This is the title of a song by Type O Negative it just so happens to make me happy.  SO happy that it's on my Happy Cd rightbetween the Sun Is A Mass Of Incadescent Gas and the SunScreen Song, is this slow sounding song about how everything dies.  Now for reasons that are unclear to everyone else this song makes me increadably happy.  A guy singing all peacfully and mellowly about how people die is just so cool.

Speaking of my happy cd... umm shit I dunno how to start this one... umm well I think it's something everyone should have.  76 minuts of music that is there simply to cheer you up and make you happy is a good thing no mattter which way you look at it.  In the past few weeks that pretty much all I've been listening to untill my cd player started acting oddly.  Now utilizing the power of my portable mp3 player and a smile I've just finnished putting the playlist together for my other happyness cd.   Looking back I realized that I've given away 3 copys of that cd and I'm makeing two more for my freinds.  They all also want copys of the sequal, I think this is a good thing because hey Im bringing joy and happyness in the form of music into other peoples lives.  K onto something more entertaining...

ah never mind I'm tired of ranting... next updawte then

You know we're all locked in our own little cells, bound down and restriced with so many limitations and restrictions it's amazeing that we can do anything at all.   We are our own prison told when to eat when to sleep I laugh to myself when I hear some one bragging that they willingly stayed up for 62 hours, your gonna pay for it in the end.  But I can't fault them for they are trying to escape.    Like every good prisoner they dream of the day where they will be free.   It's just that some people are more proactive about this than others.  This prison it personied by the basic building block in which we are made up of (the cell).   I mean holy shit we are literaly trapped with our own cells.  Funnly enough as much as we dream of freedom we fear it as well.  Our freedom looms next to us on an very day basis and yet we are to afraid to take it.  The power to be free from our cells is within all of us but we are held back by fear of what lies beyond.  This is so amazeingly facinateing... maby the reason incarceration is such a punishment is because it so closely mirrors our real everyday lives, except that the restrictions are exterior instead of interior.   Wow this is so cool... umm I can't put it all into words.    I'll come back to this.

You know there are buntches things against advritiseing.    These's even a magazine devoted to uncovering ads and their tricks, it's called adbusters.  In the rant above I basicly bashed the media and the way we advirise.   Yet still I wanna be one of them.  I wanna play a bigger part in the greatest phycholocial exparament ever than just a hapless gunnie pig.  I wanna be one of them, a faceless, nameless, man who dictates what you see on tv in between the shows you so love.  I wanna beable to warp and controll your minds to the piont where you will unquestionalbly will buy my product and fight like a rabid dog for it's good name when you hear someone else soil it.  Is that wrong?  I think so... well don't worry it's only a dream.  But should I become one of them I'll camoe in every one of my comercials.  Ah well fear not it's only a dream.

you know this started off on a compleatly diffrent topic but in the middle of what I was typeing something intresting happend in the real world that I thought I would share with you.  My Step-Mom decided that now would be a good time to clean up the kitchen befor going to bed (it's 10:41 pm saturday night) and she askes me in a somewhat concerned voice if I ate any pizza or not.  Now I expected a somewhat boring lecture on how I should eat dinner blah blah blah but instead something diffrent happened.   She didn't care that I didn't eat anything exept 2 eggs the entire day nope the only thing that bothered her was the fact that she payed $22 for 1 pizza that I didn't eat.  I was planning on eating later, in fact that's what I cam into the kitchen to do but I realized that whole thing about cells so I decided to type that up before I lost it.  Anyways she goes on for about 5 minuts about how she wasted her precious $22 on me then put the pizza in the frige next to all the other leftovers in there.  THen all the sudden it hit me she was just complaining about how we waste so much food on leftovers and the one time she has a chance to provide a good example she buys pizza and creats more left overs.  This is amazingly funny to me and I'm trying my best not to laugh out loud.   Wow I think she just said that I owe her $22 for the pizza but I can't really tell cause I got my head phones on.  Why is it that parents assume that you can hear them?  Anyways  she's still talking about this and that to me... I wonder if she know's I'm typeing this as she speaks.  Oh well I'm gonna go now cause now I wanna read a book.

You know what I don't agree with the concept of toast at all.    I mean thiink about it, people spend all this time and effort to make the bread.   They get the materials they knead the dough, and bake it.  All this work and preperation gose into it just so that we can enjoy this work of art.   Then what do we do?  We take it home and BURN IT!!!!.  Simply because we aren't satified with cooking it once.  Don't you think that that's wrong... hmmm a nice peice of bread I think I'll BURN IT then eat it.  Shure what the hell... but so help you god if you burn anything else, oh no!!!  YOu burn the twinkies or poptarts you get sent dirctely to HELL!!!  No death no judgement just strait to hell.    It's the most usless thing anyone could do to a perfactly good peice of bread.

Do you know of that extreamly stupid show do  you wanna be a millionare?  Yeah so do I well you know what it's replaceing jepordy!!!    HOW WRONG IS THAT.  I mean when ever that smart kid spouts something in the corrner people say wow that's some thing you'd here on Jepordy, but not it's that other show they mention.  ARRRRGHHH that is so amazeingly wrong and disturbing.   When a teacher is going to have a fun day in class we play do you wanna be a millionare instead of Jepordy!  You don't think it's true?  well it's already happened to us (we lost over 5 million $).  THis is bad not don't get me wrong I don't like Jepordy at all but it's like baseball you can't get rid of it.  It's to there to do that.   Figh back watch jepordy and shun that other show the fate of your country hangs in the balence.

You know I don't call people but I never really expleained why.   Well now is the time to do this.  YOu see I have a busy life from the time I get home till the time I sleep I am doing things.  Now the stuff I'm doing my sound trivial and silly but it's is stuff and it's important to me.  The only time I take time out to contact the rest of the qworld is when I check my web page or I leave aim running.  YOu see I will drop everyrthing I am doing an talk to one of my freinds if they call me first.  It simply dosn't matter what I am doing cause they are all so much more important to me than my peddy needs.  When the phone rings I drop things, but untill then I am busy busy busy.    This is fine with me me I mean I'm hardly ever lonely and whenever anyone needs me they can call at anytime, write me an e-mail which I constantly check or im me.  Then I will get back to you.  Also another reason I don't call people is because I'd hate to be a bother to some people.    These are the same people that say that it's always a pleasure to talk to you Mike, then they tell me about how much they hate this kid because he always calls.   That and I just don't see the need, if I want to say something it can wait untill tomarrow, and it it's really important I'll e-mail you and tell you tomarrow.  It's very rare that I find osomething that's so improtant that it can't be said the next day I mean come on, the world won't end if they got to wait a while.  Anyways so that's why I don't call people...

Recently I've discovered that I have an easy, fun, and efficent way of getting through my weeks.  Okay here it goes, Monday I wake up and I feel great, you wanna know why cause I got a whole brandy new week that hasn't been fucked up yet!   That's right a new day with old problems in the past caus they were around last week.  I go to skool with the though in my mind well here's a day I don't hjave to unfuck to make good!  Cause it hasn't started yet.  I try to keep this attidude from day to day but it dosn't work as well as it dose on Mondays.  Okay now on to the next day!  Tuesdays are worth celebrateing for two reasons one you got through the hardest day of the week and survived and two the week is almost half over.   The way the week is almost half over idea works like this... Monday is hard but if you get through Monday then the rest of the week should be no problem for ya at all.    And when you get to Tuesday that means it's almost Wensday which means the week is almost half over.  HUZZAH you only have 3 more days to go and you still survived Monday.  Should for some reason you have a really crappy monday rember you got through last monday just fine also.  Now on to Wensday.  Wensday has the least reasons to celebrate... just that you managed to make it to the middle of the week and your still breathing!!!  I mean will ya look at that you got through monday and tuesday and your still breathing and relavitly all together snaity wise.  Yeah moveing on to Thursday well what do you have to celevbrate... why just one more day untill Friday!  What could be better.  Now Friday, well you made it and you managed to get through 4 other days just to get to it.  That means that there is no way in hell that you wouldn't be able to get through Friday, hell you got through Monday didn't you?    That is how I get through my weeks.  Think it's messed up?  Well it's gotten me this far hasn't it?

a frend ov mine nammmed Evan haz diceded tha he is going to spell chek my wed page.  Good luk lille buttie.  

You know many people conciter 12:00 toi be the witching hour but I feel that this is not so.  I mean it's only midnight.  For me if there is any time of spirtual revival or whatnot it happens at 3am.  To me 3am is a symbol the time of night where I decided if I'm going to bed or waiting till 3am the next night to make that desition.  It is a time of skinny dipping phone calls intresting converstions on chat rooms among other things.  It is a time where I come alive, why this is is two fold one reason is it is a time of freedom and happyness, two is umm well I dunno but I know that the first reason isn't everything.  3am equals freedom, when your out and about no one else is around to bother you, got your alone time right there.   I'm a nudist I don't like to wear my cloths I find them cumbersome.  When it's that late I really don't half to wear them anymore since there is no one else around to see me (I do not need my parents to see me neekid).  Next I get to talk out loud to myself which is always a plus.  You may say that I can do that anyways but for some reason I don't.  The only time I really get good conversations going is really really early in the morning, and on my way home from skool.  Anyways it's just a time where I feel.   It really can't be explained, it can really only be felt.  Maby I'll write a peom to better convey my feelings.

You know I really really love to walk home from skool or another freinds house if they don't live to far away.  This is because well it gives me time to think ponder and refine myself.  When I walk home it gives me time to trhink about the events of the day look at them from diffrent angles, see where I've made mistakes and try to make shur I never make them ever again.   It also gives me time to be thankful for everything I have and it makes me think about how fortunate I really am.   It gives me time to apreciate the beuty of the world around me and realize that life isn't so bad after all.  NOt a bad way to spend 15 minuts of my day.

You know for some people liveing alone is a viable and wonderful option that they can live with and enjoy.  It isn't nessisary for everyone to be with people to be happy.  Once again my Dad will be the case and piont.  YOu see right now he is pretty much alone, my mom hardly speaks to him but that's okay because he has his books and reading materials and he is just as happy as a clam spending his exsitense alone.  He's happy but would most of you be... I think I might be able to but I would much rather be around people. 

You know purple is trulely an amazeing color.   It rarely apears in nature but when it dopse it is truely stunning.    Only in flowers, sun rises and sunsets is the true essense of purple is catupred.   Espacialy in the latter two.  When you walk outside on that fateful morning with a smile on your face and a song in your heart and you turn and you see that brilliantly colored sky that can only be captured by the master that is nature you know your gonna have a good day.  But when some of thouse clouses or part of the horizizon is that amazeing shade of purple it is a memorie of a life time.  Hells yeah...

I am one of thouse looser people who need to get more than five hours of sleep every night in order to carry out my daily life functions.  If I don't get this all sorts of bad things begin to happen... burt then the last few weeks happend.  You see I have allergies and I live in Florida.   The combonation is about as deadly as you can possibly get.   It has all but eleminated my abilty to sleep.   THen with skool getting in the way my sleep has been dwindleing more.  NOw I've entered this sort of bizzare realm where I'm afraid that if I go to sleep that I won't wake up for a few days but if I don't sleep soon I'll just be walking along one day and I'll just fall over and not get up for a long long time.   My only saveing grace and blockade against insanity is my god damned allergies!   WOW my curse is my savor...how poetic.  During my adventure of sleeplessness I've learned many strange and newe things.  One as long as no complex social situations are thrown my way I can function just fine.   Of course when they are thrown my way I just sit there like a dumbass untill the problem either goes away or spirals so far out of my controll that my  intervention would only hurt the situation.  THe next thing is, you know when your really sleepy it takes a whole hell of alot a caffineen to keep you awake.  Just me and one of my freinds used up over 40 pakets of equal and ice tea mix in our quest not to sleep.  It worked only kinda, but that was good enough.   Next you know when you breakdown when your sleepy you really really go far far down.   Lastly when your tired enought your body just says aw screw it, I'm tired of telling you what to do go out and have some fun.  THen you become really really super ultra happy and hyper and you bounce around and go BRRRRRRRR alot.   That's kinda what's happening to me now except I'm coming down from it and my body will need to recharge.   K well thats that

recently I went to a literary convention with a few people from my class and it was fun.  But enough of that while I was there I hung out with Shahar, Lior's older brother.  Shahar (sean from here on in) is one of thouse kids who likes to flirt with girls a whole hell of alot, and so while I was hanging out with him I got to observe and participate.  By the end of the weekend he was calling me a chick magnet and and was planning to bring me places to use my powers of atracting the opposite sex.   When he told me this I was like that is the strangest thing anyone has ever said to me.  And it is you've seen my pictures on the digital scrap book and you know that I'm not all that much to look at.  Ah well who am I to argue maby some one can explain this to me...