~~~ ~~~

I can remember the very first time I cried,
How I wiped my eyes,
And buried the pain inside.
All of my memories, good and bad that's passed.
Didn't even take the time to realize....

Starin at the cracks in the walls cause I'm waiting for it all to come to an end.
Still I curl up, right under the bed...
Cuz it's takin' over my head all over again...

(Do you even know who you are?)
I guess i'm tryin' to find..
(A borrowed dream or a super-star?)
I want to be a star.
(Is life good to you, or is it bad?)
I can't tell anymore..
(Do you even know what you have?)

Lyin awke,
Watchin' the sunlight.
How the birds will sing as I count the rings around my eyes.
Constantly pushin the world I know aside.
I don't even feel the pain, I don't even want to try.

I'm lookin' for a way to become the person that I dreamed of,
When I was sixteen.
Nothin is ever enouhg.
Oh baby it ain't ehough for what it may seem.

(Do you even know who you are?)
I'm still tryin' to find.
(A borrowed dream or a super-star?)
Everybody wants to be...
(Is life good to you, or is it bad?)
I can't tell anymore..
(Do you even know what you have?)
No.

(Sorry girl, tell a tale for me, cuz I'm wonderin' how you really feel..)
I'm a lonely girl, I tell a tale for you, cuz I'm just tryin' to make all my dreams come true.

(Do you even know who you are?)
Oh, yeah yeah.
(A borrowed dream or a super-star?)
Oh, I wanted to be a star...
(Is life good to you, or is it bad?)
I can't tell.. I can't tell anymore..
(Do you even know what you have?)
I guess not, oh, I guess not.

(Do you even know who you are?)
Oh, yeah yeah.
(A rising dream or a fallin' star?)
Oh, I have all these dreams..
(Is life good to you, or is it bad?)
I can't tell.. I can't tell anymore..
(Do you even know what you have?)
Oh, no no.

~~~ Lonely Girl - Pink ~~~

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April 14th

Dear Diary,

I know I usually write about Henry, maybe Ryo at times when I pick you up every night, but today, the digidestined team was shattered.
Takato announced at an 'urgent' meeting that the trips last summer to America were for a reason, and that he's leaving in a few weeks, and not coming back. Jeri was completly devastated, of course, and soon both poured out all their feelings to each others faces, right in front of everybody else.
I have to admit, no matter how much I try to not believe it, I'm going to miss that gogglehead. Probably miss making fun of him to his face more than anything else, but none the less I'll miss him.

Oh and that weird idea I got in my head about Henry wanting to propose to me? Not true. The whole secret was he dug up some information on my father for me. I'm meeting him tomorrow to see it. Maybe I'll finally crack the case of my father's identity. But I'm sure, soon enough, Henry will propose, and when that day comes I'll be ready to look him in the eye and say yes.

My doctor's appointment was today, he looked me over, asked me some questions, and told me that he believes all my memories have returned, and I'll be back to normal completly in a few weeks. It's better than not having them all back I guess, but my patience is going quickly. Takato told me that I'm missing one memory, he started explaining it in little details and I believe he's right, but he keeps harassing me about it, and says I better remember it before he leaves or I'll never get 'it' back. It's probably where my CD went to that I've been looking for.

Oh, and our school is pairing up with Henry's once more for a dance. This time, I'm not letting Henry down. That and I'm letting Mother pick out the dress, as long as there's not any lace, but I think she's understanding slowly what she's allowed to put on me.

Well I only have two more pages left in you, Diary, and I have a feeling I'm going to take up both them tomorrow if I find my father's identity.

- Rika Wong
(A girl can dream, can't she?)



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A/N: Anyone here vote for me to make this a trilogy or no? *laughs* sorry I'm just so overly happy I finished this. Now if I can get 50 reviews from this one chapter, I'll be set... *laughs again* sorry sorry, wishing again. Well either e-mail me at Iceprincess220@aol.com or review. Either works fine for me. I just wanna know what you think! ^_^