~*Chapter 5*~

“I Love you so much, and don’t you ever forget that ok?”

“I hate you, you lied to me! You… don’t come near me ever again!”

“You remember you called our child a mistake!”

“I love the man he used to be, not the man he is now.”

“Daddy.... Why did you do this? Why did you hurt my mommy? Don’t you love us?”

“Who are you? Your not my father, I’ve never had one, why should I have one now?”

“Higher daddy!” She yelled while laughing, “I Love you daddy.”

“Don’t touch us, I want you to stay away from her you hear me, stay away!”

Justin sat up sweating and looked at the clock. It was only two a.m. and he was already up. He felt horrible, was this dream trying to revile his guilty conscience? It was definitely bothering him that he most likely would never know this child. Issabell was a beautiful little girl. She had long silky brown hair and those beautiful brown eyes like her mothers. Her smile could light up the world just like her mothers. She had a really light complexion and she was full of life. He looked over his shoulder at a sleeping Christina and walked out onto the balcony. It didn’t matter what time it was in New York, it was always loud and people were moving around.

“Daddy! Daddy where are you?”

Justin looked around. Was this going to haunt him for forever? He was definitely hearing voices now and was about to crack.. This was going to drive him crazy. He definitely had to find Aaliyah later and sit down and have a talk with her about Issabell, because he didn’t want to miss anymore of his daughter’s life.

~*12:00 p.m.*~

“Hear I come.” Aaliyah yelled as she ran to the door. “Justin..” She said and looked at him with a surprised look on her face. “What are you doing here?” She asked and let him come in.

“We need to talk.” He said and looked at her and saw her crack a smile.

“About what? There’s nothing to talk about.” She said and walked past him and into the living room.

“We need to talk about Issabell.” He said and sat down across from her in a chair. “Were is she anyway?” He asked and looked at her.

“She’s with her grandmother.” She said and looked back at him.

“Don’t you think she spends enough time with your mother?” He asked and watched her laugh.

“My mother did I say anything about my mother?” She said and looked at him with a smile, “She’s with your mother.”

“There’s no way she could be with my mother because she’s at home in Tennessee plus my mother doesn’t even know about Issabell.” He said and looked her in her eyes.

“Your mother has been there for Issabell since day one, she made a promise with me that she wouldn’t bring this up to you. I told her that I just thought it was for the best so she kept it quite, she’s been there for me and Izzy a lot, and your mother’s in the city for a little while. She was coming to spend some time with Izzy while I was working.” Aaliyah said and smirked.

“So my mother knew all this time but wouldn’t tell me a thing.” He said and watched her nod.

“She wanted to see her grandchild too so I said sure, I mean she adores her so why not.”

“Aaliyah listen, I’m sorry about all of the things I said that night. I truly regret every word that came out of my mouth ok.” He said and looked her in her eyes, “But please let me see my daughter, I would hate to have to live without knowing my daughter.”

She saw in his eyes he meant it and she really didn’t know what to say. Half of her wanted to say no while the other side wanted to say yes. “Ok fine you can see Issabell, but have you forgot that you have to tell Christina about this?”

He was glad she said ok but forgot about Christina. This was going to be a living nightmare. “I know I have to tell her. Look I’m going to go home and tell her and how about I come by tomorrow afternoon to see Izzy?” He said and looked at her smile. He was happy to see her smile again. She hadn’t smiled in awhile.

“Ok,” She said and looked at him. “Good luck with Christina you might want to have 911 in speed dial, she was a good person Justin.” She said and laughed.

“Oh go to hell.” He said and shook his head as he stood up with a smile. “One thing about you that hasn’t changed is your cruel sense of humor.”

“Just to let you know, it won’t ever change.” She said and smiled.

~*10:00 p.m.*~

“Christina, we need to talk.” Justin said and looked at her. “There’s something I should have told you three years ago.” He said and watched her raise an eyebrow.

“Ok, so what is it?” She asked and sat down across from him at the table. “I’m ready to listen.”

“Just please hear me out before you say anything, ok?” He said and watched her nod.

“Ok I will.” She said and looked at him. “This is serious isn’t it?” She asked and watched him nod his head yes.

“Well you know when we were talking to Aaliyah yesterday and she told us about Issabell’s dad.” He asked.

“Yeah, but what does that have to do with you?” She asked.

“Well, I’m Issabell’s father, and that woman she was talking about is you.” He said and shook his head. “This has been bothering me since she told the story over and it’s just been haunting me that I haven’t been there for Issabell and her when they needed me the most.” He sighed, “Now I totally regret some of the things I said to her that night, I feel really bad that I never told you this, and I will forever hate myself for not seeing my daughter for three years, but Christina please forgive me and see where I’m coming from, I love you ok, and I don’t want to be with out you ever.”

Christina sat there with her mouth open for awhile before she could just muster up what she was feeling at the moment. “Why didn’t you tell me sooner, I mean you just left her when she was pregnant! When she needed you.” She said and shook her head. “How could you?” She asked and then looked at him, “I love you too but you know that I’m going to have a hard time trusting you anymore.” She said, “You lied to me Justin, you didn’t tell me that I was like your other woman, that you were involved with Aaliyah at the same time. Justin you left her and that baby by themselves and that’s not right.”

“I know and I realized that I really did.” He said and sighed. “That’s why tomorrow I’m going to just spend some time with Issabell.”

“I’m glad your trying to make up the lost time with your daughter. Hopefully you’ll do fine.” She said and smiled. “Justin, I think it would be good that tomorrow I should stay somewhere else because I need some time to think alright.” She said and looked at him.

“Ok, I understand this is a lot to put all on one person in one night.” He said and smiled, “I’m going to bed alright, I want to get up early so I have enough time to figure out all of my daughters likes and dislikes.” He said and watched her laugh.

“Ok, goodnight.” She said and watched her husband go upstairs. She hoped that this wasn’t going to change anything because if it did she was going to do what she thought she had to do.