Liberation II: Immortality
Chapter 1: Tough Decisions
By Sorceress Fantasia
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Standard Disclaimers: All characters, except Vespera and the other deities, do not belong to me. They belong to blah, blah, blah. You know who. The song belongs to whoever wrote it and is sung by Celine Dion.
Warnings: A little OOC and maybe sap… anou, scratch that. It's definitely sappy. Angst heavy. Original characters.
"Blah" denotes speech.
'Blah' denotes thoughts.
(Blah) denotes the mind talking to the charas.
Note: This fanfic might have a few battle scenes, and they will be mostly magical based. As my muses are out of commission, I will be using the type of magic used in the RPGs that I play. For instance, the Final Fantasy series. The names of weapons and magic may be copied from the games. They do not belong to me. Gomen for any confusion caused.
Achieves: Here and anyone else who wants my fic! Just give me a call ok? ^o^
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"What do you mean by that!? One week to settle everything!? There's absolutely no way I'm leaving here!" He pounded his fist on the wooden table to emphasize his point. The unfortunate piece of furniture shook awfully, its legs almost giving way.

Vespera shook her head, sighing. "The table didn't offend you." She reprimanded her brother gently. She understood her brother's anger, and therefore didn't have the heart to act too harsh with him. But everyone had their limits. And Duo was close to reaching hers.

"Ya freakin' right! It didn't bloody offend me, *you* did!" Duo spat. His diamond hard gaze almost turned Vespera's warm blood into shards of ice. He leapt off his chair acrimoniously, finding it hard to sit still while his blood was boiling with absolute rage. He was positive that if anger were truly the fire people described it to be, the entire colony would ceased to exist, for it would have burst into flames immediately. Even so, he felt his wrath was even more than just that. After all, he was Shinigami, a god who brought death to thousands, millions even. And it never was a very clever idea to irate the god of death himself.

"So what do you want me to say?!" Vespera finally erupted like a dormant volcano, after tolerating Duo's ridiculous nonsense and emotional outburst for the last fifteen minutes. "That we don't care cause we're no longer part of Utopia!? We were, and always will be deities! This is something that we cannot change no matter what the circumstances! We were born there! We were raised there! We grew up there! We gained our outstanding and extraordinary powers there! And now Utopia is in danger, you wanna back out of it!? Duo Maxwell, what kind of man are you!?"

"I don't care what happens! I'm not leaving this place even if Utopia goes to pot!"

"Duo! Listen to me!" The girl tried again.

"No! *You* listen to me! I don't give a damn to what happens to Utopia! Heero needs me, and I'm not gonna abandon him! There's no way in hell you're making me leave!!"

"Duo!"

"NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO!"

"Duo, stop screaming blue murder!!"

"Which part of the word 'no' don't you understand!!! Do you need a dictionary!?"

"You're getting unreasonable!!"

"Oh yeah! Well then, don't talk to me if you can't stand me! It's not as if I give a damn!"

"Confound it all! I don't care how I'm gonna do it, but I'm getting the piece of information into your damn thick skull by hook or by crook!" Vespera shrieked in frustration. Her line of sanity was about to snap at the bad news, and Duo wasn't doing much to help.

"NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! I'm not leaving even if it costs me my wretched life!" Duo snarled, hands clasped at the sides of his head, shaking it violently. He willed his ears to not hear what Vespera said.

"ENOUGH OF THIS CHARADE!!!" Vespera yelled, enraged.

SLAP!

Duo looked up incredulously from the floor, violet irises widened at the sudden violence. He felt his cheek swell up at the sheer force, and the temperature rose. Vespera wore the most appalling expression he had ever seen.

"What do you take this as? A game? A joke?" She hissed venomously. Although she wasn't Death, she showed the same prowess and invoked just as much fear in her enemies. "This is *not* a joke." She said vehemently, spitting out word by word. "There is *nothing* such as a reset button that will allow you to start afresh. We can't undo any mistakes. We have one chance, and *only* one chance of getting everything right. One wrong move can lead to the universe's ultimate demise. One small mistake can cause the lives of millions of innocent. And that includes Heero."

Duo looked away, ashamed and contrite of his previous outrage. He fathomed the gravity of the matter, and the urgent need for his interference. However, he had let his selfishness get the better of him and not heed his sister's advice to cool down. He understood clearly that it was his duty and responsibility. Yet, he had pushed it away. Suddenly, he felt mortified to face his sister, who was younger but yet, more responsible and understanding than himself. If it were possible, he wanted a hole to materialize beneath him and swallow him up, anything to let him get away from Yume, even for a while.

Vespera knew what was racing through his mind, and decided to switch tactics. Her violet irises fluttered shut, and when they opened again, they were flickering in a shade of scarlet red. A gentle swirl of wind gathered at her feet, and whirled around her slender form. Her chestnut tresses floated up with the breeze, defying gravity. She held out an outspread palm in front of her, and with a soft breathe, she blew a gentle puff of air across her palm. Suddenly, a crystal chess set materialized between them, hovering in midair. The beautiful chess set glowed a radiant white, in all its holiness. The board was a mirror by itself, surface glossy, stained only at alternate spots to differentiate the ranks and files from one another. The chess pieces were constructed from the most mesmerizing material. One set made of pure, glittery crystal. The other was black, shimmering. The game seemed to be halfway through, the counters positioned in such a way that the black pieces' side was at the winning edge.

Immediately, Duo understood what the chess set meant. He knew his sister too well. The white crystal symbolized the gods and goddesses of Utopia, while the black ones represented Andariel and her troops.

Vespera's usually bright and glimmering irises were glazed and clouded as she stepped forward and gingerly took the black queen in her long, slender fingers. The bright light shined onto her, and at that moment, she resembled an epitome of darkness. Wordlessly, she lifted the piece gently, maneuvering it across the chessboard. Elegantly, she knocked down a white knight with the edge of her black queen, and the knight ceased to exist, disappearing into thin air.

"Checkmate." She said simply. Then, Vespera gestured for her brother to continue. "Your turn."

Duo's violet orbs narrowed suspiciously. He knew what the game represented, but what was she trying to show him? With his knowledge on chess and his keen observation skills, Duo couldn't see a chance for counterattack. Nevertheless, he tried his best and moved his bishop in front of his king. But then, he knew that it was a futile attempt, and his sister's rook could easily capture his king from its side.

And that was exactly what she proceeded to do. As the white king fell, Duo felt his eyes go wide open at what he saw. The almighty and powerful king of Utopia was superimposed over the fallen king. Lying still, the piece glowed a bright scarlet, and ignited. The fire was strong, but kept only to the fallen king. As if on cue, the rest of the white set started to glow as well, then burst into flames, scorched by the fiery inferno of hell.

"Na… Nani?" Duo stammered.

As though to answer his query, images of deities suffering endlessly materialized above the chessboard. They were beaten, whipped, lashed, burnt, ripped apart, tortured by devils. Duo could hear their painful cries of anguish and agony, could almost feel the pain inflicted onto their bodies and souls. Then, the images slowly transformed to the human world, where the humans were also tortured mercilessly and cruelly by those same heartless creatures. One face shocked him immensely. The face which he now recognized better than his own.

"Heero!?" Duo exclaimed.

The Japanese pilot was severely injured, cuts and bruises graced his body. All of a sudden, his image crumpled into dust.

"Heero!" He took in a sharp intake of air, snapping his head up to look at his sister, eyes demanding an explanation.

Vespera met his eyes, face devoid of all emotions. "If Utopia loses, the humans will be doomed in a living hell for all eternity. The devils will rule the land, afflicting suffering enough to break the will of the toughest man. No human can pull through that. Of course, that includes Heero and all our other friends here. As for us, the deities, we will be bound to a fate of endless sorrow and tribulation, as will the humans. No one will be able to break through the vicious cycle of life. Is that what you wish for? Are you really that selfish?"

Duo looked away, eyes downcast. Pondering over what she had just said, he felt a stab of pain spear through his heart. 'I just wanna be with Heero, forever. In a place where we can live peacefully. That's why both of us are fighting so hard to put down the war here. But…'

"But there won't be a forever if the world is destroyed. There won't be peace anywhere. There won't be a future for you two, or for anyone else for that matter." Vespera beseeched. Even though Eden had reincarnated, their mind-link was still intact and as strong as it was in the past. Getting only silence in response, she sighed inwardly. She knew that her brother's mind was in a huge jumble, torn between his lover and the world.

Suddenly, the white set of chess reappeared at their original positions that they were at before they disappeared. Vespera reached out again, this time taking the white queen. Without hesitation, she placed it down. To Duo's utter surprise, it captured the black king. It was only then did he notice the cleverly positioned chess pieces right in the beginning. With the black rook that managed to capture the white king gone from its previous position, it freed the white queen's way to the black king.

Once again, images materialized above the chessboard. This time, however, the images were the exact opposite from the earlier ones. It showed a paradise filled with vast fields of flowers, butterflies frolicking about nature's wonder. A waterfall clashed down onto the plunge pool below, the sonorous sound adorned by the cool whispers of breezes and melodious chirps of birds nearby. In the clear blue skies, a rainbow streaked across it like a lovers' bridge. The rainbow touched down gently on the ground, where pots of gold and happiness would surely be found. In the middle of this paradise was a little cottage. The wooden door opened abruptly, and a happy Duo bounced out, his arms hooked around his lover's. Smiles graced their lips as they enjoyed themselves under the bright sunshine.

"My brother, do you see? Right now our side is at the losing edge, and have lost many of our people. That's why we have to help. If we don't, this world and ours will crumple to dust in no time flat. No matter how much we don't want to, we *have* to go back. We are *needed* to fight in this… massacre, this… carnage. Many of our generals in the war have been seriously wounded. The troops are quickly losing hope, something we cannot afford now. We, although we may refuse to admit it, are some of the younger leaders of our world. If we offer our help, the troops may regain their faith and confidence because someone is willing to lead them to victory. The process is tedious and dangerous, and we may lose someone important along the way, but at the very least we may have a chance to win. This is *our* responsibility now. We can't skirt away from it." She explained patiently. Placing a comforting hand on his shoulder, she added, "I know that you can't bear to leave Heero, but we have to help. If we don't, how can you two get married? Once we win, Duo, we will truly be freed from Utopia and you can start your new life with Heero. Isn't that what you've always been dreaming of?" With a wave of her arm, the chess set disappeared.

"But Ves, the war can jolly well take up to years! And you *know* the time difference between Utopia and the ningenkai! It's one to fifteen! If I leave, I may never get to see Heero again!"

The black clad girl frowned. She was afraid of that as well. But they were left with no other options. They had to give up some things. In Duo's case, Heero could be one of those. With a sigh, she exhorted, "Wait for him. Look for his reincarnation."

"It's easier said than done. It's a new life, Ves. He wouldn't be Heero anymore. He wouldn't remember who I am or who I was to him." Duo forced out, swallowing the huge lump in his throat. He tried to ignore the stinging sensation in his eyes.

Vespera nodded her head sadly. "I know that. Every reincarnation brings about a new set of memories and emotions. He wouldn't resembled Heero in any way, much less remember anything about his past life or past love. But know this well, Duo. We are fighting, not only for the world, but also but him, and all of our other friends. If Utopia loses the war, there probably wouldn't be a Heero to fight for anymore. They'll all leave, die. We *are* the only ones who can do this now. Please understand." She pleaded mournfully. "I am prepared to leave Wufei as well. Onegai, niisan? " Vespera clasped her brother's icy hands in her, and gave them a firm squeeze. "Onegai."

Duo wavered for a moment. He knew how far the goddess of dreams had gone to get him to understand the situation. He had never ever seen her beg for anything. He thought the words didn't even exist in her vocabulary! But the sake of something important, she had swallowed her pride. Readily. Even so, the braided boy still felt some resistance left in him. "But Wufei isn't your lover. You don't understand how I feel." Shinigami accused softly.

His sister's posture turned rigid, then slump almost immediately, as though her previous stiffness was only his imagination. Looking away, her eyes fluttered close and slowly opened with a faraway expression. Duo worried that he had unwittingly hit a sensitive subject. His query was answered when she sighed, looking down at the white tiled floor. Dejectedly, she shook her head slightly.

"You're right. He's not my lover, or anything for that matter. I don't think he even takes me for a friend or comrade. But the passion I feel for him… it's the same passion you hold for Heero. He may not love me, but that does not make *my* love for him any lesser. I feel the pain of leaving a loved one as well. So how can you say I don't understand?" She whispered hoarsely.

"I… I…" Duo stuttered. He was at a loss as to how to apologize for his carelessness. How could he think so little of his sister's feelings? His guilt deepened as he noticed crystallized drops of gems were splashing onto the ground.

"Truth is, I hurt more than you. I love someone who won't ever return the gift. I can't even spend my last few days here with him. You," She laughed bitterly, "on the other hand, have Heero-who-loves-you-more-than-himself-Yuy to comfort you. You can always go to him to seek shelter when you've hurt. You can always go to him when you're tired. But what of me? Where do I go? Who do I look for? Nowhere. No one. I don't have anywhere to go. I don't have anybody to listen to me. I have nobody to comfort me. Do you know what it feels like?"

Duo swallowed the huge lump in his throat, guilt evident in his frown. "But… you still have me… and Heero. You can always… look for us if you need help. You know it."

She bit her lips. "Right, I know that. But when I see you two so involved with each other when we're in the same room, I just can't open my mouth. How can I tell someone who has their love fulfilled my problems? It feels like I'm trying to unload my burdens on someone who shouldn't get involved."

Shinigami suddenly found interest in the stained floor as he looked down at his feet in shame. Was this really how she felt? Perhaps he had been too involved with Heero to notice. What could he do to soothe Vespera's already bruised pride?

Taking in a couple of deep breaths and a careless swipe at her eyes, she swiftly regained her composure. As emotionally hurt she was, she knew it wasn't the time to sort this out.

"I can't promise you that we will come back alive, but we have to try. At least, we can be sure there's a chance of survival. After the war, we can come back and you will be able to be with Heero again. Maybe he'll be a couple years older than you, but we haven't got a choice." Yume sighed, "First off, we will have to wipe out the memories of us in this world to avoid any problems that might arise. Our friends will forget our existence, but I will return them the memories when we get back. And… well, we still have a week to settle everything. Spend this last week with him, Duo." She paused, not knowing how to continue. "Enjoy yourself, for there might not be a second chance to… I know I'm being a big-mouth, but I'm also being honest. We both know it's the truth." She faltered. Finally, she added in a crestfallen tone. "Forget about your missions for now, I'll take care of them."

Duo nodded, and slumped down into his chair. His head hung low, eyes spoke of unshed tears.

Vespera sighed for what seemed the umpteenth time as she stared at his frazzled state. Would they pull through this ordeal like the last? She didn't know. The only thing she was sure of was that chances of survival were slim. The fight would surely be bloody and grueling. Coming back alive was a difficult task by itself. Perhaps, one of them would die in the fight and never return.

If one of them would die, she silently prayed that it was going to be her. After all, she was the odd one out. She wasn't needed. Everyone had someone. But not her. Duo and Heero had just found love in one another; it wasn't fair for them to give it up so soon. Sure, they would grieve, and even be devastated. Most probably they'd cry for some time, but they had each other to help them pull through. Trowa, the cold and silent one. Maybe he'd shed a few silent tears, but that would be all. No point wasting precious tears on someone he barely knew. Besides, he would be only crying for the loss of a fellow pilot, not a friend. And the blonde pilot, ah, the ever kind one. Quatre would weep, that was for sure. But the sadness would not linger for long, either. He had Trowa, and Trowa had him. As for Wufei… What would his reaction be like? Nothing. Why would he cry over the loss of another stupid onna? Besides, he had Sally, didn't he?

'Wufei…' Vespera stared out into the night sky.

Sorceress Fantasia @ August 2000
Last revised 18th October 2001

Author's notes: Is this leading anywhere? ^_^;;; And by the way, any beta readers to recommend?