Kachime no Nai
A Yu Yu Hakusho fanfic
By Rose Thorne

Disclaimer: None of these characters are mine. Please don't assume that they are or I'll end up getting sued. They belong to Yoshihiro Togashi, Studio Perroit, and any other person who helped in the creation of this wonderful series. Thank you for giving me my Hiei-san!!

Chapter 11: Anger and Forgiveness

"And we stare each other down
like victims in the grind
Probing all the weakness
and hurt still left behind and we cry
The tears of pearls"
-Tears of Pearls, Savage Garden

Hiei
Yukina tried to kill me. The only reason I'm still alive is because I told her that I was her brother. Otherwise I'd be dead. I was right. The only reason she cares about me is because she feels obligated.

Kurama followed me when I left. He is trying to convince me to go back. Like hell.

"Hiei, you remember how you felt when she hated you. Don't you think she's going through the same thing? Can't you forgive her?"

"I don't care." Why should I care about anyone? No one's ever cared for me.

Kurama grabs me by the shoulders. "Don't talk like that! I know you care! You can't hide that from me!"

I wrench from his grip. "Why should I care?! She hated me until I told her!" I start to walk away.

"Hiei! At least come back to the temple!"

"I'm not going anywhere near there!" I snarl. "The only reason I'm here is because I have to be! Otherwise I get sent to a Reikai prison until doomsday."

"Please? For me?"

"Leave me alone, fox!" I leave him behind as I run. I don't need anyone.

I settle in a tree on the other side of the temple and hide my ki. I don't want anyone to come near me.

After a while I fall into an exhausted sleep.

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Hours later, I awake to see Yukina standing right in front of me, so close that I can't run. "What do you want?!" I snarl at her.

She doesn't back down. In fact, she moves closer. I flatten myself against the tree trunk. "Oniisan..."

"Get away from me!"

She doesn't obey me. "I love you, oniisan," she whispers and enfolds me in a hug. I struggle, but she won't let go of me. Finally, I surrender and allow her to touch me. "I'm so sorry! I don't blame you if you hate me..." She lets go of me and turns away. "I just want you to know that I love you." Evidently, she thinks that I'll be gone when she turns back around. I stay where I am. After a few minutes, she turns back around and gasps.

I look at her. "I don't hate you."

Tears fill her eyes. "But...I tried to kill you!"

I look away. "It's nothing new. People have tried to kill me since I was born."

She steps closer and hugs me again. I let her, but don't return the embrace. "Okaasan does love you. She tried to escape hundreds of times to go find you, but she was always caught." I gasp and pull away from Yukina. "It's true!" she says. Tear gems fall to the ground. Hers and mine. Yukina hugs me again, and this time, I hug her back.

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Yes, this is the end. I keep doing this to you, leaving off at a scene like this, but anything else I could say would sound really corny. I did this in Fruitcake too. Gomen nasai!

BTW- in case you were wondering...this fic was hopeless for Kuwabara.

Thayet: Yeah. 'Cause he died and nobody cared!

Bara: But...but Yukina cared!!

Thayet: She doesn't anymore! She let his killer live!

Bara: Thayet...You're really annoying! You know that!

Thayet: Yup!!

Bara: Now these poor fans are all confused because of you!!

Thayet: So?

Bara: Anyway...ignore Thayet...

And everybody but Kuwabara lives happily ever after!!

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