The Wrong
It was before a cat had become
My greatest wish. I was three.
In a child-like—childish—game, I remember
I cornered a skinny stray cat.
The sun set aglow the red
Brick against the cat’s side,
And a stick in my hand was heavy,
Black, cold from the snow.
A stick? I seem to remember it was
A metal bar. Only would the cat
Have survived then the blow?
The creature’s black-orange striped fur
Stood up on ends, not masking
The protruding bones, and the animal
Crouched to the frost-covered earth,
Scared, anticipating the blow.
It came, and the cat like lightning was gone.
And sheltered behind the black garbage can in the yard,
The creature—perhaps—nursed its wounded back,
The blood pulsing beneath its sticky, moist fur.
Or—perhaps—the blow missed, and merely the hit
Of the bar on the brick send the shattering sound,
And its echo’s crescendo shook the bar and the hand.
The memory’s misted and partially lost,
A justification. Irrelevant.
For there, not yet stripped of it, stood a girl
Who was to be me,
The blow reverberating in my hand.