1
we walked the town square
mid-morning strolling
telling her stories aloud
to further our reasons to doubt her

i thought of the morning
slept through the service
lost one of nine lives
still i laughed the same

im watching my tears
hit this pillow
praying for comfort
or numbness

stayed until 7
looked for your car there
didnt understand such loss
until i felt it

so let this heart go now



2
so how could you not be regretfull
especially after all of my understanding
waited and gave space
patiently loved you
and in return lost you
yeah maybe i whine
and make things much worse
but i just have to tell you
that i feel so cold
this afternoon i raked leaves
viewed the country scenery
and missed my freind
wish i couldve been all you wanted
or said the right words
but its just not me
im meant to be lonely



3
couldnt quite make out the last words you spoke
as you left that sunday afternoon
leaving everything here at home broken
i didnt even want to return
so i slouched in guitar stores
speaking of music
relating to none
i just need some calmness
to oppose the rest of my life
i need to find comforts fountain
and drink until drunk
intoxicated enough to go back home
where shes waiting to fuss
and scream expectations
as i dream of aleviation
i just give in
and she begins



4
she died with a frown
we wept at her funeral
we asked ourselves were did we all go wrong
i couldnt quite place it
1996 a possible turn
when life seemed to wait for me
and i just walked slower
and so in that same breath
am i the one that showed her
how to die



5
another bleak fall
that makes me feel comfort
leaves have painted the lawn again
i walk through my yard
admiring the weather
wondering where all this time its been
rake leaves into piles
to jump in them sideways
to jump in them all day



6>
i tried so hard to love you
you only left me cold
you stranded me, im foreign
and i am growing old
drownded beautifully in my
sea of rejection
and almost redemned all
but not quite





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