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Sage pulled into his driveway in front of his small house in Sendai. He had just gotten off work and now he had to make an important phone call. This morning he had looked on the calendar and discovered that today was the tenth of October, it was Rowen’s birthday. He often wondered what the archer was up to these days, it had been five years since they all moved out of Mia’s mansion, Sage still didn’t know where his best friend was living. All he had was a phone number to contact his friend with, that didn’t really help much since Rowen’s number was unlisted and he couldn’t get an address to go with the phone number. Once a year he saw his friend, Rowen would come by for Sage’s birthday and he would stay for a week, the others would come by too. Every time they had asked Rowen for his address, but Rowen would just say that he’d give to them later and he’d never give it to them. Sage just hoped that where ever Rowen was, he was having fun on his birthday.
Going
inside his house, Sage picked up the phone and dialed Rowen’s number. Like
every year, he got the answering machine.
“Hi,
this is Hashiba Rowen, I’m obviously not here, so leave a message and your
number after the beep and I’ll get back to you.” BEEP.
“Hey
Ro, it’s Sage. I wanted to wish you a happy birthday and just give me a call,
okay? Bye.”
Hanging
up the phone, Sage ran a hand through his blond hair, his thoughts still on
Rowen. Ever since they all went their separate ways Rowen had been on his mind
more often than his liked to admit. He was always very excited when his friend
would come to visit him, probably more excited than the others. And it wasn’t
unusual if the archer would popped up in his dreams at least once a week.
“God,
you’d think I’m in love with him,” Sage whispered to himself. He froze. Did he
love Rowen? No, that wasn’t it. He was only concerned about him. His friend had
changed over the five years and became even skinnier, Sage was only concerned
about him.
**********
“Can
I buy you a drink?” asked a man, he was one of the regulars at the tavern and
he had always had his eye on the young bartender. The man wasn’t bad looking,
not at all, and he was still young, it was just that the bartender just wasn’t
interested. The man never got the hint and shamelessly flirted with the tender,
even though it was a boy about a year younger than him.
The
bartender shook his head, “No thanks, I don’t drink.” He then turned his
attention to another person sitting at the bar, but the man grabbed his arm
tightly before he could move away. “Hey! Let go of me!” the bartender tried to
jerk his arm back, but he had gotten too skinny for his own good and his once
strong arms had weakened considerably. Had it been about five years ago, the
bartender would’ve easily jerked his arm away, but it wasn’t five years ago,
this was now.
“Excuse
me, is there a problem?” a voice snapped angrily behind of the man. It was the
owner of the bar and she did not look happy.
“No,
of course not,” the man muttered, quickly finished his drink and left the bar.
The
owner smirked and sat down at the bar, looking at the bartender. “Same guy as
usual, huh Rowen-kun? Told ya this is a risky business for cuties like you.”
“I
need the money, Sky-chan,” Rowen replied.
“Can
I get a vodka tonic over here?” a young lady at the bar asked.
“Sure,
just a sec,” replied Rowen as he got out the vodka and tonic water.
Sky
rolled her eyes, “I can give you money, just ask, I’d do anything for you.”
“I
know would,” he muttered under his breath. Then he smiled kindly at the young
lady and handed her the drink, “Here you go, Miss.” Turning back the Sky, he
shook his head. “I can’t accept money from you unless it’s in the form of a pay
check.”
“All
right, but you don’t have to work on your birthday. For god’s sakes, man! Go
out and have fun for once!”
Rowen
shook his head. Sometimes Sky just didn’t understand. He had to work two jobs
to support himself and didn’t have nearly enough money to go to college, so he
ended up working at a library during the day and at the bar during the night.
At this rate, he’d never make anything of himself and it hurt to know that, but
he wasn’t complaining. He had a small, four room apartment and after rent he
had just enough money to buy some food and odds and ends. When he first came
here, he had to sell his jeep so he could pay the rent for his apartment, so he
mainly walked everywhere he went or Sky would drive him. Every year he’d save
up just enough money to buy train tickets to go to Sendai to visit Sage and his
other friends. So he worked six days a week, holidays and hardly took vacation
to manage that. Sky had tried to give him money before, but he refused, his
pride getting in the way. He wanted to prove to everyone that he could make it
on his own without anyone’s help. But it was killing him. On the days he had
off, he’d sleep most of the day, trying to catch up on sleep that he had lost
during the week. Many times he missed meals because he had to get to work.
Sometimes he felt that the only thing that kept him going was the fact that he
had to work if he wanted to see Sage again. Even after all these years he was
still in love with the blond, every night he’d snuggle up with the dark green
sweater that used to belong to Sage, many nights he’d cry into it.
“Rowen-kun,
I just want you to be happy,” Sky gave her friend a lopsided smile. “You’re
going to work yourself to death.”
“I
can’t afford to stop working, Sky-chan. Do you want something to drink?” asked
Rowen.
“No,
damn it! Listen to me!”
“Sky,
now is not the time.”
Sky
knew better than to argue with Rowen when his voice sounded like that. She
decided the big lecture was just going to have to wait until the bar was
closed. Luckily for her, the bar was going to close in half an hour and she had
just enough time to shoot some pool with the young guys who were dumb enough to
play against her. Rowen couldn’t help laughing as his friend went over to the
pool tables and sucker the other players out of their money. No one could shoot
pool like Sky could, well, except maybe him. Sky came back over to Rowen once
the tavern closed and he was cleaning up. She went behind the bar, helped him
wipe down everything and count the money in the register.
“As
I was saying,” she continued and Rowen could feel some big speech coming up.
“You should really take more time off, try working five days a week like a
normal person. And you wouldn’t have any problems with money if you’d just let
me help you out. You’re all depressed, not like there was a time that I knew
you that you weren’t depressed, but I think that you were a hell of a lot more
fun before you came here. Well, I wouldn’t say party animal, but I bet you
actually liked going out. Maybe you moving here was a big mistake.”
“Look,
I didn’t have much of a choice,” Rowen answered. “As I told you before,
everyone was leaving and my father’s apartment is a worse place for me to be
in. I had nowhere to go. And it wasn’t a mistake, it’s just my first time
really being on my own, it’s good for me.”
“It
was a mistake. I think you should go move up to Sendai and live with your
boyfriend, Sage.”
“He’s
not my boyfriend,” he muttered bitterly.
“Anyway,
you should go up there. Soon.”
“Moneys
an issue, remember? If I take time off, then I’d only get paid vacation, I
won’t get any tips from the tavern and there goes my money for food for the
week.”
“What
if I gave you the tips from the time your gone? I can work your shift and wear
a nice mini skirt to get the guys emptying their pockets.”
“I
need tickets.”
“What
if you had them?”
“What’s
with all the ‘what if’ questions?”
“Just
answer.”
Rowen
paused, then nodded his head. “Yeah, then I’d go.” He nearly jumped back in
surprise as Sky waved train tickets in his face with a big dopey smile on her
face.
“Happy
birthday, Rowen-kun! You’re going to Sendai to visit your boyfriend next week!”
**********
Sage
stayed up late that night, he knew Rowen usually didn’t get home till the later
hours and he wanted to be wake when Rowen returned his call. Stretched out on
his couch, he read one of his books while waiting for the phone to ring. A few
times Rowen didn’t call till the next day, the archer probably didn’t want to
disturb him so late in the night. Every year Sage would wait up for his phone
call, until he eventually fell asleep in the early hours of the morning.
Putting down his book, Sage wonder what Rowen was doing at that moment. Was he out
at a club, celebrating his birthday with friends? Maybe one of his friends gave
him a party of some sort. Or, he could be all alone, thinking that no one cared
if it was his birthday or not. Shaking his head, the blond refused to believe
that Rowen didn’t have any friends where he was living now, but that fear
lingered in the back of his head. That the archer might be alone.
“Then
next time I talk to Rowen, I’ll have to ask him about that,” Sage said to
himself. His heart skipped a beat when the phone rang, he almost dove for the
phone that was on the table by the other side of the couch. “Rowen?” he asked.
He winced as a female voice came on the line.
“Sorry,
honey, this isn’t him.”
“I’m
sorry, um, then, who is this?”
“Hi!
My name is Suzuki Sky. Well, I just wanted to tell you that your boyfriend is
going to visit you next week.”
“My
boyfriend?” Sage was very confused.
“Sky-chan!!
I’m going to kill you! He’s not my boyfriend!! Now give me the phone!” Rowen’s
voice was heard clearly in the background and he didn’t sound very happy. Then
there were sounds of struggling over the phone and a few swear words. Finally
the girl gave a yelp of pain and Rowen gained control of the phone. “Um, hi,
Sage.”
“Hi,
Rowen,” Sage automatically smiled at the sound of his friend’s voice. “So
what’s this I hear about you visiting me?”
“If
you’re busy or something next week then that’s okay, it’s just that my friend
Sky-chan bought me train tickets to Sendai, but if you’re busy then I’ll just-”
“No,
no, no, I’m not busy next week, I’m sure that I can get the week off. And, am I
now your official boyfriend?” he could help teasing Rowen.
“I,
well . . .um,” Rowen tried to find the words to say. Sage smirked, he knew that
Rowen had to be red in the face by now. “Well, Sky-chan, just likes to bug me,
so she calls you my boyfriend, since on my vacation it’s your house I go to
and, um, yeah.”
“I
see,” Sage bit back his laughter. “What day and time are you coming? I’ll come
pick you up at the train station.”
“That’s
not necessary- Ouch! Damn that girl has nails. Sky, let go, damn it Sky, let go
of the phone!” There was another struggle going on, this time, Sky won.
“He’s
coming next Sunday at noon. You better pick him up or I’m going to kick your
ass.”
“Then
I dare not leave him stranded. I’ll come to pick him up and thank you, Miss
Suzuki, for giving Rowen a chance to visit me twice in a year.”
“Please,
call me Sky. And you don’t need to thank me, god knows he needs another
vacation. I mean really, how do you stay his friend? Rowen-kun’s so up tight,
work, work, work that’s all he does and- Rowen! Stop it, I’m talking to your
friend. Don’t be rude and wait your turn!” There was more struggling.
“I’m
so sorry about Sky-” Rowen began.
“What
do you mean you’re sorry about me?! If it weren’t for me you wouldn’t have a
fucking job!” screamed Sky.
“Anyway,
sorry about that. Um, I’ll see you Sunday then?”
“Of
course, don’t forget I’m going to pick you up. Bye.”
“Bye.”
“Bye!”
Sky shouted in the background.
“Bye,
Sky,” Sage raised his voice so she could hear. He waited until Rowen hung up
first before hanging up the phone. He flopped down on the couch, grinning like
an idiot. Rowen was coming next week. No matter how hard he tried, he just
couldn’t stop grinning. He never thought he’d be this excited to see Rowen,
maybe because it was going to be just the two of them for a week. Normally Sage
would’ve invited the others, but Ryo and Mia were in France, and Kento and Cye
were very busy with the baby girl they just adopted, he only heard about it
earlier today. Sage nearly flipped out when he heard they had adopted, he
didn’t even know they were a couple! He didn’t have any objections about them
being together, it was just that he wished they would’ve told him. And from as
far as he knows, Ryo and Mia were okay with it too. He was sure that Rowen was
okay with the idea as well.
“Could
Rowen be with that girl?” he suddenly asked himself. But was she his type? Sage
remembered the first year they were living in Mia’s mansion, he and Rowen were
laying on his bed talking one night.
He
had asked Rowen. “What kind of person are looking for to share your life with?”
Rowen didn’t hesitate with an answer. “Anyone.”
“Just
anyone?” Sage had been surprised by his answer.
“It
could be anyone in the world, as long as I love them and they love me back.”
It
really didn’t matter if that girl, Sky, was his ‘type’ or not, as long as she
loved him, Rowen would be happy. He just didn’t like the thought of Rowen being
with Sky. It wasn’t like she had given Sage a bad impression, actually, she
seemed like a very good friend, a bit wild, but a good friend to Rowen.
‘Maybe
I just don’t want to see Rowen with anyone,’ Sage thought, ‘other than me.’
“Now
where in the hell did that come from?” Sage asked out loud.
**********
Rowen
stepped off the train with his duffel bag in hand, scanning through all the
crowds, looking for Sage. He would’ve just walked to Sage’s house, but no,
stupid Sky just had to tell Sage to pick him up. Sometimes he wished that girl
had a mute button on her. Sighing softly, he kept up his search for his best
friend. After a few minutes and still no sign of Sage, Rowen just figured that
maybe the blond had forgotten and started making his way through the mob of
people. He was about to leave the train station when he felt a hand on his
shoulder. Spinning on his heels, he found himself face to face with Sage.
“Did
you forget already that I was going to pick you up?” Sage didn’t wait for Rowen
to reply, instead he gave him a hug, while mentally noting how nicely Rowen fit
in his arms. “It’s good to see you, Ro.”
Rowen
had to fight to keep from shivering as Sage’s warm breath caressed his ear. He
smiled and replied, “It’s really good to see you too.”
“Come
on, we have a lot to do.”
“We
do?” “Not really, I just like to think that we do.”
On
the ride to Sage’s house, they chatted about Cye and Kento’s new baby girl that
they adopted. Rowen and Sky had been really excited when they found out about
it. Next June, Cye and Kento planned to bring the baby, so Sky was going to come
up to meet everyone and to see the baby.
Sage
couldn’t help but feel jealous when Rowen talked about Sky. He was sure that
they were just friends, however it felt like this girl was taking his job as
Rowen’s best friend. She was there for Rowen when he needed her, she was there
for him to talk to, to be there when he was lonely. To do all the things he
used to do for the archer when they were all still living together. Perhaps all
of them moving away hadn’t been such a great idea, they were all still close,
but they only got to see each other three times a year and only got to see
Rowen once a year. He didn’t even think that Rowen went back to his family. The
archer never said anything about his parents other than they were divorced and
he was living with his father, who he did not get a long with. If Rowen didn’t
go back to his family, then where did he go? All these little thoughts
fluttered through Sage’s head and he pondered why didn’t he think of this
earlier.
“Sage?
Sage?”
“Huh?
What?” Sage glanced over at Rowen.
“I
just wanted to tell you that we passed your house a block ago,” Rowen was
grinning from ear to ear, trying to keep from laughing.
“Sorry,
I kind of spaced out,” he made a U turn and headed for his house.
“Kind
of? I said your name at least fifteen times before I got your attention. What
were you thinking about?” “Um, what to get Cye and Kento’s baby when they come
in June,” Sage lied as he pulled into the driveway.
Unfortunately
for Sage, Rowen could read him better than any of his books. “Sure and I’m
really a smurf.”
“I
knew it! I always knew you were a smurf,” he ruffled up Rowen’s hair and
received a glare from the archer.
“Watch
it blondie,” he gave Sage a mock growl and stepped out of the car. Sage grabbed
Rowen’s duffel bag for him and they went inside the house. “So, what were you
thinking about?”
“It
was really nothing. Let’s get you settled in the guest room,” the blond went
down the hall to one of the guest rooms. Rowen rolled his eyes, Sage was always
very polite to all of his guests and treated them as if they were staying in a
hotel, even if they were only staying for a week.
**********
The
week went by too fast for Rowen, way too fast. It was nice not having to worry
about anything and just to relax. He toyed with the thought of just staying in
Sendai close to Sage, though he didn’t know if he could find two jobs and he
didn’t want Sage to see him the way Sky saw him. Sky hated him working all the
time and she was right, he was going to work himself to death. He couldn’t bare
the thought of Sage seeing him like this. The past five years he had been
slowly wasting away and he knew the blond could see the difference in his
appearance. Rowen wasn’t as strong as he used to be, his arms became too weak
for him to even use his bow anymore, he got tired faster and he had lost twenty
pounds to his already thin frame. There was no way he was going to let Sage see
him barely able to support and take care of himself. Sometimes he wished that
he could stay at Sage’s house and let his love take care of him, but that
wasn’t fair to Sage.
Rowen
now lay on the bed in the guest room, staring at the alarm clock. It was two in
the morning, Sunday morning, he had to leave in the afternoon. Slipping out of
the bed, he stood unsteadily on his long legs, then slowly walked out of the
room. He sneaked down the hall and carefully opened the door to Sage’s bedroom.
Peeking inside the bedroom, he was startled to see Sage look up at him from the
bed.
“What’s
wrong, Rowen?” he asked, looking worried.
“I,
ah, I couldn’t sleep.”
“Neither
can I,” the blond sat up and patted the empty space next to him. “Might as well
stay since you’re already here.”
Rowen
climbed into bed next to Sage. Sage laid back down, lifting the blanket so the
archer could crawl underneath them. Without another thought, he reached over
and pulled Rowen closer, letting his friend nestle against him. They laid in
comfortable silence, each of them listening to the other breath. Rowen was
perfectly happy there, being held by the one he loved. A sharp pain of sadness
stabbed him, realizing that this was as far as it was going to get. He closed
his eyes, holding back tears he knew that were coming.
“Rowen,
is this how it’s always going to be?” Sage’s sad voice whispered to him.
“What
do you mean?” Rowen didn’t dare open his eyes, just the tone of Sage’s voice
made him want to sob.
“I
mean, am I only going to get to see you once, maybe twice a year if I’m lucky,
for the rest of our lives? You always look a little worse whenever you come. I,
I don’t want you to leave this time, stay with me.”
“Are
you serious?” Rowen had to open his eyes now. Stormy blue locked onto icy
violet.
“Dead
serious. I want you to stay here with me. Please.”
Rowen
almost gasped as Sage kissed his forehead gently and tightened his arms around
him. “I have to find a job, you can’t support us both and I don’t even have a
college education.”
“We’ll
work something out, I promise. Please, don’t leave me. I can’t stand seeing you
slowly dying, I want to take care of you.”
“Sage
. . .”
“Please,
Rowen. For once in your life, don’t think of yourself as a burden to everything
and stop being so stubborn.”
He
didn’t have time to answer, for Sage got rid of the space between their faces,
pressing his lips against Rowen’s and giving him his first kiss.
**********
Sky
glanced at the time again, she had to get moving or she’d be late. She had to
go pick up Rowen from the train station. Though Rowen had been a bit upset at
her for buying train tickets for a vacation without his permission, she knew
that it was for the best. Even if she had to work at the tavern and put up with
drunken men, it was well worth it if it got her friend to have some fun.
Grabbing her purse, she was about to walk out the door of her apartment when
the phone rang.
“This
better be short,” she snapped at the person on the other line.
“Hello
to you too, Sky-chan.”
“Rowen-kun!”
Sky squealed. “Is the train early?”
“No,
I’m still in Sendai, I’m going to be staying here with Sage.”
“Ha!
I knew in time you’d stay with your boyfriend.”
“Yeah,
I’m going to be living with my boyfriend,” Rowen said more to himself than to
Sky.
The
girl was lost for words for the first time in her life, but only for a few
seconds. “You two got together!” She squealed so loudly Rowen had to hold the
phone away from his ear. “Oh my god, this is so big!” “Calm down, okay? I need
to ask a favor of you.”
“Sure,
anything.”
“Can
you bring the rest of my stuff up?” “You mean your whole two boxes worth of
things.” “Um, yeah, so will you?”
“Of
course I will.”
“Thank
you, Sky-chan, I’ll talk to you later.”
“Bye
Rowen-kun, wait a second!”
“Huh?”
“You
sound happier, you slept with him, didn’t you?”
Rowen
laughed softly, “I’ll talk to you later. Bye.”
“Bye.”
Sky chuckled as she hung up the phone. “It’s about time he got some. Damn, to
be a virgin for that long, I don’t know how he lives with himself.”
**********
After
talking to Sky, Rowen spent most of the day laying in bed with Sage. His head
resting on Sage’s chest, listening to the sound of the steady beat of his
heart. Sage held loosely onto Rowen’s hand and with his free hand, he stroked
the archer’s soft, blue hair. They talked softly to each other or just enjoyed
each other’s company.
“Are
you going to miss your old home?” Sage questioned quietly.
“It
wasn’t my home,” remarked Rowen, “it was just a place to live. This, right here
with you, is a place to call home.”
Sage
squeezed his hand and shifted himself so that he could kiss Rowen on the lips.
After giving Rowen a deep kiss, he said, “I love you.”
“I
love you too,” Rowen smiled and closed his eyes as he snuggled against Sage.
This was truly a place you can call home.