Coagping with my disability is not easy. Though God didn't say for it to be, Neither did He say life would be.
My Muscular Dystrophy is NOT so easy for me or any one to deal with. My brother and I, both have a tough struggle on our hands. It really scared US! I mean the family to death, ESPECALLY my mom.
I didn't really think much about my disability at first. It was like I could of really didn't care, But
NOW as I am getting older, It's beginning to get much harder on me, to do alot of things on my own.
But without Jesus in my Life I really don't know if I could handle this disability, He is my only true salvation and guide....PTL for that.
I want every body to know this, it's hard and very hard to hold back the tears while I am writng this. And also if I would not have you ALL and my mom I don't know where I'd be today...so I'm taking one day at a time.
It is very depressing for anyone that lives with a disaility, BUT if you don't have faith and trust in the Lord you will never make it in life alone.
I have a lot of faith now, at the age of 15 on up till I was divorced, I had NO faith NOR trust in the Lord like I do now, He has blessed me and my family in so many ways.
There are times when I Backslide, I'm Depressed, Discouraged, Doubting, my Faith fails and I need Guidance.
This is why I say I loose faith and backslide, sometimes I feel LIKE God has given up on me, but in my heart I know He really hasn't. So thats why I need to keep my faith strong in the Lord.
For I know their will be a miracle on the way.
Michelle, my daughter, oh you have so much more faith than anyone I know. You have come a long way in your life and God has blessed you over and over again. And, YES, that miracle will come one day! It may not be here on earth, but my precious, it will be done in heaven and you will walk again. You will have a perfect body in every way as you may not see it now, but God does and as I do! Faith is what you have and know that I love you, JUST AS YOU ARE!!
Love,
Mom aka cajunlady47
"My Disability"
Sometimes you are born and asked to carry a heavy load.
It can make you feel as if your not worth much and you have to be shown.
My disabilities take over and sometimes they stifle my life.
Jesus comes along and ends all these thoughts and stops all the anger and strife.
I have a choice to drown in my sorrows or thank Him for he gave me a free will.
I picture my Jesus as He is carrying that cross to Calvary hill.
The pain gets so heavy and things I once have done. I find myself not being able to do and I hate to depend on everyone.
My God in His silence and His warm gentle ways. reminds me to come for His help each and every day.
I slip and I slide backwards on Him I forget to call. The anguish is so heavy I stumble and fall.
For in the pits and the valley's I didn't realize He wanted me to show . To take up His armor and that's where I would grow.
When I was young I acted like a child and I just didn't care. Now as an adult I know my Jesus has always been right there.
There to see me through all my cloud of darkness and all my fear. That my cross was much easier because now I know He is near.
When there misdoubts and weakness I know He is close by. He takes all my sins for on that dogwood tree He did die.
My life is an open book for everyone to see. I have been dealt an iniquity.
not like for His life was taken for me. My pain and suffering still come and they hurt down deep.
My mom is my mentor and my special friend and her I will always keep. She says in heaven I will be healed and I will walk among angels I will be whole and so strong.
Jesus is my guiding light and in Him I will never go wrong.. He is with me when I sin and when I have doubt. His forgiveness and love is what my life is all about. No one is perfect we all have an affliction of some kind. it enters our being and clogs up our mind.
With our blessed savior He rescues us from all of our sorrowing pain. and if we are faithful in us he will remain. so I take up my cross and turn to the Lord and I will praise Him for all the pain that He bore. amen!!
Written by Nancy hoback 2002 for Michelle