judge you, why would I ever?" His concerned words filled her softly, and her shoulders began to ache. So much pouring over her now, and his words... She wanted to believe it, but how could she when he had already broken his promise before.

"Zechs... p-please don't leave..." was all she could manage as the dreaded feeling of loneliness washed over her.

"Noin..." he said, and hopefully for the last time, his hands clasped in hers. "Please don't cry... I... I'm sorry.. but I have to go... I didn't know it mattered so much."

"A lot of things matter to me that you don't seem to notice... don't see how much I--" but she couldn't finish that sentence, not now. To hear something painful, something on how he would react, would crush her for eternity.

"Noin, God... what happened?" he said, wrapping his arms around her, his intense eyes burning. Why won't she tell me...? He took her by the upper arms, grabbing her tightly and forced her to come face to face with him, only a few inches separating their noses.

Frustrated and with no opinion or care left, Noin growled in a husky teary voice.

"Dammit Zechs! I got raped! Yeah, me... the Noin you *thought* you knew! And there's nothing you can do about it and if your wondering I don't know why I couldn't stop it..." with that said, she wrenched away from his grip, and pulled herself to the other side of the bed.

I'm acting like a little child that's having a tantrum, and now he'll never look at me the same again...

Zechs was in shock. He'd never have guessed it. He watched as she pulled away. No wonder your in such pain... oh god Noin... why didn't I come sooner... I could of kicked the living shit out of whoever touched you!

Zechs slowly stood to his feet, still only dressed in his towel, that he was at that time ignoring. He walked over to the other side of the bed, quietly sitting beside her. He was careful not to touch her, not yet.

"Noin. I'm not going anywhere, I... I'm staying here with you..." his voice was calm but something in it seemed to ache, even she could tell in her hysterics.

You've already said that, and guess what...

"If you only knew why I was going back to L2, it was for you... Noin...I'm so sorry.. I don't know how I could have let this happen.. Lucrezia please..." he said his voice cracking. He couldn't stand to know it. Know that he had let it happen to her. "Lucrezia, I love you, I won't let you do this to yourself..." his eyes spoke it all when he mouthed the words, and Noin found herself looking back at him. But strangely enough, she wasn't surprised, and she wasn't touched, instead she was a bit angry.

"How can you say that now? Just after I told you? Do you think I'm that weak to let a man get on me and get away with it? He caught me by surprise Zechs. I... was going to stop him... but..." she took in a quick breath. "Are you just gonna plead to my feet now? Say things that once again aren't true, and never will be, just because you know what I've been through. Do you feel sorry for me or something!? Not me Zechs. I'm strong. This isn't me. And it never will be..."

Zechs took her by the arms gently, his voice calmed, his eyes directed on her.

"Noin, please listen to me... I'm not just saying this... please understand--" But before he could finish, his words were wrenched away from him and Noin pulled away standing to her feet.

"And if you think this will in anyway, lessen my endurance for pain, your wrong. I am no more weak than I ever was. In fact, this whole ordeal has made me stronger..." she said her voice steady but trailing off.

The last bits of her words were swallowed away then, as Zechs approached her, his nose touching her lips. He reached his arms around her gently, pulling her body closer to his own, breathing in her scent, no matter how unwashed it was. "Lucrezia, I do love you... and no matter what, you'll always be in my heart. It just hurts me to know that someone has touched you... because I have to protect you. I have to... keep you safe. And only when you are do I feel you'll maybe have it in you to love me, and only then..." his soft voice thrilled and before Noin could even think of what to respond to or even let thoughts brush past her mind, the sweet taste of precious lips were against hers, pulling her breath away for eternity, and enthralled in the precious moment of what seemed a life long's waiting, Noin fell against him, taking in every waking second of it all.


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-- 'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more --
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Zechs warm hands once again felt across her cheek, guiding her chin to meet his lips more, and his arm wrapped around her shoulders, holding her body close, so he couldn't let her go. He never wanted to let her go. So long... so long I've waited...


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-- You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart,
always --
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And then Noin could feel the softness of motel covers seeping around her frame, and the weight of a man she always thought of, pressing down on her. The weight wasn't exactly light, but it felt good to be securely held with his power, and his comfort. And all the while his lips were on hers, touching her gently. And his fingers, letting his hands trails through her hair, and down her back.

This is how it felt. This is how it felt to be held, to be warm like this, and to not be afraid. She never had dreamed that she'd feel such pain, such terror one night, and the next ,the very next night feel such overwhelming wonder. The coolness of a tongue slipped past Noin's mouth, and she excepted it, and running her hands through Zechs' dampened hair, felt at his tongue as well. Shivers wound all over Zechs body at her touch, her feel, and even her smell. This is where he wanted to be, now, and forever. This is what he dreamed of. And not until recently did he even except it as a reality.


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-- Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep in side us
We're not that different at all --
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After a few more minutes of motionless caressing from the two, Noin pulled back, running out of breath. She stayed in Zechs arms, the whole time her eyes locked onto his, hoping to never pull back, and never escape his touch.

"Zechs... what about, the others? If they knew... that you... We're soldiers... this can't happen, not if they..."

Zechs smiled gingerly, and reached with the same gesture earlier that day, placing his finger over her lips in silence.


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-- And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more --
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Noin reached forward then, to gently pull his hand away, and she pulled him back on top of her, comforting and warming her body. By now, Zechs' towel had slipped away. Smothering him into endless kisses and caresses, Zechs fell away from his reality of world, pausing only once, while kissing her sweet neck to mumble:

"Noin, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks... what matters is you. You mean everything to me, and no matter what, I'm not going to let you go..." Noin let out a precious sigh Zechs would never have lived without hearing and he continued to run his fingers over her stomach and chest, his mouth gently nipping at her neck.


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-- Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know --
*****************


Zechs' sweet mouth overlapped hers, repeatedly, the tastes of his skin salty and pure. Noin's eyes filled with tears. This was so much different, so perfect, so right. His tongue carefully trailed down her chin, across her neck, sending rows of goose bumps all over her body. Shivering a bit into his touch, his slender fingers tugged at her shirt.

The silence of the night had finally dawned on him when his moans echoed through the dark room, but the silence wasn't important now. The only important thing was he really was with Noin. He really was going to be with her forever know, and no matter what it took, he'd take her as his own. Right after the war ended... everything would be different now. The rushing pains and pleasures of his body seemed to overlap and his mouth ran dry, his pleading voice taking over for him, until his world slipped beneath Noin's...


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Part Two
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A loud bringing noise shattered the ears of the weary couple, massed under thousands of messy covers and Noin sat up in bed rapidly, her hair ruffled even more than usual, and in her face.

"Hmmpf?" she tried to say, and Zechs was already leaping out of bed, grabbing his pants, and shoving them on, and running, his hair a tangled mess all over his face, and reached for the cell phone in his bag.

"What!" he demanded slowly making his way back to where Noin lay groggily. "You want me to what? Why's that? I have four months and I--" Zechs' face became rather angry looking and he snorted. "Treize, I'm kinda busy-- No! Of course its important! Noin too? Dammit Treize can't you even respect my--"

Zechs glared at the phone pulling it away from his ear, and Noin could faintly hear a dial tone. Shoving the phone back into his bag, Zechs crawled back over to Noin, his eyes fondly looking down at her. Then he wrapped his arms around her and kissed her warmly. But before he could drown her in kisses, she pushed him playfully, and pulled away.

"Zechs, don't pretend that nothing just happened there! What did Treize want?" she mused happily, a bruise on her cheek showing up quite obviously. Zechs kissed it gently, and leaned back in the bed, his weight off her.

"Okay... I was just trying to let a few moments last..." he sighed, and scratched at the back of his neck for a second, then finally answered her. "Treize demands some back up near the colonies, things are getting out of hand and... we really need to help him. The catch is, we're supposed to be there in 5 hours." Noin looked at him pitifully and sighed.

"When you say 'we' do you mean you and your letting me come along or--"

"Both of us. He wants both of us on that 'great' battlefield. And he says the pilots are around... so we better get going..." he gave a brief smile and helped Noin out of bed and to her feet. "And don't worry, I'll cover for your appearance. Your really bruised up..." She gave a small grin and started to search for the remaining of her clothes that were tossed off at night. At least it wasn't as bad as being left alone without him. He wouldn't be next to her, but he wouldn't be too far away...

Only six hours later, Noin was sitting in her ever familiar attire in the warmth of the Peacemillion spacecraft. Shouting orders to remaining men, and watching carefully on guard, she felt like her old self again. Her uniform rubbed against some deep cuts, but it was easily ignored when she pictured her blonde man, coming back to be near her again. Dammit, I really can't wait until this war's over. He promised me... and I know that he means it this time.

The loud clashing explosions of reality brought her away from her reverie, and she looked out through open view of the outer space surrounding her. So deep the stars are out here, and so beautiful to be cluttered by the heat of battle... But the war must go on...


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-- When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together --
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The speaker system let on a familiar pilot's angry voice, shouting something about a Zero System and then there was fuzzed silence. Noin's brow furrowed in curiosity, and she gave commands to swing Peacemillion back towards a faint and crazy plea for help.

Suddenly she catches glance of Tallgeese, the shining white reflecting easily on the screen. Her eyes grow wide as a target from one of the Gundam's is locked onto his. Zechs' voice flashed on speaker then, for just a second.

"Dammit! Shit! The whole things locked up! Tallgeese is going on system failure! I can't gain control... I think its--" his voice fuzzed out and away.

Noin found herself stop giving the orders and desperately staring out the view screen of space. The flashing red light and echoing sound of Self Destruction System bounced through her ears, and the lights reflected off her eyes.

That ever familiar prickly pain swept across her eyes, and she stared out the window, her throat already dried up, and voiceless.


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-- 'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more --
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"Noin-sama, should we turn Peacmillion around? There was an explosion behind us... this area is getting dangerous for our ship!" a random soldier's voice called behind her, and his words passed through her like a breeze.

Her glazed eyes stared out ahead of her then, as if in a trance, that painful ache now reaching her throat, that was no longer dry, but filled with an unforgivable pain. It pressed at her, and poked at her, but still she stood calm, silent, her eyes locked on the flashing Tallgeese.

And then all at once there was a loud explosion, and Tallgeese's structure seemed to fail and parts of it shout out everywhere. Men behind Noin ran up to her, to cover her to the ground, to avoid flying debris, that was connecting with Peacemillion. Without the consent of their her's, they already had started to pull the ship back in retreat.

"Dammit, No!" Noin cried, her eyes glazed over even more, and she jumped to the main controls, steadying the ship in still arid view of the already blown away mobil suit. She glared at her men, and told them to move no further, walking away from that and to the screen once again, to peer out at the floating debris and what remained of Tallgeese.

Squinting hard through her blurring eyes, Noin caught sight of a silent, and battered floating man. His body floated past a large pile of metal, and disappeared.

Noin's eyes watered in fear, her hands clutching desperately at her aching side.

"God... no..." she mumbled so quietly, she could barely hear it herself. She found herself falling to her knees, the bit of her reality biting her hard beyond belief and her hands shook, flying up to catch her face. Tears shook at her body, but nothing came. She pulled her hands away to find splotches of blood covering her hands from where the debris had hit her from the explosion.

Another loud piercing echo, and a fuzzed voice came on the speaker. The voice was nearly muted, and sounded extremely choked. Noin barely noticed as she shook her head in fear.

"Noin... please... please.. don't cry..." it said, and before anything more was heard there was the static of space left to fill her mind. She lifted her head slowly to look out once again at the mess of rubble in front of her.

Suddenly, as silent as ever, she stood to her feet. A mass of broken glass floated right past the view point of the ship, and a single tear fell across Noin's cheek, disappearing with the gravitation of space.


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-- Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
Always --
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Owari


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A word from LTS: YAY!!! *leaps in the air with glee* I finally finished it! Wait, this one took me one day to finish... *blinks* Oh well. What do you think? You like?

^_^ Its my first song-fic, just so you know, the song comes from the soundtrack Tarzan, as most of you know. I don't care if you don't like the song! I do! Its by Phil Collins, and he's kewl!

^__~ Any C&C is welcome!

Also keep in mind, that to make this fit with the song, Noin was probably very ooc, and as well as Zechs. I tried my best, but this is the first time I wrote a fic about the two, altogether. Never written from Noin's view or Zechs' until now! *waves*


~*~ Little Trowa-san ^_*