This is not very pretty and may even
make you cry or get angry but please
remember it is the past and God
said we must forgive those who have hurt
us and go on with our lives. Yes I know
some of you are saying
that is easer said than done. I have
never said that it would be easy. It
took me many years to forgive.
And it was not easy. But God has told me
to cleanse my soul of all that would
stand in the way of my walk down His
pathway torwards home. So I am writting
this to try and make a final wash of my
soul and heart. You must also know that
what happned to me I have
never told my brothers or my sister any
of it. And what happned to me sexualy
happend more times to my sister Linda. I
did not know this tell just recently.
I am very sorry sis and I love you very
much.
I may jump around in the story and I
pray you willforgive me if I do
Sometimes it hurts so much that I
have to find a happer time to think
about.
I was born Febuary 2, l942. The name on
My birth certificate for my father and
mother says, Vera Hathaway and for my
father, Bill Hathaway. Remember
this becouse It will come up later in my
life.
These were very hard times for everyone
I was told. My sister Linda,
who is four years older than I am told
me we lived under a
blanket streached out over a line for a
very long time. Then daddy had a boxcar
from and old train
brought up on the mountian where we
lived. Daddy was in the army so he
wasen't there and my mother only
came around when dads check came in the
mail. My brother Bill, who was the
oldest kept us alive by
going down the mountian and milking a
cow of the neighbors for Walter, one
year older than I, and me.
He cooked grass and anything he could
find for Johnnie, Linda and himself.
Linda said that one time
he found a turtle and put it in the pot
shell and all. When it was done they
didn't know how to get the
meat out so they just had the juice.
My very first memory was of a fire. I
and my brother Walter were asleep in a
dresser drewer. Linda and
Johnnie who were only 5 and 6 went under
the boxcar and set fair to it by
placeing a bunch of leaves
under there and setting fire to it. I
remember seeing the flames. I was
screaming becouse I was so scared.
Walter was cying also. Linda said the
neighbor lady saw the smoke and came to
get us out. She got Walter
out first then she got me out but not
before it had started burning my rigtht
thigh. Oh God how it did hurt. I
remember screeming and no one
seemed to hear or to care. To this day I
am very scared of fire.
Bill said that not to long after this
the courts came and took us away becouse
I had almost died of
rickets.
The next memory I have is at a foster
home. I remember a big white farm house
that had a white gravel road and a big
oak tree beside the road. I remember
seeing daddy walking down the road whith
a smile on his face and I ran to him and
he picked me up and put me on his
sholders and carried me back to
the house. Linda always ran and hid from
him. I never knew why tell I got older.
I believe I was about 5 at
this time. Sometime after that Linda and
I went to live with daddie and his wife
Mary Lou.
This is where the bad times happen. I
remember daddie comming home around 1 in
the morning and jerking eather Linda or
myself out of bed and beating us tell we
were raw with welps all over us. Then he
would lay us across the bed and pour
rubbing alacol all over us just to hear
us yell. I asked him why he
did this and he would say "He wanted to
make sure that If we did something wrong
during the day and Mary Lou didn't catch
it this would take care of it.
My daddy was a very mean person. So was
his wife.
I remember one time when Linda and I
were out playing in the yard and Mary
Lou came out and yelled at us
becouse we didn't get the watermellon in
the bathtub of ice water like she told
us to. She grabed us both
by the hear of the head and drug us over
to the metal tub and put our heads in
and held us down. We tried to figtht her
but we couldn't. She would bring us up
after a while and push us back down. She
wanted to drown us I realy believed.
Then she finealy pulled us
out and beat each of us tell we bleed.
That morning when daddy got home he
pulled us both out of the bed
and beat us again and then he also
poured the alcohol on us also.
When I think about these things I know
it was by the grace of God that Linda
and I are alive today.
Daddy went to an auction once and
brought home a
mule. I named him Tink. I loved that
mule. He was my
mule. Every time daddy tried to get him
to plow the
garden old Tink would sit down and not
move. Daddy
would bet him with a board and still
Tink wouldn't
move. Then daddy would call me "Barbara
Josephine
you get out here and get on this mule"!
You see old
Tink wouldn't let anyone on his back but
me. He
wouldn't work for anyone but me. He was
my mule and I
loved him and he knew it. I got to ride
while daddie
plowed the garden. We always had a real
nice garden
cause Linda and I had to keep it
weeded.
One day Mary Lou came outside and told
me I had to
let Linda ride my mule. Now Linda didn't
want to ride
old Tink but Mary Lou made her anyway.
Well, I knew
old Tink wasent going to let her on
unless I told him
it was ok. So I led him to a rock by the
clothes line
and told Linda to get on. She did and I
led Tink a
little ways close to another rock and
told Tink
"NOW" and he bucked her off right on
that rock. Boy
was it funny. Of course Linda didn't
think it was
funny. And neither did Mary Lou. Boy she
pulled my
pants down and spanked me hard. I guess
I deserved
that one. But was it ever fun.
We never had birthdays while were living
there. We
got one present on christmas and that
was all. I
remmber one christmas. Daddy asked us
what we wanted
and and Linda said she wanted a doll. I
didn't want
anyold doll cause that was sissie stuff.
I wanted a
cowboy outfit with guns. I just knew
that was what I
was going to get and I was realy excited
Christmas
morning. Dady gave Linda her present
first and it
was a pretty doll like she wanted. Then
he handed me
mine. I was so excited I tore it open
real fast. I
stoped and looked at it. It wasen't my
cowboy outfit
with a gun. It was a cowgirl outfit and
no gun. I
cried and I cried. Daddy asked me why I
was crying
and I told him, through my tears, that I
wanted a
cowboy outfit with guns not a cowgirl
outfit. I
was'nt a sissie and I wasen't going to
wear a cougirl
outfit. For The very first time in my
life, and the
last, daddy told her to take it back and
get me what
I had asked for. I realy loved my daddy
that
daya.
I remember the first time daddy cought
me smokeing.
My next door neighbor was an Indian boy
named Ted
Webster. We did everything to gether so
I thought it
was about time for him to learn how to
smoke. So we
went out to the canyon and set there and
I was
teaching him how to roll you own with
HALF-HALF
cigarette tobacto that I had stolen from
daddie when
he wasent home. Well we were doing
pretty good tell
daddy had to come out to take a dump. We
had an
outhouse but he liked to go off the side
of the
cliff. He came out there and we were so
busy smokeing
we didn't even see him untell he
hollored "Barbara
Josephine come here"! Well, I knew
better than to run
but Ted now let me tell you that boy
could run and
jumpe the finces real good. He was realy
scared of my
dad. I was also but I knew better than
to run. Anyway
Daddy grabed me by the hear of the head
and drug me
to the house. He cut a hand full of buck
brushes off
the tree and precided to beat me. When
he got tired
she took over and keep beating me. I
tried to hide
under the table but that only made them
even madder.
After they had beat me with all the
switches Mary Lou
got out her cowhide belt and started on
me again. I
was about 7 when this happned. after
they got through
with that then they made me smoke a
cartoon of camels
and when I had done that they made me
smoke two great
big cigars. Let me tell you I was one
sick little
girl.
The next day at school I got hit in the
head
with a rock. I was always takeing up for
the kids
that got picked on. My nickname was Joe.
Anyway one
of the little girls came and was crying
to me saying
"Joe he took my nickle for the trollie
and now I
don't have a way to get home cause I
don't have
another nickle." Well I took off down
the hill after
him and all the kids came behind me and
then the nuns
and the priest came after them. When I
got almost to
him at the bottom of the hill he crossed
the street
and picked up a rock and through it at
me. I kept
running as far as I could and the blood
got in my
eyes and I couldn't see anymore. Then I
fell down.
the prist came and picked me up and
carried me to the
doctors office. While he was doing this
the other
kids caught the boy and beat the snot
out of him and
gave the little girl back her money so
she could get
home. At the doctors office he sewed up
my head and
when he pulled down my paints to give me
a shot he
asked me what happned to me and I told
him I fell out
of a tree. I couldn't tell him my daddy
beat me. I
was to scared. Then they took off my
clothes and saw
all the marks on me. They knew what had
happned but I
didn't tell them. I was too scared.
I remember on day Johnnie was there for
a visit and
dad and Mary Lue were in town and
Johnnie had a BB
jun. He was aming it right at me and I
kept hiding
from him I looked under the old car
setting in the
yard an said "Ha ha you can get me!"
Well the next
thing I knew I was bleed in out my
mouth. He had shot
my tooth out of my mouth I was realy
scared. When
Daddy came home I was still bleeding and
he asked me
what had happned I old him I fell out of
the tree.
They took me to the dienist to get it
fixed. The dr.
asked me what happned and I told him I
fell out of
the tree. He told me that I could not
have done that
by faling out of a tree. I was realy
scared cause I
knew what daddie would do if he knew the
truth. The
dr told me that he wouldn't tell him is
I would just
tell him the truh. Well I did tell him
and
the doctor went and told my father after
he told me
he wouldn't. My father went to the Tulsa
Boys Home,
in Oklahoma, and grabed Johnnie off the
baceball
field and beat him right there in frount
of all his
friends and family. Johnnie cried and
ran back into
the home. Daddy took me home and he beat
me and beat
me. Then he laid me over the bed and
poured alcohol
all over me. So I got two beatings in
one day.
I had to ride him down the canyon also
to haul wood
daddy cut. He would tie a big log behind
him and we
would pull it up the mountian to the
house so daddy
could cut it up. It was so cold when he
did
the cutting. He would build a fire in
the crevice of
a rock and wouldn't let us go get warm.
He said that
if we got too warm we wouldn't want to
work. He would
go in there all the time to get
warm.
One time my best friend Ted Webester, who lived across the street, wanted to ride Tink. I told him that no one could ride him but me and he said,"I'm an Indian and I'm not scared of anything." So I said ok and got on the back and let him get on the frount. Well, I got Tink to going pretty fast and then I gabed him in the flanks and asid "NOW Tink`'' and he puat his head down and his feet stright out and Ted went flying off over his head. I thought I woud rool over dead with lauging at him Even Tink was laughing. Have you ever heard a mule laugh? Well iat's a real loud bray like He-ha over and over again. Now Ted never asked me to ride my mule again.,p.,p. One day daddy put Tink in the back of the truck and told me that he was going to take Tink to the glue factory becouse he wasen't good for anything at all. "I pleaded with him to please dont take my mule. Tinks a good mule. He works real hard. Please daddy don't take my mule I love him." "You don't love this mule and I'm going to take him becouse he will make good glue." I pleaded with him and he wouldn't listen to me. I cried and cried. He was taking the only thing I loved and that had ever loved me. To this day I love Tink. I know he is with god in heaven with all the other animals.
Now did I tell you That I was ornery? Well, I was. One day daddy brought home a load of pecan shells to go on the road. He told Linda and I to unload them. While we were unloading them I got Linda down and tied her hands and feet and put pecan shells all down her pants. Boy was she mad at me. She told me she was going to beat me up when I let her go. Well, I jumped out of the truck and was laughing at her because she was such a sight. When she got undone she started chasing me. I ran towanrd the canyons and when I got there I jumped them. I knew she wouldn't jump them because she was a sissy and was scared. I used to jump the canyons all the time. It was fun. Daddy called us and told us we were going into town. Linda and I jumped into the back of the truck and we all went to Sand Springs. Daddy stopped at an icecream store and when he came out he had one cone. He gave it to Linda and told me I couldn't have one becouse I was a bad girl. This hurt becouse I was just playing with Linda. I had to watch her eat that all the way home.
I remember the time he cut off my brades. I loved my brades. That was the only thing about being a girl that I liked. Linda was given some money for some work she had done for a neighbor and she had put it in a white tobacoo pouch and hung it on a nail by the frount door. One day she took the money to school and spent it. When daddy came home he got us up and asked us where the money was. Linda said she didn't know. That it was there this morning that I must have taken it. I told him that I hadn't taken it. I knew Linda had but I wasen't going to tell on her. He pulled off my clothes and beat me and then he cut off my brades. The spanking hurt but the brades hurt even more. I kept them for such a long time tell Mary Lou found them and through them away. That is why to this day I will not have long hear. Linda told one of the nuns at school what happned and she told her that she had to tell daddy. Linda was so scared. She told daddy and he did the same thing to her.
We used to go down the cayon and swim in a lake down there. Linda didn't know how to swim. She was very scared of the water. Mary Lou told daddy to throw her in to make her swim or drown. Well daddy picked her up and carried her out as far as he could walk and through her in. He told her she would eather swim or drown. She went down twice and I tried to help her but daddy grab me and told me that if I tried to help her he would drown me. After she went down twice she started dog paddling to the side and when she got there daddy went and threw her back in again. To this day Linda dosen't swim.
Walter who is one year older than I am loved daddy very much. One day daddy got mad at him and yealed at him "you aren't my son. Your just a bastard" This hurt Walter oh so very much. He went and climed his favoret tree and daddy told him, "you have to come down some time then I'll get you!" Well Walter stayed in that tree crying and didn't come down tell he knew daddy was asleep.
We lived about 10 miles from Sand Springs where we wen't to school. Daddy told us that if we ever missed the bus that we would have to walk home. That ment we had to cross the Arkansas River bridge. I was very scared of this bridge becouse it was very high and daddy had told us that if we ever fell into it that we would drown becouse it had wherrl pools in it and they would suck you up and pull you under and if you couldn't hold you breath long enough that you wold drown. I used to have nightmears about those pools. Any way we missed the bus. Which I found out later that Linda did it on purpuse. So that ment we had to walk home. I was alright tell we got to the bridge. Linda ran across and I got on my hands and knees and crawled and prayed. I couldn't look down and I couldn't close my eyes. I was so scared. When I got to the other side Linda was across the road talking to a lady and a man in a car. She told me to come on over that it was momma. I didn't know who this momma person was so I took off running up the hill towards home. When I got to the top I stoped and wated on Linda to catch up. When she got there she made me promise that I woldn't tell daddy or Mary Lou anything about seeing momma. She told me that this lady was my mother Vera. I never told anyone about that day. But this was the begenning of things to change in our lives.
I didn't know it but Linda had been talking to a social worker named Bob Talbet. He would come to the school and talk to Linda. She would tell him about the things that happned at home. He gave her his card and told her that if it got too roung at home to give him a call and he would take care of things. Back then their wasen't any laws about child abuse.
You may want to skip over this part of the story becouse it's not very nice.
My father started sexuly messing around with me when I was about 6 years old. The first time was when I had stayed home from school becouse I was sick. He came into my room and set on my bed and started rubbing my head telling me he was sarry I was sick and that he could make me better. I didn't know what he was talking about. He kissed me on my forhead and kept kissing me on down my body. Then he started messing with my privets. I tried to make him stop but he wouldn't. He kept this up for a very long time thn he went down on me. It hurt so much. All I could do was cry. When he got through he told me I had to get up and wash the blood out of the sheets before Mary Lou got home and to tell her that I had wet the bed so I had to wash the sheets. That was the begenning of hell. I have never told anyone of this. Not even my sister. I knew that if I did that he would kill me for sure. He's dead now and he can't hurt me anymore. Linda told me just recently that he did this to her many times. She was scared of him also.
A CHILDS PRAYER
I heard the prayer of my special child
today.
I heard her cry out in such a painful
way.
This prayer tore my heart and made me
cry.
She kept asking over and over "God tell
me why"?
"Why does daddy yell and hit me so very
hard."
"All I was doing was getting real dirty
in the yard."
"Why does he always scream God and cuss
at me so?"
"God won't you please tell me cause I
really need to know."
And God tell me why my mommie drinks so
very much.
It's been such a long time God since
I've felt her touch.
She's always angry God, she says it's
cause I've been bad.
God tell me please do I have to always
be so lonely and sad?
I know you love me God cause you told me
you did.
You know God it's sure hard being a
kid.
You know God if I didn't have you to
talk to each day.
I don't think I could stand it I would
probably run away.
Sometimes God I just want to come home
to be with you.
Because there God I will always be happy
and not ever blue.
No one will hit me or call me bad and
ugly names.
No one will tell me they hate me it
wouldn't be the same.
Thanks God for listening to my prayers
tonight.
I'll try not to make them mad and do
what's right.
And thanks God for the Angel you sent to
keep me safe.
I'll try to make them happy God and keep
a smile on my face.
Good night God and thanks again for
loving me.
And oh yes God, when you look down, a
smile you'll see.
Cause I know God no matter what else
comes my way.
That you love me and you'll keep me safe
some way.
bjw-l999
This prayer is for all those who had to
hurt as I did as a child. I know you
have prayed this prayer as I have. God
bless each one of you. With much love,
barb
I remember one night Mary Lou grabed
Linda b the hear of the head and slamed
her over and over against the
wall. Then she would take the cowhide
belt and beat her with that. Then she
started over
again slaming
her against the wall. Johnnie came in
and told her
that if she sisn't sp that he was going
to shoot her
dog. The dog was in a cage out in the
field becouse
she was in heat. Daddy told him that if
he shot the
dog that he would rebrake his amkle that
he had just
gotten out of the cast. Johnnie went
and got his 22
and shot at the dog. He didn't hit the
dog but daddy
grab him and started twisting his ankel
trying to
rebrake it. Marylou was still banging
Linda against
te wall. I was hiding under the kitchen
table
screaming "PLEASE STOP, PLEASE STop" she
wouldn't
stop she just kept on hitting her
against the wall
tell she passed out. The next day they
took Linda to
Juvinal hall. I was at the kitchen sink
washing
dishes when Johnnie came into the house
and told me
we were going to run away. I told him I
wasen't
running away becouse I had to be here
when Linda came
home. He told me Linda wasen't comming
home. I told
him yes she is. She will come back she
wont leave me.
He said that Mary Lou and daddy wouldn't
let her come
home. I was so scared I wanted my
sister. Linda did
come back. I knew she wouln't leave me I
was about 8
when this happned.
It wasen't long after that that Mr.
Talbet came and
took Linda and I away from school. We
went to a big
building and Linda told me that this was
a court
house. She told me not to be afrade that
everything
was going to be alright. They took her
in to a room
and I had to wate outside with a lady.
When she came
out she was crying. They told me I had
to go in this
room. I was so scared. Why had Linda
come out of
there crying. When we got in there there
was a man
setting there with a black roab on. He
smiled at me
and told me not to be afrad that he
wasen't going to
hurt me. He put me on his lap and told
me he needed
to ask me a question. "Barbara we are
going to placee
your sister Linda in a home for
protection and I want
to know if you want to go with her." Now
that was a
stuped question I thought. I have never
been away
from my sister and no one was going to
seperate us
no. I told him that I wanted to go with
my sister.
That was the day Mr. Talbet took us to
place called
Saint John Vinnie School for girls. Let
me describe
this school to you. When we drove up the
long
driveway you could see the large fince
with barbwire
at the top. It had bars on all the
windows. It was
four stores high. It was a very scery
site. When they
got us to the door a nun opened the
door. I was so
scared I think I proubly squesed Linda's
hand so hard
it hurt. This nun said to come on in.
She took us to
a room off the frount door and told us
to wate here
while she got the mother superior. I
don't know about
Linda but I was scared. Real scared.
When this real
tall lady in black came in all you could
see of her
was her face and hands. I tried to hide
behind Linda
but this lady smiled and told me to come
out that she
wasen't going to hurt me. She held her
hand out to me
and wated. I looked at Linda and she
told me to go
on. So I took this lady's hand. Her name
was Mother
supeior. She took us down where all the,
(300), girls
were having dinner. I was so scared I
could hardly
eat. After dinner we went up stairs and
they told us
to take a shower becouse everyone was
going to go to
the gym to see a movie. We did and put
on Pj's and
then we all marched down to the gym to
see a movie.
Mother Supeior set me down by her and
held my hand
all during the movie. She new I was a
very scared
little girl. I was the youngest girl in
this reform
school. It was a place for very bad
girls. The reason
we were here was becouse Linda said they
had no place
to put us.
I Was about 12 or thirteen when this
happned. I was very sick and I remember
them puting me in a dark room all by
myself. Right next to this room was the
detention room. That is where they put
you if you did something very bad. They
have two girls setting out in front of
the door watching every move you made.
You were only allowed to move out of the
cahir to go the bathroom or if it was
time to go to bed. I don't know what she
did but she was not very happy that she
was there. I could hear her scream and
cuss. The next thing I heard was her
banging on the bars and then I was
looking to see if I could see her from
my window. All of a sudden I say her
falling and she hit the sidewalk and
splatred all over. I remember seeing Mr.
Shoomaker come with a wheelbarrow and
scooping her up with a shovel. I heard
them talking and saying that she had
gone crazy. That there was no way she
could have pulled those bars off the
window but that that is just what she
did. I didn't sleep very good that
night.
I remember my 8th grade gradguation. I
was so happy that day. Linda was
graduating from the 12th. We were all in
the gym with our familys after the
cermony. Mary Lou and dad was there and
I was setting there with them wondering
where Linda was. All of a sudden I saw
her. She was with Vera our real mother.
And our brother Johnnie. She didn't even
look at me or anything. She just turned
around and walked out of the gym with
them. I did not understand what was
happening. Where was my sister going? No
one would tell me for the longest time.
I started to cry and no one seemed to
care at all. I wanted my sister. The
mother superior came up to me and told
me that Linda went to live with Vera.
That she wouldn't be back. No this could
not be true not Linda she wouldn't leave
me here without her. She loved me to
much for that but she didn't come back.
That night in my bed I cried and I
cried. One of the nuns who I had loved
so much came and held me and talked to
me telling me that she loved me and I
told her No you don't no one loves me
and I hate everyone. She told me that
God loved me and I told no he dosent
because if he did the he wouldn't have
left me here with out Linda. I told her
I hated God and I hated everyone else.
Because no one loved me. I did nothing
wrong to be here and yet this is where I
am. I cried and I cried. She held me all
night and when I awoke the next morning
she was still holding me in her arms. I
was a little girl who knew in her heart
that no one cared anything about her. I
had loved and once again love was jerked
from me.
I got out of the reform school at the
age of 17. I had an appendisaties attack
and was sent to the hospital. After the
sugary they told me to get up and walk.
I told them that I was not going to get
out of this bed tell they told me that I
did not have to go back to the school.
To make a long story short I went to
live with Mary Lue and dad. I was a
junior in high school with only one
credit from being gradguated. I took
both years in one and gradguated from
high school that year.
While I was living there that year my
father tride to rape me. I fought him
and would not let him do this thing that
I knew was wrong. He was not happy with
me but I was a big girl now and did not
have to let that happen again. Just
before gradguation I applied to go in
the Navy. He took me aside one day and
saie., "Barbara there is something I
need to tell you." He told me that he
was not my father and that I was
falsifying papers. That he was not my
father. This was another blow on my
heart. No matter what he had done to me
I had always loved him. Now he stand
there and tells me that he is not my
father. Now you remember when I told you
not to forget the name on my birth
certificate. Well now you know
why.
After school I went into the Navy where
I met my husband and soul mate Harold
(Willy). I have 4 wonderful children and
10 grandchildren and 1 great
grandchildren and now I am loved and I
love them all very much also.
The fellowing was given to me from God by my sister in Christ Jesus and it has helped me to forgive and forget and I pray that it will also help you who have been hurt by those you loved and trusted.. What God asked sometimes is not easy to do but we must do this to be abel to stay on the path of His love. Thank you my sister Katie for loving me enough to share Gods words with me.
ALL of us MUST learn to better ourselves from our hurts and the wretchedness of our past; because to learn and grow from a situation, is far better...than to fall into a hole and never learn from it, but to pull in the earth after us...see what I mean? WE GROW from our hurts and wrongdoings..whether we have committed against another or they against us...makes no difference to GOD...a lie (little white one) is just as bad as a achild molesting murderer in HIS eyes..because SIN=SIN and there are none great or less...like the WORD says: "A little leven, leveneth the whole lump." In other words "one rotten apple can spoil a whole bushel." One little sin can send the soul to hell..whether it be our speech, our actions, our intake of the world as a whole, like what we "watch" on t.v.(that is a great tool of the devil)..believe me because it can get by with sitting in our houses doing nothing but bringing forth across the airwaves all kinds of SINS and we sit there and WATCH and LISTEN and EAT of all of that garbage..until it takes root in our innerman and soon we have the WORDS and ACTIONS coming from ourselves...and wonder "where in the world THAT came from"? If we eat of garbage continuously, then it has to come out somewhere and it is usually out of our mouth and out of our heart...into our daily lives and it grows there until we become "numbed" to it and think it is NOT SIN, but just the way we are. When JESUS said FORGIVE...HE said to LOVE is to "FORGET"..to FORGIVE is to LOVE..and to LVOE is to FORGET". THAT is what HE did at calvary for us...HE LOVED..HE FORGAVE..HE FORGOT and HE LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY...and even asked the FATHER to forgiev them there (and not to hold it against them..FORGET IT)! So should we do any less..
I have forgiven all of them and I write
this only that you who read this will
know that you are not alone in your
suffering and pain. You must forgive
them and then you must FORGET like Jesus
did. The forgiving is not easy unless
you know God and Jesus. They are the
rock that we must stand on to keep us
strong in this forgiviness. I love each
of you in Jesus name..
MOM,
BARBARA AND FRIEND AND SISTER