Fear Keeping Her Alive

Theres a girl blocking her innocence from shining
She holds back her feelings and speaks only what her heart sees.
She doesn't understand what life really means
or what feelings she now expresses.

She doesn't smile nor look anyone directly in the eye
She is no longer honest with herself
and when she looks in the mirror its got to be somebody else.

The girl she has become is the one person she promised she would never be.
Things that have happend don't make since to her these days.
Things are not adding up and others don't make anything eaiser

Her dreams are no longer dreams but memories of childish innocence
Her heart no longer laughs and smiles with energy
Her soul is no longer grace passing through her eyes,
its turned into nothing but fear keeping her alive.

The girl she has turned into
is the only person she hates.
The world she once loved would be a better place
without the horror of living.

Things are not adding up or making any sense.
Her love for life has vanished with nothing but traces of ashes remaining.
The memories of her beautiful past
are over taken by the evil that now surrounds her heart.

What is she supposed to do?
How is she supposed to survive in this crazy world alone?
How is she supposed to react to everyone smoothering her life.
How is she supposed to love in a world she can't understand?

This is not the way it is supposed to go.
This is not the way the Lord had planned.
This girl has dreams- she was going to be successful
Now she hopes to make it alive at all.

Why has all this happend?
Why has her life become nothing but a horrid dream?
Why has life turned into nothing but a painful game
With everyone else making the rules as she falls flat on her face?

The demands have taken control over the innocent girl.
The painful expierences that once filled her heart
have taken over complete control of her body
and her soul is waiting on the other side.

Pain

Anger, frustration
Crying myself to sleep
No one hears
All ignore her pain.
She feels invisible
Her emotions overflow
No one listens-
Heart breaks in two
Love she used to have
Is now a harden shell.
Her headaches
Her muscles tense
She feels like giving up
Will they ever understand?
Can anyone hear me!?
I shout
Yet noise is not coming out
I cry
Yet the tears are dry
No one can undertstands
For no one trys.

Story about "Fear Keeping Her Alive"
Emotions on paper....simple as that.